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    Cocaine was somehow everywhere in Shane’s life, at every party, in every pre-season lecture from coaches, in every post-season warning, every wild story the guys told to tempt the rookies into pleasure and scare them into line. And yet, Shane didn’t actually know much about it. He was too chicken, too prudish, maybe. He thought he was too good to ever need to know. Maybe Rozanov was right.

    “Okay.” Ilya’s agreement startled Shane from his thoughts. “My Jane… she is good lay, mm? The best, maybe. And she doesn’t like coke, not even for fun. So, I will not do it. One year. To prove a point and keep her happy. I do not have addiction problem, so will be easy-peazy. And when I win, I will get whatever I want. Okay?”

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    Or, my Shane and Ilya cocaine thesis

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    David’s first thought is, I need to tell Yuna.

    His third thought is, if I out my son I will lose his trust forever.

    In between those two thoughts is holy fucking shit that was Ilya Rozanov.

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    Marlow finds out Ilya, his boy Ilya that he trusts more than life, is taking advantage of his boyfriend's insecurities to sleep around.

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    "Almost a year of stolen moments, of hooking up every time they get the chance, of Shane yielding more and more of himself, of Ilya being more and more free and greedy with his touches. Always pushing a little further, always desperate for each other, always indescribably better than anything else ever has been, ever could be. And then the aftermath, holding Shane while the clock ticks down in his head, how many more seconds can Ilya allow himself to stay before he has to creep out into the night like the thief that he is.

    For tonight, the clock has run out. He’s stolen enough seconds of Shane’s warmth and sweetness. If Ilya stays any longer his secret will bleed out of him, Shane will realize that Ilya shouldn’t still be here or the words Ilya is always thinking in these stolen moments will pour out of him and then Shane will know and things will probably be over between them. And Ilya can’t give up what he has of Shane, even though he wants so much more. "

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    In the first year that they're hooking up, Shane goes into subdrop as Ilya is leaving. Somehow, this is the best thing that ever happened for their relationship.

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