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    Varka sat down on a stool beside the cot and brought his hand to Lohen's forehead. “Mhm, you're still a little warm.”

    “How long have I been out?” 

    “Nearly nine days. I wouldn't say ‘out' of it necessarily, but you've somehow managed to sabotage yourself even whilst being out of it.” Varka glanced at the patterns the stained glass was forming on Lohen's lap, then pointedly at the cuffs that dangled by the cot railings. “Barbara was forced to give you numerous sedatives just so you wouldn't hurt yourself.”

    “Oh.”

    Varka stayed quiet for an uncomfortably long time after that. Eventually, he swallowed dryly and opened his mouth. “Lohen.”

    “I don't want to talk about it, Varka.”

     

    Or, Lohen grieves.

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  2. Public Bookmark 16

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    "He smiles to himself and begins to walk, unhurried, in Lohen’s direction. He doesn’t try to be quiet. He wants Lohen to hear him coming – to feel fear rushing up his throat, to bolt from his hiding spot like a scared rabbit, to run. And he knows Lohen wants him to give chase. To hunt him down until he’s breathless and trembling, to catch him and pin him and make him his."

    Lohen needs to let loose. Varka, as always, indulges him.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    “I don’t hate kids,” says Lohen.

    Varka trips a little. “What was that?”

    Lohen responds by sinking further into Varka’s chest, enveloped by his heartbeat and expanding-retracting lungs. “They’re, just… loud. And needy.”

    Varka snorts. “I’d have thought that would give you some common ground with ‘em.”

    Lohen wants to pinch him, but his arm won’t move.

    “And maybe you’ve got that much in common with Mondstadt, too,” says Varka, “because we need you. So you have to survive this, alright?”

    Lohen doesn’t actually want to die, he just really, really, really wants his subordinates to live. Sometimes that means standing between them and a heaving, snarling beast and letting it do its thing.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    Varka smiled down at Lohen sadly. “Then why do you keep such tight constraints on yourself? Tell me, Lohen, for I cannot fathom how someone as strong as you sees themselves as… deserving of punishment despite having shown incredible strength against an enemy that I can swear on my honor that neither I could win against.” 

    “It’s different,” Lohen began, but his words felt hollow. He repeated, “It’s different.”

    “How?”

    Lohen could feel the same frustration clawing at his skin when his parents would berate him for going out and coming back bloody. It was something that was wired innately into his being. He needed a stimulus that proved that he wasn’t someone who could be easily stepped over. 

    “How?” Varka asked again.

    Lohen opened his mouth, and it felt as though his tongue had gone dry. He sniffled before turning his head away. “It just is, I don’t know.”

    “If you don’t know, then will you let me make the decision for you?” Varka asked. 

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    Or: the aftermath of Lohen's battle with Rerir

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    17 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 92

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    He let his hand go slack and blinked when Illuga still didn’t let go. “Okay,” he whispered, remembering that he could speak.

    Illuga shook his hand lightly. “You’re a good person, Lohen. I’m sorry that I’m prying so much, but you seem like you need to hear it.”

    I do? Maybe if you say so, I do need to hear it. Varka had said it many times, but it simply tasted sweeter when the words rolled off Illuga’s tongue. I’m sorry, I’m so sorry that you’re feeling so much for someone like me.

     

    Or: the events preceding the Traveller's arrival in Nod Krai.

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