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    He wanted to take it back instantly. Wanted to swallow his name down, down, down, shove it back into his heart where he’s been hiding it for - god - years. He wanted to go back in time a few seconds, to just before the moment when he ruined it all. He’d call him Hollander, instead. He’d whisper something sweet in Russian so Shane would never know - so Ilya could speak his feelings into existence without Shane hearing them.

    He’d do anything at all to fix it.

     

    (Or, Shane leaves. Then he comes back.)

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Ilya’s dad dies right before the 2017 All-Star Game, so he never learns that Shane and Rose broke up. While he’s in Russia, a threat from his brother makes him ask Svetlana for help and marry her so he can get a US green card—it’s meant to be a discreet, simple thing, but the Boston tabloids get a hold of it and then it’s all over social media. Three months later, Shane Hollander holds a press conference to share two things: he's leaving Montreal to play for the Ottawa Centaurs, and he's gay.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    (9:31pm) Ilya: I’m sorry I’ve been such a burden

    (9:33pm) Ilya: I know I’ve taken away your chance to explore yourself and find someone who’s good enough for you. I think you should take that chance now. If you find a nice boy in Montreal who you like, I promise I won’t stand in the way.

    (9:34pm) Ilya: If you still want me at the end of this, I’ll be waiting

    (9:34pm) Ilya: I’m sorry

    OR - Shane's friends keep telling him he can do better than Ilya. Ilya starts to believe them

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    02 Jul 2026

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    The airport looks like it always does. A sea of people oblivious to anything going on around them. Ilya is about to put his headphones over his ears when he sees something so familiar his brain almost doesn't register it. That is until he realizes that he's in fucking Moscow so this doesn't make any sense.

    Because right there at the gate, spread out over several chairs, his duffle bag as a pillow, is the figure of Shane Hollander sleeping. The hood of his sweatshirt is up and he's wearing sunglasses, but Ilya would recognize the shape of Shane Hollander anywhere.

    “Hollander?” he asks in shock, stepping closer.

     

    Or, Shane shows up in Russia after learning Ilya's father died. Ilya did not ask him to do this. He just showed up. And now Ilya doesn't know what to do with himself. He proceeds to just go with it, and maybe listen to Shane for once.

     

    Another song inspired fic, this time Ever the Same by Rob Thomas which I argue is underrated.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    “ a promise you’ll stay / and i start to believe . “

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    Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander make their late-night TV debut together.

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