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  1. Public Bookmark 26

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    The hiatus was supposed to save them. Instead, it only pushed them further apart.

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    In 2019, Dan and Phil broke up and it nearly broke them for good. Now in 2025, Phil's YouTube career is going stronger than ever, and Dan's about to have his big breakthrough in television. When a chance encounter pushes them back together, both Phil and Dan have to decide if they really understand who they are in this new era, and what hurts more, being together or being apart.

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    16 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 81

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    Phil has known so many versions of Dan across time, and he has loved them all in their own ways.

    But none of them was this one: his Dan, sprawled beside him in a Las Vegas hotel room two weeks after his twenty-first birthday, who is sharp and unsure and sometimes infuriating, who gives hickeys to his older self and then pretends it was nothing. This one, tonight, is the one Phil loves most of all.

    A canon-inspired time-travel AU featuring secrets, yearning, self-hatred, self-love, a three-way in Vegas, and Phil Lester's unwavering belief in the red string of fate.

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    13 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 68

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    Phil storms out after a fight. Dan expects him home within the hour.

    Instead, he disappears.

    Hours later, Dan is forced to live with the crushing reality that the last thing he said to Phil was his worst nightmare.

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    15 May 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 32

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    The AU where Phil stopped posting Youtube videos in the summer of 2009, before he ever knew who Dan was. Phil's life heads into a different direction that leads to the stable life he has at 35 years old. Phil is stuck in an unfulfilling relationship with a busy lawyer. Everything changes when Phil unknowingly inserts himself into a rookie lawyer, Dan Howell's, life. The wheels of fate that stopped moving in the summer of 2009 are in motion again and Phil sees what his life should have been like for all of these years.

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    24 Apr 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 35

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    "I'm not pretending that I know what you need," Phil nuanced, "but I guess I can say that I know you pretty well—"

    Dan's laugh at the euphemism made him pause, a grin tugging at his own lips.

    "What I mean is, I imagine it as pressure, you know?" He didn't know himself. He had two degrees but pressure was part of none of them. It didn't matter. "The more you keep the valve closed, the more chances you have to explode—or, I guess, in your case, to get drunk on an entire bottle of wine and cry alone on our balcony."

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    What happens when you realise you need to come out but your feelings for your best friend and roommate of ten years get in the way.
    Or, the process between writing "Basically I'm Gay" and releasing the video (plus some more).

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    24 Apr 2026