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When you build your life out of fear that your mental illness could worsen, it leaves little room for excitement. Luckily, Dan has found a space online where he feels comfortable.
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Bookmarked by pollockro3
01 Jul 2026
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Its portrayal of depression and trauma are so realistic. There really isn’t a clear cut remedy for these things, you just learn to live and grow albeit their looming presence. It especially helps when you have a beautiful, understanding, and supportive partner who never fails to remind you that your broken pieces fit perfectly into theirs.
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Darling, your head's not right by Ren_Saxon for skyisyapping
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
18 Jun 2026
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Phil stays quiet, his lips pressed together, until they’re all sat in their living room, Dan next to Phil on the sofa with far more space between them than they usually have, looking around helplessly.
“Just what exactly do you remember?” he asks Dan.
“Uh,” makes Dan. “I know my name is Dan. They told me.”
Dan has a ski accident and loses his memory. Phil can't do anything but offer him a home - Dan finds that said home is quite obscure.
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21 Jun 2026
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Every Time I See You Falling (I Get Down On My Knees and Pray) by lizzievampr
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
15 Jun 2026
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All things considered, Dan was happy. Happier than he ever imagined he would be, at least. Still, something was always lacking. It felt like one of his internal organs was missing, like it had been taken from him somewhere along the way, leaving behind a dull ache that pulsed with intensified pain now and then. He felt it when he was alone at a party, standing in the corner. When he was making forced small talk at a bar. When it was late at night and his bed was cold and empty. When he played MarioKart alone on his couch. When he was making his morning coffee and instinctively reached for that second mug. When he was out in public and caught a glimpse of a tall bony frame with a head of dyed black hair.
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Dan Howell quit YouTube after he broke the heart of the first boy he ever loved. That was thirteen years ago. After a lot of struggling (and a lot of therapy) he is now a well known mental health podcaster. When he is suddenly thrown back together with Phil Lester, he can't bring himself to stay out of his orbit. And it seems like maybe, just maybe, Phil doesn't want him to.
Bookmarked by pollockro3
17 Jun 2026
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midlife crisis by dippiptit
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
04 Jul 2026
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Phil Lester has been on the internet for almost twenty years.
He has a successful channel, a popular podcast, a home he loves, and a life that turned out exactly how he hoped it would. Which is why he can’t quite figure out why it suddenly feels like he’s stuck.The blond hair was supposed to help. It didn’t.
The tattoo, on the other hand, might be a worse idea.
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based on the cactuar tattoo incident they mention in the "our phanniversary wedding game". au, phil is a youtuber, dan is a tattoo artist. :)Bookmarked by pollockro3
31 May 2026
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For his uni project, Phil Lester needs to write a romance script. For the sake of realism, he decides to base it on something familiar: his grumpy, emotionally unavailable law student roommate.
Dan Howell does not believe in love. He definitely does not believe in romance. And he absolutely does not agree to being turned into one.
But as Phil starts writing, capturing small moments, quiet routines, things that shouldn’t mean anything, it becomes harder to ignore how little he’s actually changing. Because the problem with writing a love story about real life is that, at some point, you have to decide where the fiction ends… and what it means if it never did.
(or: Phil writes a romance for class. Dan accidentally ends up in it. This is, unfortunately, not hypothetical.)
Bookmarked by pollockro3
15 May 2026