januarys
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into your fire, i'll crawl by januarys for VoxReginae
Fandoms: Star Wars: Jedi: Fallen Order Series (Video Games)
24 Jun 2024
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In which Merrin is a liar, and Cal is fine with that.
“You should be careful with what you say to me, my Nightsister.”
Merrin pulls back with a quiet huff, ignoring the racing of her hearts as a flurry rush of desire whispers beneath her skin. “Why? Are you threatening me, my Jedi?”
Post-Survivor. No spoilers.
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chasing between the lines by januarys for callmemayday
Fandoms: Star Wars: Jedi: Fallen Order Series (Video Games)
01 Jun 2023
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Merrin is feeling blurred around the edges and Cal brings her back into focus.
Cal huffs as he pulls away briefly, his cheeks now flushed by more than the heat of the room. “Did I say something funny?”
"You always do.” Merrin teases. “It is hard to take you seriously, Jedi.”
Cal’s ridiculous grin lights up his face again, and his eyes glisten mischievously. “I should’ve just let you languish in here, Nightsister.” He presses his nose into her cheek and breathes her in. His body burns against her, reminding Merrin of the warmth surrounding them and heightening it further against her cool skin. “Can’t even do a good deed without you teasing me for it anymore.”
Post-Survivor. Minor Endgame spoilers.
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no one dies from love by januarys for callmemayday, starsscarmyceiling
Fandoms: Star Wars: Jedi: Fallen Order Series (Video Games)
19 May 2023
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Cal Kestis is a menace and Merrin discovers just how true a fact this is.
Without thinking, Merrin pulls back and darts her hand out to hold his chin firmly, keeping his eyes steady on hers. “It will be you who surrenders here, Cal.” Merrin breathes out in the space between them. Her words settle across Cal’s shoulders, his eyes glinting mischievously. “Or... we shall fall together.”
Post-Survivor but no major spoilers.
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when storms would come by januarys for callmemayday
Fandoms: Star Wars: Jedi: Fallen Order (Video Game)
07 May 2023
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In which Cal embraces the darkness and Merrin guides him home.
Merrin decides that she will not seek blame where it is not deserved. She will forgive instead, not the breeze or the warmth of the day, but herself. She has been the voice of her fallen sisters, the final rush of blood for those who sought their revenge against Dathomir, and vengeance was all she knew once.
"Until you handed me your weapon and cradled my hands in yours, Cal Kestis." Merrin reaches out for Cal’s hand now, feeling her breath leave her body in a quiet shudder. "You gave me the choice to set myself free or fall deeper into despair. Now, I will do the same for you."
Post-Nova Garon & Pre-Tanalorr. Major endgame spoilers for Survivor.
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chaos in blue by januarys for callmemayday
Fandoms: Star Wars: Jedi: Fallen Order (Video Game)
07 Mar 2023
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In which Merrin doesn't deny how she feels, and neither does Cal.
Chaos is a comfort and it is all that Merrin believed she would ever understand.
This chaos is different. It’s different because it’s the end of it.
Spoilers for Fallen Order.
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In which Morlund and Abadund have a few gentle moments amidst the chaos of Hidden Ember.
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Equanimity by tallmatcha
Fandoms: Biohazard | Resident Evil (Gameverse), Resident Evil - All Media Types
20 Apr 2020
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Mandated group trauma therapy is going poorly for Jill. Carlos has a better idea.
Bookmarked by januarys
25 Jun 2026
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A Long Way From Home by TheMagnificentKiwi
Fandoms: Resident Evil - All Media Types, Biohazard | Resident Evil (Gameverse)
04 Jun 2020
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Truth be told, he didn't know how to process any of what had happened over the last few days, and maybe she didn't either but he needed her here so they could figure that out together.
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In the aftermath of Raccoon City's destruction, Jill and Carlos lay low in seclusion, neither quite knowing how to deal with what's behind them or how to approach what is ahead. Together, they navigate the pitfalls of recovery amidst a new friendship and some complicated feelings.
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- Part 1 of A Long Way From Home
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After Yor gets exposed to a very potent, very illegal aphrodisiac on the job, she has two options: go to the hospital or have her husband take care of her—the old-fashioned way.
She chooses the second.
Bookmarked by januarys
23 Apr 2026
Bookmarker's Notes
Beautiful, raw, oddly comforting. Like coming home.
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He turns his gaze back on her, his expression loaded yet inscrutable. “You do it so well,” he shakes his head. “Acting like you really care.”
The words hit her, sudden and stinging. “You don’t think I do?”
He looks at her, the way one might look at an indecipherable puzzle. She supposes that in a way, that’s what she is to him. “Honestly, I don’t really know what to think anymore.”
(Or: Leon and Ada, falling apart and growing back together.)
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On ne meurt pas d'amour / No one dies from love by Vertigo1704 for januarys
Fandoms: Star Wars: Jedi: Fallen Order Series (Video Games)
22 May 2023
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Cal Kestis is a menace and Merrin discovers just how true a fact this is.
Bookmarked by januarys
23 May 2023
Bookmarker's Notes
Vertigo has graciously translated 'no one dies from love' into French and I am still so touched that they did this for me.