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    “So, umm,” Sid says into his phone, suddenly nervous.

    “Sid?” Geno’s voice registers surprise.

    “Yeah, umm.” Why is this difficult? “I’m here?”

    Geno laughs. “Back in Pittsburgh?”

    “No.” Sid clears his throat. “I’m-- I’m in the Moscow airport.”

     

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    Sid decides to spend his summer in Russia.

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    Ilya is plummeting to his death when he closes his eyes, heart full of regret.

    When he opens them in what feels like just a second later, he is standing outside a rink in Regina, Saskatchewan. There’s a banner on the building across the street:

    World Junior Hockey Championship 2009.

    What?

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    He can’t tell Ilya though. He can’t tell Ilya that his team might not be right for Shane. That this perfect solution is making Shane a worse hockey player, a bad teammate.

    That maybe Shane Hollander of the Voyagers really was his full name. That Shane Hollander of the Centaurs might not exist.

    He can’t say that. He can’t ruin everything. He can’t dim the shine in Ilya’s eyes, the bounce in his step, the color in his cheeks he didn’t have the last few years.

    Ilya sacrificed hockey for their relationship for two years, played on a crappy team and watched Shane win. It’s Shane’s turn to sacrifice, to figure out how to make this work and let Ilya lead this time.

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    Transitions are hard for Shane. Joining his husband's team turns out not to be an exception to that rule.

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    Again, Ilya feels the shame flare in his belly. He imagines his father across the counter from them, watching this unfold. Watching Ilya be babied by his fucking boyfriend over an injury. He remembered how he’d yell at his mother for babying Ilya, the word soft being thrown around a lot.

    But Ilya likes being babied. He likes watching Shane fuss and frown as he portions out the pills, filling a glass with Ilya’s favorite juice to wash them down with, then bustling up and back down the stairs with Ilya’s favorite pillow and the sleep mask he keeps in his travel bag for planes and hotels.

    He is soft. Weak too, probably. His father’s voice spits through his thoughts, sharp and disgusted. Ilya feels them settle on his shoulders, tug at his spine.

    “You okay?” Shane asks, hair messy from the shower, Ilya’s pillow against his chest.

    His father’s voice fades.

    “Yes, moya lyubov. I am okay.”

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    Or, a shoulder injury takes Ilya out for the season ten games into his second year with the Ottawa Centaurs. With one good arm and an empty house, Ilya battles with memories of his parents and his mental health.

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    After many long moments, they broke the kiss, each gasping for breath. Ilya looked down at the weeping angel he held gently, boxed against his chest. Had he ever held someone this carefully before? The boy reached his hands up and caressed his face in awe, letting out a laugh, of sorts, as his eyes danced endlessly around Ilya’s face.

    The English language left Ilya’s body completely.

    “Privet?”

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