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    He slowly disentangles himself from Ilya’s grip, never being more thankful that his husband’s the world’s heaviest sleeper. His fingers tingle as he sits up, feeling as though he’d slept on his hands all night. He pads slowly over to the bathroom, raising a shaking hand to close the door gently, wincing as it makes contact with the door frame. The bathroom isn’t large, but he instinctively heads for the corner furthest away from the door, jamming himself between the bath and the wall, pressing his spine as far into the corner as he can as his breaths begin to cycle quicker.

    Shane has a panic attack in the middle of the night. Ilya loves him through it.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    “You are so pretty when you beg me. Do it some more.”

    Shane babbles out pleas and cries for Ilya to fuck him. He isn’t sure how long he begs, but he stops when he feels Ilya’s hand against his cheek. He automatically opens his mouth and Ilya slips his index and middle finger into his mouth, pushing back into his throat. Shane resists the urge to gag. A tear slips down his cheek.

    “Good boy, Hollander. Beg me so nicely. I will fuck you. Because I want to. Not because you deserve it. Understand?”

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    22 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 78

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    “Feel good?”

    “Mhm,” Shane smiled, his eyes closing. “Feels like how I feel when you fuck me ‘n I get all floaty.”

    Ilya breathed out heavily, shifting his hips under Shane as his hand continued to rub circles on his hip. He took another few hits as Shane watched him attentively.

    “Here, you try,” he said, settling the joint between Shane’s thumb and pointer finger. “Like this.”

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    Ilya manages to take Shane home from the club without anyone suspecting a thing. Shane needs him badly, and Ilya wants to smoke. Shane has never smoked, and Ilya loves to make Shane be a good boy and wait. Maybe there's a way to solve both problems.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Shane snapped.

    Later, people would describe it differently.

    Some called it terrifying.

    Some heroic.

    Some beautiful.

    Shane himself remembered almost nothing except overwhelming, animal panic.

    His gloves hit the ice.

    Then his helmet.

    Then he collided with Volkov hard enough to rip him bodily off Ilya.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Shane and Ilya have a quiet night together when Ilya gets home after a night out at Monk's

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    09 Jun 2026