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    His mother’s eyes darken with weariness Shane recognizes instinctually, a grief separate but not wholly unlike his own. A tear makes its way down her cheek, but Shane’s stay put, stubborn, cradled in his lashline like if he doesn’t cry, maybe none of this is as bad as he thinks it is.

    “Just—I just have to ask,” she says. Her voice lowers to a whisper, that ever-steady corner of her mouth wavering as her palm envelopes his cheek. “How long have you been hurting?”

    My whole life, probably, Shane thinks. I'm sorry. I just didn’t know.

    --

    [Or: Shane learns that skill, passion, and meticulous control aren't necessarily immunity, and that rest isn't something he's owed so much as he has to carve out for himself; sometimes with a whisper, sometimes with his pride on the line, sometimes on his hands and knees. And still, regardless, despite—he refuses to give up on this either, even if this time it means believing in himself instead of familiar schedules or rituals. Even if it means his whole life has to change to do it.

    Even if it means having to believe that he's worth that much in the first place.]

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    30 Jun 2026

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    “It’s okay. I don’t need anything.” 

    “I am not going to eat in front of you while you have nothing, Hollander,” Ilya scoffs. He plucks a can of cold ginger ale from the top shelf as casually as he can manage and slides it over the island, interrupting Hollander’s fidgeting thumbs. “You must be hungry, yes? It’s been hours since you left hotel. I can make something. Easy.” 

    “Make… what?” he asks warily.  

    Ilya rolls his eyes and tosses a look over his shoulder. “Do not worry. I will find something that works for your special hockey diet,” he teases. He reaches back into the fridge. “Tuna melt okay?” 

    “No,” Hollander says primly. “And it’s a disease. Not a diet.” 

    He pulls his hands out of the cold and turns, blinks. “What?” 

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    30 Jun 2026

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    When Rose Landry’s texts are leaked, Shane is outed not only as gay, but as an enthusiastic and talented bottom and deepthroater. He panics over being the literal embodiment of every locker room slur but gets advice for dealing with his next team practice:

    It’s time to get cocky. It’s time to own it.

    Or: Ilya grapples with top privilege and Shane gets to embrace bottom pride in the locker room.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is happier than he’s ever been and it’s all due to Jane. And yet, for some reason that Cliff can’t fathom, he refuses to propose to her. Cliff’s had enough. Rozy is going to buy a ring today.

    Cue Ilya buying a men’s engagement ring.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    “Well, I guess you got what you wanted from me already,” Hollander continued. “Whatever. Fuck you.”

    “Wait, no, Hollander.” Ilya turned, throwing an arm into Hollander’s path. “That’s not—”

    “No, it’s fine. Stupid of me to expect anything else.” Hollander shook his head, gaze downcast, the barest hint of angry pink tinging his freckled cheeks. “Thanks for making it good, at least.”

    It. His first time.

    Ilya was the worst sort of asshole.

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    In Sochi, Shane isn’t shy about calling out Ilya for ghosting after getting what he wanted. Once they’re safely away from Russia, Ilya forces himself to be honest with Shane about what that first time meant.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    What if Ilya had stayed for round two the night of their first hook up, only to fall asleep there and be discovered by Yuna Hollander the next morning?

    OR: Shane gets a version of the “Rose tells him he’s gay” conversation at 19 instead of 25, and it comes from his mother.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Post-cottage, Shane and Ilya quickly discover that hiding sucks, so they launch their friendship via a series of chaotic Instagram Lives. It predictably spirals out of control.

    Ch 1: Friends!
    Ch 2: …Uh, friends?
    Ch 3: Definitely not friends.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Scott Hunter gets seated next to Ilya Rozanov at a charity event for The Irina Foundation.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Scott Hunter claims there are no other gay hockey players in the MLH, or at least none he's met.

    Ilya Rozanov is a smart dresser, a catty bitch, and a flirt.

    Kip Grady is starting to think maybe his boyfriend is a little gaydar-ically challenged, but he loves him anyway. He'll just have to show him the light, one $40 bet at a time.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Yuna, if ever asked, would claim she accidentally dropped the glass that shattered on the floor that day and stopped Grigori Rozanov from hitting his son. That she would never, of course, slam a glass to the floor on purpose and interfere with an adult man abusing his child.

    Ever.

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    Yuna Hollander inexplicably develops a soft spot for her sons rival. In a random hallway in Los Angeles during the MHL draft in 2009. A soft spot that she works very hard on covering up over the next 8 or so years. Sometimes talking about him a little too ridiculously, or a little too much, afraid that it'll be extremely obvious if she breathes even one small compliment about him. Afraid someone will find out that she had seen something that day that brought out a fierce protectiveness in her, even if Ilya wasn't hers to protect. Shane could never know.

    Ever.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    “What? Hollander too scared to face me?” Ilya chirps, because if he goes another minute without at least mentioning the man that has been consuming his every thought for two weeks he might go insane. He needs someone else to acknowledge his existence, his absence, to fucking tell him what’s going on so he can finally get it off his mind. It’s just a stupid mystery. That’s why it bugs him.

    And then Hayden Pike looks up. Dark bruised circles under his eyes, face pale like a sheet, eyes red rimmed and puffy like he has been crying all day. The face of a man mourning.

    Ilya feels like the ice might crack under him. Something’s wrong with Shane.

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    Set pre-Tuna melt: something has happened to Shane Hollander, but of course no one is telling his life long rival what happened.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    “Is that it?” Ilya ask dryly at the exact same time.

    “Are you fucking kidding me, Rozanov?” Shane snaps, still feeling his heart in his ears. “Is that not bad enough for you?!”

    “Some people burn dolls, some people shoot them,” he has the gall to shrug. “I get threats like that all the time. No big deal.”

    “Yeah, well, I get them too, asshole, so I know this isn’t normal. It is a big deal.”

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    In the middle of a Montreal vs Boston game a threat against Ilya Rozanov becomes a security concern… and Shane Hollander kinda loses it. Just a little. In his defense, he’s pretty justified to be worried, okay? He is NOT overreacting.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    “I’m here. I’m here,” comes through, finally. “Sorry, just- I’m here. What do you need?”

    “Just talk,” Ilya begs, not even caring how pathetic he sounds. “Please.”

    “Okay, okay,” Hollander breathes. “You know. I keep thinking. This isn’t right. There’s something fucking wrong.”

    “Of course there’s something wrong, Hollander! Your building is on fire!”

    “I fucking know, Rozanov!”

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    Pre-tunamelt, in peak situationship era, Hollanov’s building catches fire… with Ilya still inside.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    It’s not the way he meant it, but if Hollander takes so much fucking offense on the (not even intentional) implication that there’s something more than rivalry going on between him and Rozanov… so be it. Scott isn’t here to coddle some homophobic crybaby.

    Scott straightens, squares his shoulders, pulls on all of height, his strength, his anger.

    “You fucking heard me, Hollander.”

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    Or: Scott completely misreads his fight with Hollander in the ice

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    26 Jun 2026

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    He’s about to unlock the door when his phone buzzes, no doubt with an apology or an explanation. Someone screams outside of the bathroom. There’s a loud noise. More screams. What the-

    His phone buzzes again.

    Jane: don’t come out

    Jane: hide

    Jane: guns

    Jane: idk what’s happening

    Jane: call the cops

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    Shane, Ilya, Scott Hunter and a bunch of MHL players find themselves in a hostage situation in the middle of the Las Vegas award ceremony. (Mid-situationship, the year pre-tuna melt).

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    25 Jun 2026

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    “Y-Yeah, totally,” Shane replied. “D-Do you uh– do you know who that kid with Rozanov is?”

    Scott laughed a little, tilting his head in confusion.

    “Probably Rozanov’s kid,” he informed Shane, causing his brain to stall completely.

    “You didn’t hear?” Scott asked, and Shane blinked, trying to reboot his mind from the crash that Scott had just caused. “It’s why he took time off,” Hunter informed him. “Found out he had a kid, I guess. Or something like that, I didn’t really get the details.”

    Of all the reasons he’d thought of for Ilya disappearing for the past month, this had never crossed his mind. A million different thoughts raced through Shane’s mind. How the hell was Ilya a dad, and why hadn’t he told Shane and how the fuck did Scott Hunter of all people find out before him and—

    And what the fuck was Shane supposed to do now?

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    After the tuna melt situation, Ilya suddenly disappears from hockey for six weeks, claiming some sort of family emergency. Shane showed up to the All-Star game ready to try and fix things, only to be shocked to find a little girl at Ilya's side with remarkably familiar blue eyes.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Ilya doesn’t know what he expected when Katya called him, but this certainly isn’t it.

    A daughter.

    His eighteen-year-old niece has a toddler.

    It’s not just Mila’s existence, although that in and of itself is a surprise to say the least, but it is everything about the two of them.

    Mila is silent, eyes wide and searching. She hasn’t uttered a single word.

    Katya responds when spoken to, quietly, politely. Scared.

     

    Or: Ilya Rozanov's niece turns eighteen, and with the money from her trust, she flees to Canada with her toddler in tow.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    In the middle of the night, Ilya receives the call that ends his and Shane’s world. He spends the morning shielding their daughter, bright-eyed Lucy, with cereal parties and extra cuddles, delaying the moment he must break his husband Shane. Once the news is out, Ilya and Shane summon every ounce of strength to shield Lucy’s innocence from the pain of the world. Only after dark do they finally collapse, clutching a pair of tiny, pristine baby shoes that will never be worn.

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    A one-shot where Shane and Ilya grapple with the loss of a child.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    21 Jun 2026

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    “I’m sorry,” Shane whispers against Ilya’s hair. “I’m so, so sorry. I didn’t—”

    Shane cuts himself off with a faint stutter in his breath that Ilya feels in his own chest.

    “Please,” Ilya begs, but he isn’t sure what he is even asking for.

    He wants Shane to leave. He wants Shane to stay. He wants Shane to hold him and never let go.

    Ilya feels Shane’s fingers fist in his curls, holding tight as if Ilya could ever bring himself to pull away.

    Shane doesn’t know that Ilya could never, that he cannot fathom turning his back to take even one step away from him.

    All he can do is push Shane away, make him walk first, and pick up the pieces left behind.

     

    Or an alternative to that fight from the long game, but instead of Shane leaving as Ilya asks, they actually talk it out

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    20 Jun 2026

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