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June Hamely was an anomaly, Connor decided.
June with the green eyes and the golden brown curls that bounced when she walked. June who’s laughter could inspire any android to defy their original programming. June who made his thirium pump feel as though it might malfunction from overexertion. She was different than any other human he’d encountered; she made him feel full of life and like he might deactivate all at the same time. She was the most mystifying. The most entrancing. And more recently, the most infuriating.Series
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Screaming at the Screen Till It Does What I Want by pastelsofdeath
Fandom Detroit: Become Human (Video Game)
14 Oct 2018
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Playlist for When Your Boyfriend Stops Breathing by SunsetPlums
Fandoms: Arcane: League of Legends (Cartoon 2021)
16 May 2025
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He pictures the funeral sometimes.
He pictures someone he doesn’t know saying Viktor’s name wrong. He pictures screaming in public. He pictures stealing the ashes and keeping them in a protein powder container because it’s the only vessel big enough. He pictures lying in those ashes like a widow bird. He pictures baking the ashes into bread and feeding them to pigeons in the park.
He pictures swallowing them himself.
Or: When Viktor chooses a quiet death, Jayce learns how to love him to the edge of the end and carry what’s left through the sad art of letting go.
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Bookmarked by pastelsofdeath
18 May 2025
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In need of a good ugly sob? Love JayVik and wanna ruin yourself emotionally with gorgeous storytelling in the form of beautiful prose in two chapters? Then this is for you.
Yeah. Good luck. My cat who hates cuddling sat on my chest while I created a puddle of my own tears and tried in vain to breathe through the snot.
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For the Love of Icarus by cryptiddentalstudent
Fandoms: ダンジョン飯 | Dungeon Meshi | Delicious in Dungeon
23 Jun 2025
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He wants to try.
He is boneweary and heavy and it would be much less work to stop forcing himself-- to simply fade away. But instead he clings to the desire to be better and tries to wield it and find a reason to get out of bed. He hasn’t been able to do it yet. But maybe today he can. And maybe, then, tomorrow it will be easier. -
Pieces Still Stuck In Your Teeth by howlsmovinglibrary
Fandoms: Baldur's Gate (Video Games)
22 May 2024
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“I mean it,” she said. “Don’t kill anyone, Astarion. You’ve gotten what you wanted. Seven thousand lives was enough.”
“I don’t take orders from you anymore. You just said so, yourself.”
“The moment you kill someone,” Rose replied, “is the moment I'll know that my next task is to stop you.”
“Darling,” Astarion grinned, “I would sincerely like to see you try.”
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The Vampire Ascendent has crossed a line. Eleven years after making the biggest mistake of her life and losing the man she loved, tiefling wizard (now Archmage) Rosalie decides it’s time to put this Astarion in the ground for good. Hopefully, both her head and her heart are strong enough to see this awful task through to its end.
(A lovers-to-enemies, ‘we’re divorced and going to make it everyone else’s problem’, Vampire-Ascendent-aesthetic-but-make- it “I can STILL fix him’ fic)
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- Part 5 of Rat Bastard Boi (BG3)
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Bookmarked by pastelsofdeath
06 Oct 2023
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AHHHHH I will always recommend everything howlsmovinglibrary creates. 1000000/10. Gorgeous. Well written. Well researched. When I tell you I would stop anything I was doing for the updates ??? It eats.
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“Oh, gods forbid they respond positively to you doing a good thing,” Neve deadpans. She squeezes him a little again. “That’s sort of how it works, Astarion.”
She can’t even see it. Believes the best of them all so earnestly, himself included, that she can’t see how it would all fall away without her at the center. It’s enough to make a person feel like they might actually deserve it.
“And by it, you mean…?” he asks instead.
Her huffed laugh of disbelief ruffles the hair at his neck. “Friendship, you idiot,” she answers. “And the general acquisition thereof.”
Astarion cuts a sideways look at her as best he can with her still nestled so close. “And is that what we are? Friends?”
He’d meant it to tease her, and yet finds that the silence before her answer twists his stomach. Because…he doesn’t actually know, either.
“Yes, Astarion,” Neve says gently, after a moment. “I think we’re very good friends.”
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Neve and Astarion, continued. She's not a victim. Not a target. Not just one night it's better to forget. But then...whatever in the world could she be?
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- Part 2 of Mercurial World
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Kish has spent a lot of time in Baldur’s Gate — at least 500 hours, according to Steam. So when she finds herself staring out over Grey Harbour Docks for real, a slightly impatient vampire elf at her side, a breakdown or coma is her only rational explanation. Unfortunately, her new friends don’t care too much for rational explanations.
Faerûn wants its hero back and there’s not a lot she can do about it.
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06 Feb 2024