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    When Ilya asked for something inexpensive for his birthday, he expected flowers and cake. Maybe a self-made card.

    He did not expect 365 emails. Or rather, the promise of them.

    Ilya is promised that for the next 364 days, he will receive an email every morning, each containing a song that reminds Shane of their seventeen years together—from first meetings and first fights to weddings, championships, and everything in between.

    A year of music. A year of memories. A year of Shane loving him as intensely as ever.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander, a veteran airline captain who has spent his entire life in the closet meets Ilya Rozanov, a younger, gay first officer transferred after being outed in Moscow. Forced together in the cockpit on long-haul flights, their professional tension slowly gives way to something neither of them expected.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    “Oh my god,” Hollander squeaks suddenly.

    Ilya freezes. “…What.”

    Hollander is staring downward. “Are you hard?” His voice is higher, not like the monotone that he's gotten used to.

    Ilya instinctively steps back and glances down. Fuck. Yes. Very. He exhales heavily. This is unfortunate. He’s not mortified—he’s never been ashamed of his sex drive—but this situation could easily become awkward and borderline predatory.

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    Or, Ilya Rozanov is a legend, one of the greats of hockey, and the new head coach of the Boston Raiders, and his life is derailed by Shane Hollander, the 19-year-old genius rookie from Montreal.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.

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    Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.

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    26 Apr 2026