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Everything had started out perfectly. A little too perfectly if they were being honest but how could any resist it? They had met you through Kenma, a friend he made at college who he had taken an interest in after finding out how good you were at video games and you had the patience of a saint and never pressured him. He found himself instantly drawn to your calm nature, it reminded him of Kuroo and Akaashi, a perfect blend that made you, you ...
You had became one of his most treasured friends and he really valued you and your friendship. Eventually you hung out at his place and met the enigma that was Kuroo Tetsurō, and while you wouldn’t admit it outright at the time, you immediately took a liking to him.
You had met their other friends too but no one caught you attention the way the 4 of them did. You and Kenma had an understanding, he would sometimes mess around with the trio especially Kuroo but they were only with each other exclusively, like a threesome with a dash of Kenma, it made you giggle when you first found out but never judged them and never bothered to feel weird about it either.
You quickly became an important part of their lives. You’d stay up and watch stupid movies and tv shows with Kuroo and Bokuto. Visit them when they had practice and make sure they ate. You’d listen to Akaashi complain about his busy day and let him lay his head in your lap and you gently massaged his temples. You made sure he got enough sleep and would even sleep next to him until he was out. You would gladly play video games with Kenma into the late of night, still making sure he ate and got enough sleep. You’d even be his eyes and ears when he was too engrossed with his switch. You were the centre of their universe and the glue that kept them together.
Until you weren’t anymore, and God did it hurt.
“Kuroo! Get up or you’ll be late again” Akaashi sighed, the dark circles around his eyes were more prominent due to his lack of sleep. Akaashi was an insomniac and it only got worse when you left.
[A few weeks ago]
You had just gotten out of class, looking forward to spending the weekend with your loud (Bokuto and Kuroo) and overbearing (Akaashi) boyfriends. You went to your own apartment to take a shower and pack a bag. You’d be staying with them for the next week as you had finally gotten time off from your hectic schedule. What you hadn’t been expecting upon entering their shared apartment, was the loud arguing and shouting coming from the kitchen. You paused before taking off your shoes and shrugging off your jacket.
“Kou?” You called out, walking further into the apartment
The shouting stopped and the 3 of them stepped out the kitchen. You could feel the tension and the fact that Akaashi’s eyes were red made you worry. He only ever got like that when he had a really bad day.
“What’s wrong?” You asked, biting your lip. A habit you had picked up as a child whenever you were stressed out or worried
“It’s nothing” Kuroo said and his tone was clipped. You tried not to get offended by that
“Don’t lie to her” Akaashi said, softly and Bokuto’s shoulders tensed again
You looked between them and knew something was wrong. You frowned and crossed your arms
“What is going on?” You asked. You knew they had been together way before you came into the picture and it had only been a few months since they asked you to be their girlfriend and as much as you didn’t like you pry, you hated when people kept you in the dark.
“Are you happy?” Kuroo asked, looking at you and he was so angry and you didn’t understand what went wrong. Did he have a bad day? Did he get into another fight with one of his teammates?
“Of course I am” You said, your frown deepening
“Really?” Bokuto asked, “because I can’t see how you’d be happy with 3 people”
“4... if you include Kenma” he added
You tensed
“What? Where is this coming from?” You asked, your voice was steady because you knew you need to remain calm. You refused to lash out until you knew what was going on
“You deserve to be with someone who only has eyes for you” Akaashi said, he didn’t avoid eye contact, none of them did.
“You think I’m unhappy?” You ask, scoffing “you should know by now that I do what makes me happy”
“If i wasn’t happy, I wouldn’t be standing here” you added, the irritation building up slowly
“Your friends don’t seem to think so, in fact they think you’re being forced into a situation because you probably like one of us and don’t want to ruin that” Kuroo scoffs
That hurt. You knew that one of the girls from your classes must have said something. It wasn’t a surprise that they were very open about their feelings for you and that didn’t sit well with a few of the girls that liked them especially Kuroo’s fan girls.
You wanted to laugh but instead bit the inside of your cheek, cooling yourself down.
“So you listen to someone you don’t know over me?” You ask
“That’s not—”
“And you can’t see it in my actions either?” You continue, stepping back a little when Kuroo moves towards you.
“You’re taking it the wrong way, you know we trust you” Bokuto says calmly, trying to reach out for you
“Don’t... don’t touch me” You say and that causes all 3 of them to tense up.
“You don’t trust me because if you did, that wouldn’t have bothered you” You say and now your voice is a little softer but you won’t cry. You refuse to
“People have said things about you, I’ve never let that bother me and it doesn’t make me trust you any less” You’re moving towards the door before you realise it
“Wait, you’re leaving?” Bokuto says and you can see the panic in his eyes
“I ... I didn’t mean to raise my voice at you” Kuroo says, moving so fast to grab your wrist
“You 3 need to figure it out, I should have never come in between that because things have been weird for days now and I didn’t say anything because I thought I was overreacting” You sigh, putting your jacket on. Your force a smile and refuse to cry in front of them
You grab your bag and car keys, ignoring their pleas. You needed to get away before you had a breakdown in the middle of their apartment complex. You take a deep breath and start your car. Not sparing either of them a glance as you pull out the car park.
It’s only when you reach the end of the street that you allow yourself to cry, letting out the frustrations of the gossip you had overheard during the week from girls in your class, the frustrations of the amount of assignments you had to do that week that had kept you up late nights and the disappointment and hurt you felt when you saw their faces and the way they spoke to you, as if you were a stranger and not their girlfriend of 5 months. You knew you had to get away and get away fast.
You drove off to your apartment and you were grateful your grandparents bought the place for you and that you didn’t need a roommate. You wanted to be alone.
It had been a few weeks since you’d spoken to them or Kenma. You didn’t blame him for introducing you to them, you just wanted to forget about everything and move on. You had cried yourself to sleep the night of the breakup? Could you even call it that? You were in way over your head and hated that you and fallen for them.
[Back to the present day]
Kuroo groaned but got up anyway to get done. Kenma had come over early because he promised that he wouldn’t skip practice.
Kenma groaned, frustrated as he tried to focus on the new game Kuroo bought him a few days ago. The university you all attended was big and so all your classes weren’t nearby where you’d accidentally run into them. You shared a class with Kenma but avoided him like the plague and that hurt so he could only imagine how you felt. You always told him that trust was very important to you as you never had that growing up. You only had your grandparents and never let anyone else get too close to you. You only had 2 childhood best friends who Kenma was a little terrified of.
They had given him an earful and almost kicked Kuroo’s ass. He couldn’t blame them even if he wanted to.
“Will you stop that?” Akaashi said, “you’ve been sighing and groaning all morning”
“I heard it from the bathroom too” Bokuto adds as he enters the living room with his gym bag
Akaashi frowned. He wanted to ask about you, he needed to know if you were okay. They had tried to call and text you everyday since the situation happened but you ignored them and when he thought you had changed your number, one of your friends told him that you didn’t and you just didn’t want to speak to them. It hurt more than you changing your number for some reason.
“Are you staying over today?” Bokuto asks, leaning over to look at the game Kenma was currently playing
“Hm” Kenma nodded. “I don’t want to be alone today”
Bokuto exchanged a look with Akaashi as Kuroo came out with his gym bag.
“I saw her yesterday” Kuroo sighs, “she dyed her hair cherry red”
You looked so beautiful. You smiled at your friends as they spoke animatedly with their hands but the smile never reached your eyes and judging from your posture, you hadn’t been sleeping too well. They usually helped you with that because you and Akaashi had a similar problem with insomnia.
“Cherry red?” Bokuto smiles, “she did say she wants to try that colour next”
Kenma sighs from his spot on the couch. He knew he had a class with you today and that you’d once again avoid him. He wished he was with you when you were doing your hair, you always made them laugh as you and Kenma stayed in the bathroom as he watched you do your hair while Akaashi would checkup on you guys or Kuroo would secretly record you guys and send it to Bokuto when he wasn’t home yet. It hurt because no matter how they tried, nothing could fill your absence.
You came in like a storm and blew them away. They had never expected things to be the way it was and they weren’t exactly sure how but they knew they’d do everything and anything to have to back home, with them.