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    Shane’s brain cycled rapidly through a half-dozen celebrities, porn actors, Grindr profiles, every attractive bartender who’d ever served him a beer, trying to find a comparison for this level of outrageously concentrated beauty in one person, but he was drawing a blank.

    The man—Ilya Rozanov, Facilities Attendant, his badge read—gestured around the supply closet. “I help you find something?”

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    Canon-divergent AU set during the 2017-18 MLH season. Shane Hollander doesn’t have a single Cup to his name when meets a very hot and very annoying janitor who works at the Metros stadium.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    Ilya with a cat > Ilya with a dog

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    “You are…” Ilya licked his bloodied teeth and tried to remember the word. “Squeamish?”

    “No,” Hollander said. His eyes were still so wide, tracing over Ilya’s bruised face like searchlights. “Fuck. Just—”

    He stepped back, stumbling a little on socked feet, and jerked his head at the doorway. Get in.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    real yearning 🥹

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    It doesn’t take Ilya long; he was worked up already. And the knowledge that this is the bot that so often bested him on the ice, about whom a commentator once said “matches Rozanov in everything and beats him with the cool head advantage,” makes everything hotter. His supplication for Ilya. Taking orders. Ilya always thought sex with a robot would feel like that in a cold, abject way. He likes push and pull with girls especially, he likes when they obviously want it. But the bot – Shane – does suck dick like he wants it; like he needs it, really.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    shanebot forever

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    He swiped quickly past his mom and Hayden’s messages, each including various degrees of surprise and reassurances.

    Mom: Have you heard anything from Coach Theriault? I’m sure the announcement is coming any day. You’re the obvious choice and—

    Swipe.

    Hayden: Dude did you see this shit? I can’t wait when they announce yours and we get to—

    Swipe.

    Lily: Did you see they make me captain before you?

    Lily: ???

    Lily: In two weeks you will be saying “please please captain can I suck your dick”

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    Shane visits Ilya’s Boston penthouse for the first time after they become newly-minted captains.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    mutual captain kink >:)

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    Women flock to Rozanov; he’s the gravitational centre in every room. Shane gets it. He’s felt it, the shark pull of his orbit. He’s been swallowed up into the belly of desire. What he doesn’t get is how easy it is for Rozanov. Even with Shane’s teammates pooled around him on the dance floor his hands get clammy when a girl in a sequined skirt makes a move on him. Shane used to think maybe he was just awkward; maybe he needed a couple of beers in him to loosen up, but he couldn’t do that during the season.

    Then Ilya Rozanov kissed him and the craving was so clear in Shane’s mind he was able to visualise every sharp edge of it, and he knew he wanted to be on his knees.

    2013. It’s been two years since he and Rozanov hooked up in Nashville and exchanged phone numbers. It’s a month till Boston comes to Montreal and Rozanov’s promise of ‘next time’ could go into fulfilment. Shane Hollander wants to play hockey. He wants to play it well. The other thing is a thing he cannot allow himself to want.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Shane wondering how many calories there are in come, I love him so dearly