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• and if you're so clever (then why are you on your own tonight?) by ctrlshift

  Fandoms: Mouthwashing (Video Game)  

  • Mature
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  24 Jan 2026

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Curly/Jimmy (Mouthwashing)
  • Jimmy (Mouthwashing)
  • Curly (Mouthwashing)
  • Angst
  • POV Jimmy (Mouthwashing)
  • Implied/Referenced Suicide
  • Love/Hate
  • Unrequited Hate
  • How Do I Tag
  • Pre-Canon
  • I Tried
  • Slurs
  • he said the r slur one time
  • it's not my fault that he IS one okay???
  • Song: I Know It's Over (The Smiths)
  • song not related to the fic i just like the smiths

  Summary

  You hate this fucking planet.

  
  

  You hate everyone that walks on it, you hate the cops who stick their noses in other peoples business, you hate the corner shop owner who monitors your every move.

  
  

  You especially hate the body laying next to yours.

  Jimmy is being himself and it's the last day before Curly leaves.

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  513

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  3

  Kudos:

  11

  Hits:

  122

• Summer by ctrlshift

  Fandoms: Dear Evan Hansen - Pasek & Paul/Levenson  

  • Teen And Up Audiences
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Gen
  • Complete Work

  25 Jun 2025

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Connor Murphy (Dear Evan Hansen)
  • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
  • Implied/Referenced Character Death
  • idk if it counts connor just talks about killing larry
  • Fight Club References
  • briefly
  • this is really funny if you open up your 3rd eye

  Summary

  Every single relative would be at his funeral wailing and screaming Oh Connor! Oh that rotten boy! What a disgrace!

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  466

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Kudos:

  1

  Hits:

  20

• A Meathead-Themed Monologue (On Why Neil Killed Himself) by ctrlshift

  Fandoms: Dead Poets Society (1989)  

  • Not Rated
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • M/M, Other
  • Complete Work

  01 Mar 2025

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Charlie Dalton/Neil Perry
  • Todd Anderson/Neil Perry
  • Charlie Dalton
  • Neil Perry (mentioned)
  • Todd Anderson (mentioned)
  • The Poets (Dead Poets Society)
  • attempted comedy
  • Implied/Referenced Suicide
  • Post Neil Perry's (Dead Poets Society) Death
  • Interviews
  • Inspired by Oscar Wilde
  • Unknown narrator
  • My First AO3 Post
  • kinda angsty kinda not
  • Horrible attempts at sounding old fashioned
  • Song: Tears Over Beers (Modern Baseball)
  • This Is STUPID
  • The Author Regrets Everything
  • Inspired by Achilles and Patroclus of Opus (Ancient Greek Religion & Lore)
  • yay!
  • im so full of joy

  Summary

  “So, tell me about Neil.”

   

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  short & sweet interview of Charlie Dalton!

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  822

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  1

  Kudos:

  20

  Bookmarks:

  1

  Hits:

  220