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Taehyung had always dreaded this day.
Not because he didn’t want it, but because he couldn’t have it.
He stared blankly at the letters on his arm, goosebumps bursting, heart beating inside of his throat.
His soulmate was out there. Real and living and breathing. The one he was perfect for, who was perfect for him. Someone who matched him like a puzzle piece, who could understand him in ways no one else could. Who would love him for everything he was.
And he couldn’t have them.
“Hi soulmate! :) <3” was written in black marker on his arm, scribbled in neat Hangul.
The timing of it was always random, the day soulmates were connected by the ink on their skin. For some it was in their teen years, for others much later in life. Some people wrote messages every day, not wanting to miss the very first day of their connection. Taehyung’s stomach lurched as he realized his soulmate had probably done exactly that, written on themselves every day until he would finally see it on his skin, so they could meet, and talk, and hold each other.
But Taehyung was an idol, and his life wasn’t like that.
He’d never understood it, really. Why someone like him was expected to keep their soulmate so private, to not have one at all, to be “available” for the public to love. Didn’t understand why it was written in his contract that he wasn’t even allowed to meet his soulmate, just in case they were to tell someone else. Didn’t know why he wasn’t allowed markings on his skin when it was completely normal for everyone else. Why he had to be free from “distractions,” to make the people think his ink just hadn’t appeared yet. It was stupid, truly, considering any real fans would support him in anything, especially being with someone he loved.
But he’d signed the contract anyway, had wanted so desperately to sing for the public, to tour the world, had known it would be easier to do it through a major company than to do it on his own. Had jumped at the offer as soon as they’d scouted him. But he’d still hoped secretly and with all of his heart that his markings would appear after he’d finished with fame. After he was settled down, satisfied with what he’d accomplished, earned enough money to give them both a comfortable life. So he could have his career and his soulmate both. To be that person for them, whoever they were, when the time was right. Not having to worry about disappointing them.
But here he was, at the height of his career, with words written plainly on his arm. Staring with his jaw hung slack, because he didn’t know what to do.
He'd spent years trying to ignore the idea of soulmates, looking the other way when a happy couple passed by. Wishing self-loathingly that he didn’t have a soulmate, if only to make this moment easier. Denying himself his own happiness so he wouldn’t have to disappoint anyone else.
But it was happening. Three years into his contract and two more to go. And he wanted it. So fucking badly.
He could ignore the ink, maybe, pretend it wasn’t there, avoid making marks on his own skin. Let his soulmate think that they hadn’t been connected yet. So he wouldn’t have to tell them, just yet. So he wouldn’t have to erase it without explaining why. He didn’t want to hurt them.
But he would still take showers, so it would wash away, and then they would know. And he would be in public, in front of cameras, where they could write anywhere without him being able to stop it. Fuck.
He didn’t know what to do. After avoiding it all these years, he’d never known what to do. Biting hard at his lip and quickly fucking panicking.
He grabbed a pen from his bedside table, then froze. He’d just finished a concert in Los Angeles, had barely started stripping down to shower when he’d noticed the message. Sort of wished he was in his own bedroom to have this breakdown.
It was risky. Replying to them. Initializing contact. But he knew he had to do it. In case they continued writing messages. So he wouldn’t have to risk it.
He quickly scribbled his phone number under the words, and then immediately regretted it. Was it a security risk? Should he have bought a burner phone? It was his soulmate, so they wouldn't do anything bad to him, right?
He nearly jumped when his phone started ringing.
His soulmate.
Calling him.
Probably so excited to talk to him, to finally know what he was like.
And they had a Seoul area code, too. Fuck.
He denied the call, a little frantic, knowing his voice might give himself away. Opened a chat and started texting.
Me: Hey, I’m so sorry, can we just text?
Unknown: No problem!! I get it haha
Unknown: Honestly I’m kind of glad we’re skipping the whole inking phase, I’ve been so impatient to meet you all these years
Me: Actually, we can’t really have an inking phase
Me: My job doesn’t allow me to have ink on my skin
Unknown: Oh! Noted, no worries
Unknown: Are hidden ones okay?
Me: Probably not
Me: I’m so sorry
Unknown: It’s fine, at least we can talk like this
Unknown: Are you a model or something?
Unknown: A pornstar? ;)
Me: Haha, no
Me: I'm actually under contract not to tell you where I work, and I’m sorry about that
Me: I’m technically not even allowed to have a soulmate right now
Unknown: What do you mean???
Me: It’s stupid & complicated
Unknown: You can’t control when you connect with your soulmate…
Me: Tell that to my company :(
Me: I’m actually breaking rules to be talking to you right now
Me: I’m not supposed to have any contact with my soulmate until my contract has ended
Unknown: Okay……
Unknown: Honestly this isn’t what I was expecting
Unknown: Literally the polar opposite, actually
Me: I know. I’m so sorry
Me: I always hoped our markings wouldn’t show until I was out of this position in a few years
Me: I didn’t want to have to disappoint you like this
Unknown: Does that mean I can’t meet you until years from now?
Me: I don’t think so. Not yet
Me: It fucking sucks
Me: I really am so sorry
Unknown: …
Unknown: I don’t even know your name
Me: You can call me T
Unknown: Oh so it’s that kind of job
Me: :/
Unknown: You can call me J, then
T: Okay
J: It’s only fair
T: :P
J: Will this be our last time talking, then? For years?
J: Because I have to be honest, that fucking sucks
J: I don’t even know your a/s/l
J: Can you tell me that, at least
T: I’m 25, male, and you can probably tell from my number I’m from Seoul
T: And I really, really, really don’t want this to be the last time.
T: I’m so happy to be talking to you right now
T: My heart is beating like crazy
T: I feel so guilty, I didn’t expect it to hurt this much
T: I never wanted to have to disappoint you like this
J: :(
J: I’m 25 too, male, Seoul.
J: Weird to be so close when we can’t even see each other
J: I’m happy too, btw.
J: It’s nice to know you exist
J: Despite not being allowed to see you, I guess
J: I’ve been writing on myself almost every day since I was 18. Is that embarrassing
T: Not embarrassing :(
T: I did the same thing before I got this job
J: Everyone always says you’re supposed to get your ink at the right time
J: This seems like it’s a weird time, imo
T: I’m thinking the same thing
J: :P
T: I really want to make this work, though
T: Even if I can’t see you
T: I want to be able to talk to you
J: Can’t we just text? Like this?
J: Or will you get in trouble
J: Are you going to get in trouble?????
T: I don’t think so? I can have friends
T: Just as long as you don’t know who I am, it should be fine
J: You’re sounding more & more suspicious
J: Are you a murderer, T
T: Lol no. I’ll tell you that much
J: Very convincing
T: Hahah I’m so sorry
T: God I wish I could tell you everything right now
T: To see you and hug you and hold you and stuff
T: Sorry if that’s forward
J: It’s kind of the opposite of forward
J: Considering you’re my soulmate and I can’t even know who you are
T: :(
J: You know that not seeing you will drive me crazy, right
J: I can’t even know what you look like?
J: For YEARS?!
T: I know I’m sorry
T: You don’t have to show me yourself either
T: So we’re even
J: I’m cute
J: Really cute
T: I definitely believe that
J: And I’m sure you are too
J: Which makes this way worse
T: They say we’ll be more attracted to each other than anyone else
T: So probably
J: I’ve always wondered what that will feel like
J: Seeing you for the first time
J: It’s so weird talking to you without being able to see you
J: But I guess most people do the inking phase first
J: I guess this is like our inking phase
T: Yeah, I guess so
T: Just a little longer than most
J: Do you even know how many years?
T: Almost 2
J: … it could be worse
J: I was imagining 5 or something
T: It’s still a long time
T: I’m sorry
J: It’s okay
J: I know I’m giving you shit, but it really is okay
J: It’s not what I expected but we’ll figure it out
J: Just because it’s a shock doesn’t mean I won’t get used to it eventually
T: I still feel so guilty for putting you in this situation
T: I would be so heartbroken if I was in your place
J: I know, but it sounds like it’s out of your control
J: That you would meet me if you possibly could
J: And I feel so lucky to even have a soulmate at all
J: At least we still have a way to talk to each other
J: And 2 years isn’t forever. At least there’s a finish line
T: Honestly it means a lot to hear you say that
T: I’ve spent the last few years worrying you wouldn’t wait for me if this happened
T: Thank you for being so understanding
J: :P I’m your soulmate
J: We’re meant for each other
T: .....
T: It's embarrassing how fast that just gave me goosebumps
J: <3
J: Me too
T: I really hate to say this but I should probably go take a shower
J: No worries.
J: Can I talk to you again soon?
T: Yes, hopefully
J: Okay. Talk to you later
T: <3
J: <3
~~~~~~
J: Hello not-pornstar not-murderer soulmate
J: I just realized something
T: Hey :P
J: Am I allowed to have any ink on my skin at all? Even accidentally?
T: … I guess it depends
J: Like if I’m writing with a pen and it gets on my hand? Will you go to jail?
T: I don’t think we can do much to prevent that, so it’s fine
T: And lmao no, I won’t go to jail
J: I don’t want to get you in trouble
T: Don’t worry about me, really
T: I don’t want to make this a burden for you
T: I already feel so bad as it is
T: We can only do the best we can
J: Okay. If you’re sure
T: It’s not like they think I’ll never have a soulmate. They just don’t want me to communicate with you until my contract is done
J: Can I ask why?
J: It doesn’t sound like a good job, honestly
T: It’s great in a lot of ways, but this strict stuff is the worst
T: They don’t want you to be a distraction
J: ????
J: No offense but that’s bullshit, T
T: I agree
J: Everyone has soulmates
J: It’s supposed to benefit your life, not burden it
T: I know. I agree
T: It’s my fault for signing my life away, I guess
J: What’s worst case scenario if you quit?
J: If that’s not crossing a line to ask, that is
J: I don’t even know what your job is
T: I really don’t think it would be a good idea for me to quit, even if I could
T: I like my job, a lot
T: I just wish you weren’t caught in the crossfire
J: I get it
J: You had a whole life before me. I’m not expecting you to change it
J: I’ve just spent the last few days so curious
T: I understand, I’d be in the same boat if I were you
J: If I were to guess what your job is, would you tell me if I’m right
T: No, I’m sorry
J: .... Are you in the government
T: No
J: Are you a pole dancer
T: Stop hshsh
T: Please
T: I can’t tell you
J: :(
T: I’m sorry
J: ... You didn’t say you’re not a pole dancer
T: I’m not lmao
T: Please
J: Okay fine
T: Thank you
J: Can I ask you other things about yourself? Like your hobbies?
T: Sure
T: I like to paint and take photos
T: I play video games too much, probably
T: I have a dog and he’s my best friend
T: I’m halfway-decent at playing the saxophone
J: Oh wow
J: You sound really cool, honestly
T: Haha thanks
J: I take pictures too
J: I have a polaroid camera I use all the time
J: I’m a dancer so I guess that’s my main hobby
J: Like even outside of work. I love it
J: I like reading and hanging out with friends
T: You’re a dancer?
T: You’re cooler than me
J: Lol :P
J: Yeah, since I was little
T: I’ve always been so impressed by that
J: Dancing?
J: Anyone can dance, Mr. T
T: Lol
T: I know, but you know what I mean
J: I wonder if you like dancing because we’re soulmates or if it’s just a coincidence
T: Oh good point
T: Does that mean you’re impressed with guys who very occasionally play the saxophone
J: Lmfao
J: Maybe one day you can show me and I’ll see for myself
T: I actually don’t know if you’d want to see that
J: Lmao
T: It is nice being able to think about the future like this, though
T: I spent so many years thinking I would never have this much
T: Sorry to get sappy
J: I’m an incredibly sappy person, so please never apologize for that
J: It is nice.
J: Like even though it’s far away, at least it’ll happen eventually
T: Last year I was considering extending my contract but I don’t think I could do that anymore
J: ??
J: I don’t want to hold you back.
J: Genuinely. You’re your own person
T: I know, but I just can’t imagine not getting to see you for even longer than 2 years
J: I could never ask you to put off your career for me
J: Whatever happens we’ll deal with it
T: I don’t think either of us deserves that.
T: But it’ll be okay
T: It will work itself out when the time comes
J: Okay. Whatever you say
J: I guess I’m not in a position to argue if I don’t even know what your job is
J: I’ll just keep imagining you as a pole dancer
T: Lmao. Okay
J: What do you imagine when you think of me?
T: Honestly, I’ve gone so long trying not to imagine you
T: I didn’t want to have something in my mind that wouldn’t come true
T: And I knew you’d be better than what I could imagine, anyway
T: But now that we’re talking, I don’t know
J: Yeah that makes sense
J: I don’t know why but I’ve always imagined you being taller than me
J: I’m pretty short
T: Oh really?
J: Around 174cm
T: Oh yeah you’re shorter
T: I’m around 179cm
J: Wow
J: Please ignore the fact that that just gave me butterflies
T: :))
T: Fuck we’re only a few days into this and I’m already so annoyed we can’t see each other
J: You’re telling me
T: I know I shouldn’t be complaining because it’s my fault, but really
J: :/
J: I could show you what I look like but I guess I’m too stubborn for that
T: It’s okay
J: Wait, actually
J: Here
J: [x]
J: You can have a hand selfie
J: I met a cat yesterday
T: Oh wow
T: Wow
J: ??
T: Sorry
T: Just…
T: I don’t know
T: I know it’s just your hand but like
T: That actually took my breath away
T: Like, seeing you
T: You know
J: Yeah I get it
T: You have a nice hand
J: Lmao, thank you
T: Like it just sort of hit me again that you’re real
T: I know that’s stupid
T: But like, it’s so different to actually be seeing you
J: I wish you could return the favor :(
T: Here I’ll-
T: Here
T: [x]
J: LMAO
J: THE FUCK HSHSH
T: Toe selfie
J: Oh my fucking GOD LMAOO
J: I can’t even tell you how much I hate this photo
J: Like with every fiber of my being
J: I get what you mean, though
J: It’s nice to actually be seeing you
J: Even though this is the worst picture I have ever seen in my entire life
T: :)
J: Stop
J: I sent you a nice cat
T: Lmao I’m sorry
J: No you’re not
T: :)
J: I guess we are soulmates
T: Lmao
J: That reminds me
J: I’m sort of glad you’re not like, a 45 year old man
J: I know that’s extremely rare but
J: It’s just nice you’re exactly my age
T: I know, same
J: Makes me feel like I can relate to you better
J: Even though we’ve barely met
T: I know, me too
J: Your toes are going to haunt my dreams tonight
T: At least you’ll be dreaming of me :)
J: Shut Up
J: I’ve dreamed of you every day since I was little
J: Just didn’t expect my first impression to be your foot
T: Omg
T: Sorry I shouldn’t have scarred you like that
J: Sjfjfsjdf
J: It’s fine
J: I’ll get over it eventually
T: :P
J: Just not any time soon
T: Omg
J: Wait I just checked the time, I actually have to get going
J: But I’ll talk to you soon?
T: Yeah, talk to you soon <3
J: <3
~~~~~~
T: Hey
T: [x]
J: ………………
J: Please don’t tell me this is our new thing
J: Like I’m begging
T: Lmao no it isn’t
T: I just figured you deserved my whole foot
T: Since you showed me your whole hand
J: How gentlemanly of you
T: You’re welcome
J: It is weirdly nice to see more of you
J: Even if it’s literally feet pics
J: So thanks, I guess
J: You can’t show me your hand???
T: I probably shouldn’t
J: ????
J: You think I’ll recognize you by your hand?
J: Come on
T: I don’t know
T: I’m too scared to risk it
J: …
J: Okay fine
J: So that means you’re super famous?
T: Stop
J: Fine
J: But you’re famous
T: Lmao stop
T: I won’t tell you anything anymore
J: My soulmate is famous
T: Stop hshsfjsjf
J: You’re not denying it
T: I won’t confirm nor deny
J: You denied everything else
T: Stop
J: Lol sorry it’s hard not to be curious
T: I get it
T: I just don’t want to risk anything
J: What would happen if you told me who you are?
T: I would get fired. They’d stop paying me, and I wouldn’t be able to work in this field again, probably.
J: But what if they never found out?
T: I don’t know. I feel like they would, somehow
T: It’s too big of a risk
J: I won’t tell anyone. You know I wouldn’t
T: I know. I believe you
T: But we really only just met
T: I’m not saying I don’t trust you, but something could always go wrong
J: I get it, sorry.
J: But for what it’s worth, I wouldn’t tell anyone.
J: I haven’t even told anyone that I got my markings yet
J: This is only between us unless I get your permission. I would never hurt you like that
J: Especially when there’s so much at stake
T: Thank you
T: I believe you. I’m sorry
T: You’re making this really hard, you know
T: You’re like the devil on my shoulder, lol
J: >:)
J: I’m sorry
J: I know I’m being annoying
T: No it’s okay
T: You don’t deserve to be in this position
T: I’ve been meaning to say that like, if you want to date other people, I wouldn’t stop you
T: I’d have no right to stop you
T: I don’t want you to wait around for me when I’m doing this to you
J: Thank you for saying that, but I really have no interest in dating anyone else
J: I’ve heard it’s hard to date anyway when the person you’re seeing could get their markings at any time
J: It’s not worth it
J: And honestly, I’m already very invested in you
J: Not just because you’re my soulmate
J: I’m excited to learn more about you
T: Me too
J: <3
T: Can I tell you a story
J: Of course
T: I saw an older couple eating ice cream yesterday
T: One of them smeared ice cream on the other’s cheek and they laughed like there was no one else around
T: I don’t know why but it really affected me
T: Seeing them so happy like that
T: Sharing something so simple
J: That’s really sweet :( <3
T: I just can’t wait until that’s us
T: Can’t wait to be with you and holding you and kissing you and stuff
T: I feel like we’re being robbed of little things like that
J: One day we’ll get there
J: I know we will
J: I’m glad we have the technology to be able to talk in the meantime
T: <3
J: Hey T?
T: Yeah?
J: Are you alone right now?
T: Yeah I am
J: Would it be okay if we share ink right now?
J: I know you said we couldn’t, but I’ll wash it off right after
J: I just want to know what it’s like again
T: Oh
T: Yeah
T: Yeah that sounds really nice
J: Is this a loophole?
T: It is, actually. Yeah
T: I hadn’t thought about that
J: As long as we both know we’re doing it
T: Yeah.
J: Okay. I’ll draw now
T: Are you all done?
J: Check your ribs :)
T: Oh wow
T: Holy shit
T: That’s really beautiful
T: That’s amazing, honestly
J: I’m not very good but I tried
T: No it’s beautiful
T: What kind of flower is that?
J: It’s a marigold
J: It’s my birth month flower
T: I just looked it up
T: You’re older than me
J: Really??
J: I assumed I was younger than you, for some reason
J: That means our birthdays are close, right?
T: Yeah
T: Don’t wash it off yet, I want to take a picture
J: <3
J: It’s been a while, can I shower now?
T: Check your thigh :)
J: Oh
J: God
J: There’s something so intense about knowing you just drew that and now it’s on me
J: It's really pretty
J: I just looked it up, Narcissus flower, right?
J: For December?
T: Yeah
T: I had to look it up too, lol
J: I have butterflies so fucking bad right now
T: <3333
J: <33
J: Watch your thigh again
T: Oh wow
T: God it’s so weird watching the ink appear
T: It’s giving me goosebumps everywhere
J: Me too
J: I’m really happy we got our ink when we did
J: Seriously
T: Me too
J: I’m so happy right now
T: <333
J: I’ll shower this off now, if that’s okay
T: I’ll help you
J: God
J: Okay
J: That’s hot
T: Yeah
T: It'll be weird seeing it disappear together
J: God yeah
J: Okay, heading off now <3
T: <3
~~~~~~
J: Hey
J: [x]
T: Oh fuck
T: Holy fuck
J: What
T: Sorry just
T: That’s so much more than just your hand
T: I’m in shock I think
T: Like literally
J: Lol
J: Sorry
J: Should I call an ambulance
T: Lmfao
T: I thought you said feet pics weren’t our thing
J: I guess they’re our thing
T: That’s very romantic
J: <33
T: Seriously I’m still in shock
T: You look really good
T: What I can see, anyway
J: Thank you :)
T: God
T: This is killing me
J: Sorry
T: No I mean, not being able to see each other
T: I don’t think this will ever get easier
J: It’s only been a few weeks and I almost broke down and sent you a whole selfie
J: So yeah I agree
T: Really
J: This is all you get, though
T: I’ll take it
T: Thank you
T: Seriously
J: <3
T: Wait, hang on
T: [x]
J: Oh wow
J: Oh that’s very scandalous, T
T: I know, right
T: You deserve it
J: Lmfao
J: Jesus
J: This is way better than a foot
T: Hey
J: I’m sorry to your foot
T: Lmao
J: Really, wow
J: It’s sort of overwhelming
J: Seeing so much of you
J: Even though it’s just your head
T: <3
J: Is it stupid that I’m imagining running my hands through it
T: Not stupid
T: Giving me butterflies really fucking bad, actually
T: I can’t stop staring at your mirror selfie
J: God
T: Lmao this is torture
J: Literally
J: I’ll change the subject
J: How was your day?
T: It was okay
T: Work is intense lately, honestly
T: I can handle it, it’s just a lot
T: And if I’m being honest it’s so much easier to push through everything knowing you’re out there somewhere
J: I feel the same way
J: My situation is really similar
J: It’s just busy lately, I guess
J: Learning a lot of new dances at once. It’s a little confusing
T: I can definitely relate
J: Yeah?
T: There’s a lot on my plate
J: Yeah
J: They treat you well, right?
J: With all these rules I imagine them as these big bad bosses who never give you a break
T: Lol
T: I guess it’s sort of like that, but not really
T: Everyone is really nice to me
T: It’s just intense
T: I have to meet a lot of deadlines
J: Yeah. I can relate to that, too
T: I hope one day I’ll get to see you dance
J: I’m sure you will
J: Eventually
J: I hope one day I'll get to see you paint
T: You sort of can, on our skin, right?
J: Good point
J: Actually that just gave me chills
T: Do you want to do it again tonight?
J: Yes definitely
J: I just got out of the shower though, lol
T: Don’t worry about it, I’ll shower it off for you
J: That’s still so surreal to think about
T: I know
T: Is now okay?
J: Yes for sure
T: Okay I’ll get my paints
J: I feel it tingling on my arm while you paint, a little
T: Really?
J: Really faint, but it’s there
J: God
J: Lmao those little hearts so romantic
T: I’ll paint a foot since that’s also so romantic
J: Oh my fucking god
T: <3
~~~~~~
T: Hello
T: [x]
J: Wow
J: I feel fucking honored
T: :D
J: Your neck
J: God
T: Oh
T: I didn’t even realize my neck was in the pic
J: Well it’s there
J: And I’m looking at it
T: Do you like my hand?
J: I love your hand
J: It’s so pretty
J: Is that weird to say about a hand?
J: If so I don’t care
T: It’s definitely not weird
T: Since your hands are also very pretty
J: :P thanks
T: I have a hidden folder on my phone of your pics
T: The ones of our ink are in there too
T: I’m always staring at them
J: Same, honestly
J: Currently adding your hand 12 times
T: Lmfao
J: You’re not worried I’ll recognize you?
T: Honestly…
T: Part of me hopes you will
T: Is that bad?
T: Like, I know I’m not fucking supposed to
T: But I sort of want it to happen anyway
J: It’s not bad
J: It’s only bad if your job fires you or whatever
J: And I sincerely don’t want that to happen to you
J: So just for the record, I still don’t recognize you
J: Despite your lovely neck and hand
T: Lol thanks
T: Oh well I guess
J: One day
T: One day
J: <3
T: How has your day been?
J: Really good, actually
J: I have the day off so I’ve been relaxing
J: The weather’s nice so I walked along the river
T: It’s so weird that we have the same weather…
J: I know
J: It’s weird
J: I met a dog btw
J: [x]
T: :((((((((
T: Maybe 2 years won’t be so bad if you keep sending me pics of you with animals
J: Lmfao
T: I mean it
T: You’re like Snow White
J: Lol
J: I’ll definitely send any others I meet your way
T: Thank u so much
J: How are you doing btw?
T: Today’s been good for me too
T: I got to sleep in and take a long shower
J: Oh ;)
T: Shhhh
T: Not like that
T: Okay it was like that but shhh
J: Lmfaoo
J: So did I, if it makes you feel any better
T: It doesn’t, honestly
T: Bc now I’m just wishing I could be there with you
J: <3
J: One day, right?
T: One day
J: Doing anything else today?
T: I was just going to play more video games
T: Relaxing, day-off video games
J: What do you play?
T: I was just playing PUBG
J: I hate to break it to you
J: But that’s definitely not relaxing
T: Lmfao
T: Do you play?
J: No
T: Would you like to
J: Not really
T: No I mean, with me
J: Oh.
J: I don’t know how to play
T: I’ll teach you
T: Or I’ll send you a tutorial
T: If you want, I mean
J: Yeah I would like that actually
J: Playing with you
J: Idk if I’ll like the game, though
J: I’ll probably suck at it
J: Actually I will definitely suck at it
T: Lmao it’s okay
T: I just want to play with you
J: Okay
J: Send away <3
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J: I fed a bird
J: [x]
T: Oh my god
T: You’re literally Snow White
T: My soulmate is Snow White
J: Hopefully just the animals part
J: And not the cleaning for random men part
T: Lmfao
T: Really though please teach me your ways
J: I’m a mystery idk
T: You amaze me
T: My own dog is the only animal that nice to me
T: And it's only because I feed him
T: [x]
J: :OOOOOOOOOOOO
J: You’ve been holding out on dog pics all this time
T: I’m sorry
J: I’m offended
J: >:(
J: He’s so cute :((((( What’s his name??
T: Yeontan!!
T: Do you have any pets
J: No sadly
T: Oh no :(
J: I want one, I just haven’t found the right opportunity
T: We’ll get a pet :(((
T: The same day we move in together we’ll get a pet
J: Already talking about moving in, huh
T: Oh
T: I’m sorry to assume
J: I’m kidding lol
J: I can’t imagine a world where we don’t move in together
J: Even though I still hardly know you
T: Same, and I can’t wait for that
J: Are any of your friends living with their soulmates yet?
T: Yeah, a few
J: What’s it like for them?
T: They’re all really happy together, honestly
T: And I’m really happy for them
T: It’s kind of torture for me, but, you know
J: Yeah, same. One of my closest friends got his markings when he was only 18
T: Wow
J: They had an ink phase for almost a year before they finally met each other
J: Wanted to keep the suspense, I guess
J: I don’t think I could ever do that unless I had to
T: :(((( I’m still so sorry
J: It’s okay, I didn’t mean to guilt you :(
J: And anyway, they only had writing on their skin
J: At least we get to talk to each other properly
J: This is way better honestly
T: Plus we still get our ink
J: Yeah. Best of both worlds
T: <3
J: I just realized something
T: ???
J: Your dog
J: Will he technically become my dog?
J: If we move in together???
T: Omg
T: I didn’t even think about that
T: Yeah he technically would
T: Omg :(
J: :((((((
J: Gonna go cry now
J: I want to get to know him
J: What are his interests and hobbies
T: Lmfao
T: Hold on, I’ll send you a vid of him
J: Omg I’m so in love
T: With me or my dog?
J: Your dog
J: Sorry
J: No offense
T: Lol
T: I can’t blame you
T: [x]
J: Omg
J: We’re definitely moving in together
T: As soon as possible <3
J: <333
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T: Hey
T: Can I talk to you
J: Always <3
J: What’s up??
T: I don’t know
T: Bad day I guess
J: Oh no :(
T: Just feeling a lot of pressure right now
T: It’s the usual but, I don’t know
T: Feels more intense lately, for some reason
J: I’m sending lots of hugs
T: Thank you
T: I wish I could tell you everything, I hate having to be vague
T: I just feel like I have to pretend to be someone I’m not, sometimes
J: Yeah, I know what you mean
T: It’s so mentally draining
T: Having to be perfect and live up to everyone’s standards
J: <33
J: Obviously I don’t know your exact situation
J: But it’s unfair for anyone to expect you to be completely perfect
J: It’s okay to make mistakes and have flaws and not always be 100%
J: And I’m sure anyone who’s putting pressure on you has their own flaws and problems to deal with
J: So please don’t be too hard on yourself
T: Thank you for saying that
T: It’s still difficult not to feel like I’m drowning, sometimes
J: Absolutely
J: I know I’m giving you this advice but I’m really shit at taking it, lol
J: I’m a perfectionist
J: But I’ve been trying to take more moments for myself, you know
J: Carve out time in my days to appreciate small things
J: Like taking a bubble bath, or petting a dog, or something
T: Or feeding a bird, like you’re an actual fairy prince
J: Lmfao exactly
J: If I was with you right now I know we’d be curled up together
J: Laying in bed with your head on my chest, or something
J: I’d be petting your hair and listening to your heartbeat
T: Oh my god :((((((((
J: Sorry if that’s too much
T: No it’s lovely
T: Helping me calm down
J: Yeah? :(
T: Yeah
J: I wish I could rub your back
J: And hold your hand
J: And feel you laugh against me
T: :(
J: We’d talk about what we did today and cuddle until we fell asleep
J: Or kiss, or more
J: Whatever you prefer lmao
T: Omg lmao
T: That sounds so nice :(
T: Can we ink right now?
J: Yes definitely
T: I’m going to undress all the way
T: If that’s okay
T: Kind of want to paint anywhere
J: Yeah <33
J: I’ll do the same
T: Just feels more intimate like this
T: Even though we can’t see each other
J: Yeah it does
J: I’m gonna buy some nice paints this week
J: So it’s easier
J: Marker isn’t fun to wash off
T: It’s better than pen, at least
J: Lol yeah
J: I learned the hard way
J: Long before our markings ever showed
T: Same hahah
T: I’ve tried to avoid it since then
J: Where are you painting?
T: You’ll see <3
J: I feel like I’m an explosion of color right now lol
J: This is honestly really healing
T: Yeah it is
T: Like I can be calm and take my mind off of everything else
J: <3
J: Lmao what just happened??
T: My dog smeared the paint on my leg fml lmaofsjdkjfs
J: Omg I see little paw prints HEHE!
T: Lmaooooo
T: He’s saying hi to you
J: Hi Yeontan
T: I have to go wash it off of him
J: Honestly I should probably go start our shower, I have to be up early tomorrow
J: This will take a while to wash off
T: Okay. I’ll be in to help as soon as I can
J: I’ve never been so covered in colors lol
J: It’s kind of amazing
T: Definitely same
J: I feel so weirdly alive right now
J: Okay, showering now
T: Thanks for washing most of it off :( I wish I could’ve helped more
J: Lol I don’t mind, it was weirdly relaxing
J: Watching the colors go down the drain
J: I can’t wait until we can see our ink on each other in person
J: It will be so weird
T: Omg I know
T: And if we paint on each other we’ll see it show up on ourselves??
J: Oh wow yeah
J: That’s exciting
T: One day <3
T: Okay, I should let you sleep
T: I hope you sleep well
J: Hey T?
T: Yeah?
J: [x]
T: Oh
T: Oh my god
T: Oh wow
T: Fuck
T: My heart is beating so fucking fast
T: Fuck
J: <3
T: Fuck
T: <3333333
T: You make me so happy
T: I’m so happy
J: Me too
J: Tonight was amazing
J: Thank you
T: One second
J: ??
T: [x]
J: OH holy fuck
J: ……………
J: God
J: Fuck
J: ??????
J: I have butterflies so fucking bad
J: Hsfshdfjd
J: Are you sure this is okay???
J: I’ve never seen your face like this
T: Yeah
T: I’m starting to not really care anymore
J: Fuck
T: <3333333
J: Okay I hate myself for saying this but I really do need to go to bed hsdfsds
T: No worries <3 Get some rest
J: I’ll definitely be staring at that pic for another few hours so I'm probably lying lol
J: But I’ll try
T: LOL
T: Same
J: <3 Goodnight
T: Night <3
T: I’ll talk to you soon
J: <3
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J: I bought paint!
J: [x]
T: Omg :O
T: So cute!
J: Thank you
J: I’m not sure if I like it very much but I tried
T: No I love it
T: You painted something like that on our thigh the other night, right??
J: It was sort of lost in everything else but yeah
J: Just a different color this time
T: So pretty
J: Are you doing anything fun tonight?
T: I had a date earlier
J: Oh
T: [x]
J: Jesus fucking christ........
J: The way I almost just spiraled
T: I’m sorry hshsh
J: I hate you
J: But I’m also very happy for you
J: He’s very handsome
T: Isn’t he
T: No but really
T: My plans were talking to you, and that’s about it
J: Here I am :D
T: Lmao
J: How was work?
T: Better, today
T: Got to spend time with good people
T: Not as stressed, which is nice
J: That’s really good :)
T: You?
J: Yeah, same
J: It was a good day
J: Can I say something weird?
J: You can tell me if it’s weird
T: What?
J: Sometimes when I’m painting, or falling asleep, or whatever, I imagine that you’re there with me
J: I barely even know what you look like
J: But I still do
J: I was doing it while painting today
T: :( that’s really sweet
T: I do the same thing
T: Especially when I’m falling asleep
T: Or … whatever
J: ???
J: What lmao
T: ~~Whatever~~
J: ?????????
J: Oh you mean jerking off
T: Omgghsfhh
J: LMAO
T: I didn’t want to just say it like that
J: Well I think about you when I’m ~whatever-ing~ too
J: Of course I do
T: :(
J: I’ve seen your hands, T
J: That’s all it takes
T: Okay well same
J: Lmao
T: Do you want to sext?
J: LMAO
J: 0-100
T: I don’t know
T: Isn’t that what people do
J: I guess
J: It just sounds funny
T: I guess so
J: Would you like to sext, m’lady?
T: Omg
T: Shut up
J: Can I interest you in a sext this evening?
T: I’m leaving
J: I’m sorry lmaoooo come back
T: >:(
J: I’m sorry <3
J: We can try
J: I want to
J: I just don’t know how it will work, really
J: How do people type while jerking it?
T: Omfg
T: I don’t know, honestly
T: Sounds complicated
J: It does
T: I’m sorry for asking
J: No, really
J: I want this with you
J: We can figure something out
T: Okay
J: What are you wearing?
T: Lol
T: Gym shorts and a hoodie, super hot
J: That is hot actually
J: Fuck
J: Okay
T: :P
T: What are you wearing?
J: A black shirt and boxers
J: And I’m realizing this might be a little difficult when I’ve only seen your hand and foot
T: And eye
J: And eye
T: Just imagine me the best you can, I guess
J: Okay
J: Lol
J: Then I'm imagining the hottest person I can
T: Same lmao
J: And I’m imagining laying in bed next to you
J: Just holding you
J: Running my hands over your skin
J: Or imagining that first day when we finally meet
J: Running and hugging you
J: And kissing you
J: After wanting it for so long
T: Fuck. Yeah
J: Are you touching yourself?
T: No
T: Am I supposed to be
J: No, me either
J: I don’t know how to do both at the same time
T: That’s okay, we can just talk
T: It’s okay if we don’t do anything
J: Yeah
T: I like talking like this, honestly
J: Same
J: What are you thinking about?
T: I always imagine cuddling you at night
T: Probably more than anything else
T: Just like… having you close to me
T: And knowing we’re meant for each other
T: Knowing what it’s like to feel you warm
T: And seeing you smile and stuff
T: I don’t know
J: :(((( god
J: My chest is aching
T: I’m sorry
J: It’s funny
J: Because even though I’ve imagined all of the sexy stuff, I always find myself coming back to things like that
J: Just being close to you after so long
T: Same
J: :(
T: I do also imagine the sex stuff, though
J: Do you have a specific fantasy?
T: Yeah, honestly
T: A few
J: :)))
T: I feel weird typing it out, though
J: You don’t have to
J: But I’m curious
T: I just
T: I want to suck your dick
T: Is that weird
J: Definitely not weird
J: Fuck
T: Like, I know that’s so basic
T: I just want to make you feel good
T: Like I really, really, really want to
T: Always imagine doing it for hours
T: Doing whatever you want for as long as you want it
J: God
T: And just imagining what it’ll be like to kiss you all night or just before work
T: Or while we’re already fucking
T: Or while you touch me
T: I don’t know
J: Fuck
J: God
J: My heart’s beating so fast
T: What do you think about?
J: Really similar things
J: I have a daydream about you fucking me while you’re hugging me
J: Like surrounding me, almost
J: So all I can think about is you
T: Oh wow
J: I also picture going down on you a lot
J: Or eating your ass
J: Just making you feel good
J: And kissing, too
J: I think we feel the same way about that
J: Just want to know what it’s like to be close to you
J: To feel you like that
T: This is making it really, really, really hard not to just show you what I look like
J: I wish you could
J: We could do a video call from the waist down?
T: Lmaooooooooooooo
T: As hot as that sounds, it’s definitely too risky
T: And no offense, but I probably shouldn’t see your dick before your face
J: LMAO
J: Fair
T: Lmao
J: Are you hard right now?
T: Yeah, I’m getting there
J: Me too
T: <3
J: I want to touch myself but I can’t type at the same time
J: I mean I could but one-thumb typing would probably kill the vibe
T: Lmfao
T: It’s okay
T: I kind of like this
T: Not being able to touch ourselves
T: Even though we want to
J: Fuck
T: Then finally doing it and coming together
J: Fuck
T: Should I keep going?
J: Yes please
T: I want to kneel between your legs and kiss you
T: Trace down your chest and your stomach and your thighs
T: Know what it’s like to be naked with you
T: To touch you all over and make you feel good
T: I want to suck your dick slow
T: Feel your legs shaking
T: And your hand in my hair
T: I want to taste you
J: Jesus fucking christ
T: Is this okay?
J: More than okay
J: God
T: I’m definitely hard
J: Yeah same
T: I know you’ll be so beautiful
T: All parts of you
T: Like I can’t even imagine
T: I know you’ll make me so happy
J: <333
T: You already make me happy
J: Fuck
J: You too
T: What are you thinking about?
J: That I want to touch myself
J: Like really bad
J: I’m imagining you going down on me, too
J: And after you're finished I would pull you up and kiss you
J: Kiss you everywhere
J: I’d want you to open me up slow so you can fit inside
J: I’d want to kiss you while you fuck me
T: God
J: Yeah, god lol
T: I don’t think I can wait any longer
J: Me either
T: I’ll let you know when I finish??
J: Yes
J: Fuck
J: God fuck
J: I’m so turned on lmao
T: Me too
T: <3
J: <3
J: Fuuuck
J: Okay
J: I'm done
T: Me too
T: Fuck
J: Did you feel good?
T: Yeah, fuck
T: That was way better than I expected, honestly
J: Same
T: Thank you for that
J: Lmao thank you, too :P
T: I should take a shower
J: That bad?
T: Lol I already needed to shower
T: But also yes
J: I’ll join you, love
T: <3
J: I kind of want to paint something just so we can wash it off together
J: It makes me feel like I’m with you
T: Go ahead <3
J: <3
T: Okay I don’t know what I expected but a flower made of dicks was not it
J: Don’t question my artistic vision
T: Oh my Fucking God
~~~~~~
J: Hey, T?
J: Do you have a second?
T: Yeah of course
J: I’m home in Busan for the weekend
J: And bear with me on this but
J: I was looking at the moon
J: And I was feeling sort of … Sad
J: Because even though I've never met you, I was a little farther away from you than usual
J: And I realized the moon was comforting me in a weird way
J: Like even though we’re far apart we’ll always be connected, somehow
J: By the moon or by the ink on our skin, or something
J: I don’t know
J: That’s so lame sjfjsdkf I’m sorry
T: Omg
T: No don’t apologize
T: That’s so :(((((
T: I’m going to tear up
J: Lol sorry this is so intense and out of the blue
J: I’m just feeling emotional
J: With my family and everything
J: I just... spent most of my life waiting for my chance to meet you
J: I had no idea when it would be, I just hoped it would be sooner instead of later
J: And I feel really lucky that we had our connection already, even though we can’t actually meet
J: Some people don’t get their markings until they’re much older
J: I’m just so happy to know you even if it’s like this
T: :(((((((((((
T: Is it weird to say that I love you right now
T: When we’ve never even met
T: And I’ve never really even seen you
T: Because I love you
T: I know that I do
T: I know I’m biased because we’re soulmates
T: But I really do feel it
J: Fuck :(( <3
J: I love you, too
J: I feel the same way
J: Like, I don’t even have to see you in person to know that I feel it
J: But also like, you’re my soulmate so of course I feel this way
T: Lol yeah
T: <333333
T: Can we paint tonight?
J: Yes definitely
J: I’m at the beach with my family but I will be home soon
T: Okay, just let me know. I’m alone for the rest of the night
J: Okay. Love you
J: [x]
T: <33 Love you too
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T: Hey
T: I’m bringing back the feet thing
T: [x]
J: Jesus
J: You’re on a plane
T: Yeah
J: With your feet out
J: Where are you headed?
T: Australia, actually
J: ………………
T: What
J: I’m flying to Australia tomorrow
T: ????????
T: No fucking way
T: For what?
J: A work thing
T: Relatable
T: Mine is also a work thing
J: ………………
T: What
J: Hold on
T: Okay I just landed and you still haven’t replied, I’m a little nervous
T: Did something happen?
T: Text me when you get this
T: I want to know you’re okay
J: Taehyung?
T: ??????????????
T: What the fuck
T: How do you know my name
J: Oh my fucking god
J: Tae
J: Jesus FUCKING christ
T: What
T: Wait tell me
T: I’m hiding in a bathroom stall I’m about to go through customs
T: How do you know my name
J: Taehyung
J: Oh my god
T: What
J: I’m your dancer
J: I’m your fucking dancer
J: Oh my FUCKING god
T: What?
J: [x]
J: We’ve literally hung out after dozens of shows
J: Literally last week
J: My heart is beating out of my FUCKING chest right now
T: OH my god
T: Oh my god
T: JIMIN ??????????????
J: I’m laughing like a maniac I’m literally going insane
J: I can’t believe I didn’t figure out it was you
J: Looking at the pictures you sent, how did I not know it was you
J: I’m so fucking stupid
T: What the fuck is happenign
J: We were literally texting five minutes after hanging out in person
J: LMAOOOOSDFJLDSK I can’t FUCKING believe this
T: Wait
T: Fuck
J: Wait hhh please go leave the airport
J: Text me when you get to your hotel
J: I will literally be there tomorrow Tae
J: FUCK
T: Okay
T: Okay fuck
T: I’m shaking so bad I can’t walk
T: But okay
T: Text you soon
J: <3
T: Fuck
T: <3
~~~~~~
Taehyung: Okay I’m here
Taehyung: And my legs haven’t stopped shaking
Taehyung: And I feel like I’m going to explode
Taehyung: But anyways
Taehyung: How are you
Jimin: Lmfao
Jimin: GOD
Jimin: I’ve just been laying here
Taehyung: Mood
Jimin: I don’t know how I didn’t figure it out
Taehyung: Me either, honestly
Jimin: I was so so so excited when I was hired for your team
Jimin: Because you’re the prettiest person I’ve ever seen
Jimin: I’ve literally spent nights wondering what my soulmate could possibly be like if I’ll like them even more than you
Jimin: I’m gonna go bang my head against a wall
Taehyung: Oh my god
Taehyung: Please don’t do that
Taehyung: I’ve thought the exact same thing
Taehyung: I always got butterflies so bad when we’d have practice together
Taehyung: Or just hanging out eating food
Taehyung: I thought about asking you out while I was waiting for my markings to appear
Taehyung: But I’m not even allowed to be with my soulmate, let alone date
Jimin: :( I’m so sorry Taehyung
Jimin: I had NO idea the restrictions were that intense
Jimin: How did I not know that??
Taehyung: They don’t want the public to know
Taehyung: Would sort of defeat the point of making me seem available
Jimin: Bullshit
Jimin: I’m so sorry, Tae
Taehyung: <3
Taehyung: … but now we’re here
Jimin: Yeah
Jimin: What do you want to do now??
Jimin: I still don’t want to put you in that position
Jimin: I don’t want you to lose your career because of me
Jimin: I wouldn’t be able to live with myself
Taehyung: Honestly
Taehyung: I think we can get away with it
Taehyung: We just can’t make it obvious in public
Jimin: Yeah
Taehyung: They already know we’re friends
Taehyung: We’re just bros, right
Taehyung: Doing bro stuff
Jimin: Lmfao
Jimin: I would like to do some bro stuff with you
Taehyung: :))))
Jimin: Oh my god
Jimin: It’s kind of weird, honestly
Jimin: That we’ve already known each other so long
Taehyung: Definitely weird
Taehyung: But also like, fate
Taehyung: Like… we were meant to be together no matter what
Jimin: Yeah
Jimin: God
Jimin: It’s so surreal
Taehyung: Definitely
Jimin: … Can we FaceTime???
Jimin: Since the secret is blown
Jimin: I want to see you
Taehyung: Yeah
Taehyung: Yeah we can
Taehyung: I’ll call you now
~~~~~~
Taehyung: [x]
Jimin: Thanks
Taehyung: You’re so welcome
Jimin: We look cute
Taehyung: You’re texting me from 2 inches away
Jimin: Yeah so
Taehyung: Lmfao
Jimin: This is weird ngl
Jimin: How many times we texted when we were next to each other all along
Taehyung: That’s deep
Taehyung: Ow!!!!
Jimin: It was a pillow shut up
Jimin: I’m gonna roll over so I’m not facing you
Taehyung: Why
Jimin: It will feel like the good old days
Taehyung: Okay then
Jimin: See what I mean
Taehyung: This is weird
Jimin: It’s all weird
Jimin: The first weird is that I could’ve been kissing you all of these months, but I wasn’t
Jimin: Second weird is that you sent me a picture of your foot to introduce yourself to me
Taehyung: Classic
Jimin: …
Taehyung: It worked
Jimin: We’re soulmates I would’ve kept talking to you no matter what
Taehyung: Clearly
Taehyung: Ow!!!!!!!!!!
Jimin: :)
Jimin: I’m really happy, Tae
Taehyung: Me too
Jimin: Can we go get dinner after the concert??
Taehyung: Yes
Taehyung: That sounds really amazing, actually
Jimin: Or we could just eat in your hotel room
Jimin: Find some markers and draw together
Taehyung: Yes
Taehyung: Fuck
Taehyung: Please
Jimin: Come here and kiss me again?
Taehyung: Gladly
Jimin: <3
Taehyung: <3