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    It's Fall of 2014 and Ilya Rozanov has cut all ties with Russia. But there's no such thing as a clean break, and leaving isn't as simple as never going back.
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    Basically a very self-indulgent fic about how hard it would be for Ilya to actually move on from the pain of the past and to go no contact with his family in a timeline where Grigori is still alive. Also, Ilya deserves to be known and loved by more people than just Shane and Sveta. Forced/Found Family here we come.
    *Sequel to my canon-divergence fic "To only ever know the cold" (go read that first or this won't make sense!)

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    16 Jul 2026

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    Shane gasped and stumbled backwards. “Three weeks? You decided-” his hands flew to his mouth. “How could you do this without talking to me? This is what? To punish me because I won’t come out on your timeline?”

    Ilya felt a stab of anger. “You won’t come out on any timeline!”

    Shane blinked at him. “I literally drove here tonight because I wanted to know if you would accept six to twelve months!” 

    “A timeline,” he barked. “This is our lives, Shane. I want to be with you fully now. I know you are scared, but you need to be brave, and I am so deeply fucking unhappy being your dirty little secret.”

    “That’s not fair Ilya, it’s going to be complicated for me. I’m already the only Asian captain in the league! The media, sponsors, the Voyageurs? It’s going to need to be carefully managed-”

    After the Boxing Day fight, Ilya makes an impulsive decision and agrees to a trade to Vancouver, while Shane stays in Montreal and nurses his broken heart. But an ending isn't always an ending, and the spectre of their love burns far too brightly to go down easy. A tale of love, heartache, redemption, and forging the happiness you deserve for yourself.

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    09 Jul 2026

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    Then like an anomaly in one of his datasets, a green OPEN tag appears next to one of the restaurants. Shane squints his eyes, having difficulty seeing properly without his glasses.

    Irina's Kitchen
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    Shane doesn't bother reading them. He taps on the website and waits for it to load. Only to be met with error.

    Sighing he exits the page and keeps on scrolling. Nothing that is open catches his interest and the rest are closed. He's wondering how stale celery would taste dipped in pickle juice when his eyes land on Irina's Kitchen once more.

    There's a phone number under the address. Shane bites his lower lip and wonders if he should call.

    A woman with an accented voice picks up after the 5th ring.

    “Hello?”

    “Uh, hey, are you guys still open?”

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    08 Jul 2026

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    In the aftermath of their Vegas meet up, Shane has a panic attack about their hook-ups and resolves that he is just confused about being “casual”.

    Being the problem solver that he is, he reckons this can be fixed by gaining more experience - to the utmost displeasure of one Ilya Rozanov.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    “They are so pretty. Pretty freckles on pretty boy and I want….”

    Shane can’t breathe. Holy fuck he can’t breathe, every fucking fantasy he’s had since he was seventeen is right in front of him and he doesn’t know what to do.

    “What…” licks his lips and watches as Rozanov leans forward, like he can’t help but try to be closer, “What do you want?”

    A smile, slow and wicked, sharp canines that Shane wants at his throat.

    “I told you, to be boyfriend.”

    Or: In a world where there was no CCM hookup and they're just rivals, Shane has come out as gay, and Ilya isn't going to let that opportunity pass him by.

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    28 Jun 2026