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A decade ago, pride, selfishness and an inability to accept who he was had resulted in Dean watching as his best friend walked away without turning back. Not much has changed ten years later. He lives in the same town, talks to the same people and grapples with the same problems. At 28 Dean still says he doesn't know what he wants out of life, when the truth is he knows, has known, exactly what he wants, or at least who he wants.
He wants the boy who left, the one he had definitively shoved out of his life when they were 18.
A decade ago Cas left, frustrated and hurt at his friends unwillingness to live his own life, to break out of the box he had been forced into. In that time Cas had never really stopped trying to run away from the city, or rather the boy who had broken his heart.
Now, at their 10-year high school reunion; Dean's only concern is avoiding any and all attention, especially if it's coming from a particular long-lost, blue-eyed boy. Cas's sole focus is on finding the man who unknowingly still owns a piece of him.
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08 Jun 2026
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God is dead. Sammy finally has what he always wanted. The kid is alive again and trying to figure out the whole human schtick. Cas – Cas is complicated, like always. And Dean is barreling headfirst into a mental breakdown. It’s the end of the road so far, and the future never looked so frightening.
“I can’t,” Dean stammers into Cas’s chest. “With you – I can’t.” And Cas goes very still, stops rubbing his hand up and down Dean’s back. But I want to. Please, Cas, don’t leave me. Because I want to.
“Dean,” Cas says, still not moving. “I can tell you’re praying to me, but I can’t hear you. I’m sorry.”
An alternate ending to the series, focusing a lot on *feelings* and *mental health* and *processing trauma* – because, you know, what’s better than that?
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- Part 1 of carry on 'verse
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26 May 2023
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And Louis is not a fucking coward, but this hurts so much more than he ever thought it would.
Everyone knows that Louis is broken and Harry likes to think he can fix everything.
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- Part 1 of blue verse
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22 Apr 2023
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"Want some advices?"
"No thank you." Harry answers, trying to brush off Niall's hand from his shoulder, with no success.
"I'm going to give them anyway." Niall continues casually. "Just do like, baby steps. Day one say hi and smile. Day two suck his dick."au where Harry takes art classes on Fridays before going to work and Louis is the French nude model who drops the robe and doesn’t let him focus. There are plenty of text messages, a mess of emotions and a lot of time spent in bed.
[I don't allow translations anymore, im sorry]
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16 Apr 2023
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It's all over. It's been weeks since Chuck's defeat and Cas' return from the Empty. There are no threats on the horizon, no apocalypses to stop, but there's something that keeps the Winchesters from being happy. Something that's maybe always been there.
On their way back from a hunt, they find John Winchester, back from the dead.Series
- Part 2 of Season 15 (The casgirl era)
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21 Feb 2023