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    “You’re too pretty to be a nun,” she—the patient, the charming patient, Ava Silva, 19, no family, paralyzed from the neck down—tells Beatrice when she walks into the room.

    Beatrice doesn't know what to say to that. She doesn’t spend much time looking at herself except to smooth out her hair, to make sure there are no stray pieces of lint on her shirt. She definitely hasn’t thought about the word pretty in relation to herself.

    “I’m not,” she tells Ava directly.

    “Not pretty or not a nun?"

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    01 May 2023

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    Beatrice is contemplative. Silent. She studies Ava’s face like she’s memorizing flashcards.

    Ava knows she’s inclined towards wishful thinking, so she doesn’t entertain the idea that Beatrice came in just to do this. Just to catch a glimpse.

    Ava swallows. “Did you want another recommendation?”

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    It's 1986. Ava works at a video rental store, Beatrice is a regular, and Ava has a desperate crush.

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    03 Mar 2023

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    “Don’t forget the fortune cookies,” she says unnecessarily.

    Bea is already carrying them over, having freed them from their plastic prisons. She hides them in her hand and moves her hands behind her back. Ava sees the muscles of her biceps flex as she moves them from hand to hand, mixing them up.

    Ava pokes her tongue out of her mouth and squints. After a second, she points to the right hand. Bea hands her the fortune cookie she’s holding and sits back down, cradling her own fortune cookie.

    Ava doesn’t wait for any kind of ceremony. She breaks her fortune cookie in half and pulls the fortune out, putting it facedown. She eats one half of the cookie first, for luck. Her mom always did it and Ava doesn’t remember a lot, but she remembers that most of mom’s fortunes came true, so it must have worked.

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    18 Feb 2023

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    “You could always kiss it better.”

    Beatrice laughs, but it comes out strangled. She drops her gaze, keeping her eyes firmly on her hand. “I believe that’s the Halo’s job.”

    “The Halo doesn’t have lips,” she says, matter-of-factly. “You have lips.”

    "Yes." Beatrice hopes she’s too drunk to notice her blazing cheeks. “Thank you for that observation.”

    (or, five times the Halo heals Ava and one time it heals Beatrice)

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    02 Feb 2023

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    Beatrice finds herself musing not over duty and sacrifice and God, but the truth of angels, if they can be created rather than summoned. If they can take the form of women with overeager mouths and careless limbs and eyes with a depth that beckons - a crooked finger, a spiral staircase - if they can be both human and not, both beautiful and terrifying.

    Ava asks, What do you want, Beatrice?

    (Tell me and I’ll give it to you. Tell me and I’ll build you a home there. Tell me and I’ll rearrange the universe to make it all fit, angels and demons be damned. Tell me it’s me. Me. Me.)

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    09 Jan 2023