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"Alex don't stop, don't you dare to stop...." Alex didn't dare to stop, she was sucking fast, and her fingering never disappointed Lena. Lena immediately started to feel the sensations of orgasm build up. Then Alex felt Lena's pussy clench tight around her fingers, and she watch Lena's neck throw her head this way and that as her hips rode out waves after wave.
Alex lifts her body so that she can look at the woman in the eyes, Lena still closes her eyes, usually Alex will kiss Lena's sweet lips, but this time she kisses Lena's forehead with one sweet move, her wet lips feel so soft on Lena's forehead, making Lena open her eyes in surprise.
The look in Alex's eyes was familiar, it was the look that that make Lena almost get used to it, such as drinking coffee in the morning, and science novels at night. But Alex's eyes get soften tonight.
Lena knows Alex is always a gentle person, and that's what's made her comfortable being around Alex the last few months. No one's ever been so gentle with her, all her life. Soft but strong at the same time, and Lena isn't used to it, but she likes it anyway.
"What? something in my face?," ask Lena, Alex on top of her body, Alex's eyes on hers, usually Alex will quickly go to the bathroom, or roll over next to her, pull a blanket to cover their body, and tonight is quite cold, and Alex has been staring at her for too long.
"No, you're just.."
"Just what?," Lena raise an eyebrow, a little smile on her voice.
"You really want me to speak?"
"Of course i wanna know if there's something wrong with my face. I will be in conference call with Hongkong in an hour and just in case if you are ready for round two, maybe i don't have time to look at the mirror."
"Lena.. it's not that.. Lena i--"
"What's wrong with you tonight, Director?"
Alex tilts her body a little, so her eyes meet again with Lena's eyes, she is the director of the strongest organization in the United States, she fights with different kind of Aliens everyday, and it is very funny if she can not say three words eight letters to this woman.
But this is not ordinary woman, this is Lena Luthor.
"Lena, you know i love the time when we're together, and i wish someday i have the courage to---"
"To build serious relationships once again? After Maggie i mean?"
"Yes, after Maggie, i--"
"You can just tell me when you already find one. It's okay, you know?"
Alex can barely believe what she's hearing. "What do you mean, Lee? "
Lena actually knows what Alex wants to say, and this is the thing she's been avoiding all this time, but the way Alex call her name..
"Yeah, I'm not holding you here. You know, you can always find a serious relationship, or a future wife. I know what you want about marriage, I always knew, we all always knew, Alex.."
"O--Okay.. i got it."
They were so close that Lena can saw the break in Alex's eyes. She can even listen to Alex's very strong heartbeat even though she doesn't have super-hearing.
And Alex got out of bed. "DEO thing," Lena heard as she wake up from the king size bed.
With shaking hands Alex looking for her clothes on the floor and almost get frustrated when she couldn't find her underwear, she almost decided to put her pants on and skip the things, but leaving her underwear here sounds ridiculous, and she doesn't even know if she's going to come back to this place, where she's been warming up her bodies for a few months.
"Alex, i-- " But Lena didn't know what to say because Lena's heart, brain, and mouth were all on different pages, simple as that.
"It's okay, miss Luthor, i forget something in DEO, i have to go."
Alex forced a smile, an awkward smile that's actually adorable for Lena. Lena's been in love for times, but never like this, and she doesn't want this to be love. She likes to be around Danvers sisters, and she lose every person she loves, and she doesn't want to lose any of her Danvers sisters, let alone both.
Lena heard the sound of the door slamming quite loudly. Alex never slammed the door. Alex was never mad at her, and Lena knew this time she was making trouble. She once forced Alex to eat kale salad, and Alex ate it with pleasure, then a large glass of kale juice and Alex drank it with a smile on her face even though Lena knew she wanted to throw up. And Lena once took Alex to a cat shelter on their day off because Lena was silently love cats and Lena didn't know that Alex was allergic to cats and Alex just wanted to make her happy so Alex had a severe allergy when her whole body felt itchy and her breath was tight, and Alex wasn't mad at her at all.
And that's why she can't be in love with Alex, because it's too risky...
Alex drives her bike really fast, with no definite purpose. Maybe she'll go to the DEO and punch some punching bag until her hands are bruised or going to the bar and spending a few bottles of whiskey. But when she's stuck at a red light that she can't avoid, she groped something around her belt and she realized that she left her gun on Lena's kitchen table. They both got too deep in lust when they arrived to Lena's apartment, and Alex undressed Lena on the kitchen counter, then put her gun around there. And Alex is feeling really sloppy right now and she's texting Lena.
Alex Danvers : i left my gun, in your kitchen.
Alex Danvers : Can someone delivery it to me to the DEO?
Lena Luthor : Found it..
Lena Luthor : You just can come right back here when you're done there.
Lena try to push her luck.
Alex Danvers : I can’t..
Alex Danvers : I mean, I'll probably be done in a long time..
And Alex Danvers never been a good liar..
Lena Luthor : Then you can pick me up at breakfast, you said you wanna try the Dimsum at down the street.
Alex Danvers : Just bring it with you to the office at the morning, i'll sent Vazquez
Alex Danvers : Because i’m not really sure how long it take until it's done..
And Lena know its sounds like goodbye because Alex never rejected her before.
Alex was on a dangerous mission one day and Lena was desperate to eat salmon steak at the time. And Supergirl dropped Alex off on time at the L-Corp balcony, and they ate steak with Alex still in her tactical gear that night.
And Lena swears she's going to give Alex time to think that this is the best for her and Alex. Like between her and Kara, the difference is there's no sex between Lena and Kara and they're just fine. Alex is a genius, she must have realized that Lena was right, Alex just need time, then Alex will come back to her with a smile on her face and they can go back to normal again..