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They were nearing the port as Levi stood on the deck smoothing out the creases on his shirt as he looked out at the town of Liberio getting closer as their ship sailed towards it. He was surprised he was even allowed to go on this expedition with the 104th, since the battle for the reclamation of Wall Maria Levi had been slightly unpredictable in nature finding it hard to keep his emotions, particularly his anger, in check. No one blamed him for it, that battle hit him hard the most, he had lost Erwin after being forced to choose between saving him or Armin, he didn't regret saving Armin he had proven to everyone what Levi had suspected and had become a great commander, he was as inspiring and intelligent as Erwin had been but prioritised minimising the casualties of his men, despite being forced into it at such a young age he had done well rebuilding the Survey Corps back up and handling the politics of the new era they all found themselves in, Levi was proud of him it couldn't have been easy having this mantle so young.
The only reason Armin had taken on the mantle in the first place was partly to do with the chain of command being completely shattered after a shocking revelation that Erwin's successor, Hange Zoe, was in fact a spy working for Marley the entire time. Levi remembered the pain of the betrayal probably a lot more than the knife she had stabbed him with after he found out. She had caught him completely off guard after he had chased down the bearded piece of shit that was the Beast Titan, he made it to the wall again and had seen her there as well, she had been waiting for him so she could put an end to his hunt and wounded him badly enough he couldn't chase after them after they all got away even if he wanted to, he barely made it in time to save Armin in the end and had to watch as Hange left him broken hearted for the place they were sailing towards today.
After the crushing defeat Levi had changed, his body healed fine but his mind and emotions were a completely different story, he had lost one of his oldest friends and the very same day he had been betrayed by the woman he loved. After years of loss and suffering Levi had reached his breaking point and had very nearly lost his position in the Survey Corps after a rookie MP said something about Erwin and Hange which made him beat the man half to death. They were ready to court martial him there and then until Armin and the rest of the 104th vouched for him in front of Premier Zachery saying they still needed his skills and leadership for the future. He had been let off the hook but had been put under a compulsory intensive mental evaluation and treatment plan to ensure it wouldn't happen again, he no longer had Erwin and Hange to keep his recklessness under control and he had to learn to take care of it himself if he ever wanted to remain in the Survey Corps.
"We'll be arriving soon Captain" Armin's voice sounded beside him calmly, Levi just hummed in response keeping his eyes fixed on the horizon "There is something I would like to discuss before we enter the port" he said looking serious
"What is it?" Levi asked sounding bored already
"We're entering into enemy territory, a number of things could happen but there's one thing in particular I have concerns about regarding you" Armin explained Levi nodded already figuring where he was heading with this conversation.
"I'm fine Commander, I have been for a while now" Levi assured him
"I don't doubt that but... there's no guarantee but I think its safe to assume she could be here you know" Armin said finally
"I know, I thought about that too, but like you said we need to do this to plan our next move and I am ready to follow your orders Commander" Levi said softly not taking his eyes off the ever nearing port, as much as he hoped she wasn't there, there was also a small part of him in his heart that yearned to see, to touch, to kiss her again. He knew that she was the enemy now but she was an enemy who had his heart captured and unfortunately her hold on it ran deep.
"Alright we should probably get ready to go we're nearly here" Armin said turning to walk away "I trust you Captain, no matter what" his parting words were until he walked away to get the others ready. Levi stood in place for the remainder of the journey sighing deeply as he rubbed his eyes, he was so tired and ready to get off this ship.
When they were finally off the ship Levi was slightly overwhelmed by the sheer scale of Liberio, it was huge and there were so many people, too many for his liking, as he glared at the crowd trying to control his breathing as a wave of anxiety threatened to take over. Levi distracted himself by watching the 104th acting like hyperactive children as they went to each stall in the market trying all the new food Onyankapon and Niccolo told them about.
"Tch so much for keeping a low profile" Levi scoffed as he watched Sasha, Jean and Connie run off somewhere
"Hmm, let them blow off a little steam, its only fair after everything we've been through" Armin said watching his friends with amusement, Levi hummed in agreement before some creepy sounding voice sounded from behind him, offering him candy. Levi jumped and turned to see this creepy looking man covered in make up and loud, brightly coloured clothes standing behind him. He didn't even register what he said next as he felt his anxiety starting to rise, he hated it when people snuck up on him like that, fortunately Armin intervened and talked to the clown as Levi headed away from the crowded streets to try and calm himself down.
He was leaning against a wall in a quiet alleyway as he tried to control his breathing again, it was times like this where he missed Hange, she would have been able to calm him down instantly where he seemed to struggle with that constantly, Levi scoffed at how pathetic he was even after her betrayal Hange was the one he still wanted to turn to when he got like this.
Once he had gained some semblance of control he was about to head back to the others when someone caught his attention, he stared intently and it only took him a few seconds to realise who was approaching him, he'd recognise that messy, unkempt mop of golden brown hair anywhere, It was her no doubt about it, Hange Zoe was right there, as tantalisingly beautiful as ever and walking right towards him. He knew he shouldn't engage her, knew it could put everything Armin and the others had worked towards in Jeopardy but his body reacted faster than his reasoning and before he knew what had happened his arm had shot out and reached out to grab her forcefully, pinning her to the wall as she yelped in surprise.
"What the...wait Levi?, is that you?" her voice said in shock as she stared down at the frail looking Captain who was panting heavily as he came to terms with what he had just down, he looked up at her and his eyes held a mixture of softness and brokenness at the same time.
"Hange..." he breathed out sounding in pain as he trembled
"What are you doing here Levi?...why are you here?, if your here that must mean that the 104th and Erwin are here as well so what is it your planning?" she rambled bombarding him with questions he couldn't answer, it felt familiar like old times and he couldn't help himself as he leaned in to give her an extremely heated kiss just to shut her up. She pushed him away after she recovered from her shock but he still held onto her black jacket, that damn jacket they used to fight over all the time when they were together.
"Why are you here Levi?" she asked again impatiently, Levi stepped back from her a little not really sure how to answer that question.
"I, I don't really know, I'm not supposed to be doing this" he admitted in embarrassment
"Wow, so the usually obedient Captain Levi is breaking the rules now huh, what brought about that change?" she asked in that teasing tone that drove him crazy
"You" he answered without hesitation finding himself getting pulled towards her again, like he was a helpless victim stuck in her riptide as she threatened to drown him over and over again "I needed...wanted to see you again" he admitted pathetically
"Even after what I did?" she said in surprise not realising she was touching the place where her knife had pierced his flesh years ago now, Levi hissed but leaned into her touch all the same, she was like poison, a poison he couldn't help but become addicted to.
"Despite everything you did to me, after betraying everything we stood for, even after breaking my heart...I can't get you out of my damn head Hange" he told her through gritted teeth
"Sounds troublesome considering we're supposed to be enemies now hmm" Hange said softly feeling sorry for him in a way, this was not the Levi Ackerman she remembered when she left Paradis all that time ago, this Levi was completely shattered and looked like he was barely clinging onto his sanity "Isn't Erwin going to wonder where you are?" she asked making him flinch at the name of the old Commander.
"Erwin's dead" Levi told her, at least she had the decency to look guilty about that
"I'm sorry to hear that, he was an exceptional man" she said sincerely actually feeling a little sad hearing the news of Erwin's passing, no wonder Levi looked so rough he was essentially left completely alone "When did it happen?" she asked
"The day you betrayed us" he said looking away as his façade slipped away "The brass has been keeping tabs on me since...losing Erwin, than you..I spiralled out of control, stopped pulling my punches" he admitted with a shake, he knew he was probably confessing more than he should but it was Hange, she was his safe space, his home and despite them being on opposing sides of a war he still wanted her comfort.
Hange stared at the broken man before her
"Did I really cause this much turmoil in you Levi?" she thought guiltily and as much as she knew she shouldn't do it she wrapped him up in her embrace and held him tightly. She thought she had buried her feelings for him away by now but here they were again washing over her like an unstoppable tsunami, as she watched him break in her arms.
"Lets go to my place to talk in private" Hange suggested to him softly feeling him nod slowly once as he pulled away following her to her apartment. Once they were inside she sat down on the sofa inviting him to do the same, he did so slowly his hands clenched into fists tightly on his lap as he tried to control his emotions yet again "If your worried about me telling anyone about this meeting don't be, I don't want to tell anyone about this" she consoled him in that sickly sweet voice he used to love so much "Your conflicted, I understand Levi..."
At the sound of his name in that same damn voice Levi couldn't resist her anymore and kissed her fervently, to the point of aggression as he pinned her on the sofa, his hands shoving items of clothing out of the way so he could touch her again, feel her warmth under his hands as he growled like a caged animal that had been holding back from showing their true nature. He kissed her harder knowing her lips would probably bruise from the intensity he was doing this but he couldn't bring himself to care, this was better than any fantasy his mind had been able to conjure and he was completely intoxicated by his Hange being here in the flesh for the first time in years, to his surprise however he realised she was kissing him back with just as much intensity almost challenging him to go further.
"I fucking hate that I miss you shitty glasses" he panted heavily
"Charmer" she murmured with a breathless chuckle herself "I missed you too you know" she breathed right next to his ear making him gasp
"Then why leave?" he asked her seriously "Why did you leave me then, if that's how you felt?" his head screamed wanting to know the truth
"Because just like you I have a duty to fulfil" she said looking down like she was ashamed, Levi just growled again and nipped her neck hard making her gasp and tug his hair in retaliation.
"How much of what you said was a lie Hange...was anything you said to me the truth?, I need to know" he hissed leaning into the feeling of her fingers in his hair scratching his scalp it made him shudder with pleasure and he sucked on her skin more
"The only thing I lied about was where I came from" she said fluttering her eyes at the feeling of his lips on her skin again "Everything else was true" she breathed holding him in place as he carried on marking her anywhere he wanted, she could feel in his touch and the way he was acting he was desperate "You never moved on did you?" she said knowingly.
"How could I?" he asked her resting his head on her chest above her heart "No one understands me like you do" he admitted breathing heavily kissing where her heart would be, his hands gripping her so hard that she knew they were going to bruise as well but she didn't care not when Levi was in so much pain and she was the main cause of it all.
"I am so, so sorry I've done this to you Levi" she apologised to him sadly still stroking his hair to soothe him, Levi was still like an animal in a cage one wrong move and he would attack at an ungodly speed, her tricks to calm him down however were still there in her memory and after all this time they were still just as effective "Whatever you need from me Levi, take it" she encouraged him making him groan again as he stripped the rest of her clothing off quickly, staring at her hungrily taking in the sight of her again, breathing out shakily as he got overwhelmed again.
Hange noticed and distracted him by helping him take off his clothes, kissing him tenderly as she felt him shake, he was clearly fighting his thoughts over this, his heart was fighting his mind and making the conflict he was feeling even worse.
"Shh its okay" she whispered to him softly kissing him again as the last item of his clothes were removed "When was the last time you were in control of anything Levi?" she asked him curiously making him sigh heavily
"Before I lost you" he breathed "Everyone is constantly watching me now...I can't be trusted anymore" he said bitterly looking so defeated
"Take back control, take what you want from me" she purred in his ear, nipping the shell of his ear to spur him on. Levi groaned as he pounced on her pinning her down again on the sofa. Levi bit her skin again as he moved down to her waiting pussy, he started to lick it with an almost expert skill, getting lost in her taste and the moans that erupted from her. Gods how he'd missed the sound of her moans, the way she called out his name as he drove her crazy with his tongue alone was like a volt of electricity waking him up from a long dream and it spurred him on making him go faster as he pulled her closer to him, his claw like nails leaving scratches where they dug into her flesh. He edged her several times before allowing her to have that release she was craving, Levi lapped up juices like a thirsty animal before staring at her wildly/
"You've still got it shorty I'll give you that" she panted hard
Levi didn't respond with his voice just by his actions, straddling her instantly as he lined his cock up with her entrance, his eyes still darting up to meet hers to make sure this was alright and after her swift nod he slipped inside her slowly with a gasp and then a moan of contentment as he sank himself down onto her, needing a few moments to deal with the emotional onslaught he was still having , hiding his face in her shoulder as his teeth bit the skin there again.
"Mine" he growled as he started to rock his hips slowly at first "Mine" he said again his voice cracking with emotion as he picked up the pace again going harder and faster, his breath felt hot next to her skin as she moaned loudly at the rough pace he had set; rutting into her like a feral animal in heat, his grunts and moans barely sounding human.
"Shh, I'm yours Levi" Hange moaned in affirmation, somehow knowing he needed to hear these words as he met him at every stroke. She heard him gasp at her words before groaning hard again as he kept going his head never straying from its place on her shoulder as she held him, her hands rubbing soothing patterns in an attempt to calm this untamed part of him "Yours" she moaned again as she felt herself getting lost in him and everything he was doing to her. He looked completely wild as she let him take control, however he was never completely out of control either, he still made sure it was enjoyable despite how rough he was being.
"Mine" he repeated again and again, practically chanting the word as he kept going feeling his climax getting painfully close "Fuck.. getting close" he croaked near her ear
"Me too...keep going Levi" She moaned meeting his thrusts even more eagerly than before, Levi gritted his teeth as he went faster needing that sweet release his body craved. it wasn't long before they both hit their climaxes and after being a part for so long it was a rather intense feeling of euphoria for the pair of them. Levi collapsed on top of her out of breath but satisfied as he took comfort in Hange's touch.
"I'll always be yours Levi" she whispered to him as he started to drift asleep easily for the first time in years
Hange watched him sleep just like she used to before and she realised how bad a toll these last few years had taken on him, he looked more frail like he hadn't really eaten properly, he had more scars than before the most prominent being the one she had given him all those years ago at Shiganshina, but there were others there she couldn't place where they came from. Suddenly Levi's face contorted into a pained expression as he had another nightmare.
"No..." he murmured weakly as his hands clenched into fists
"Levi, Levi wake up" Hange called out to him making him gasp awake as he trembled
"I'm sorry...I'm sorry" he panicked his anxiety had gotten worse as well by the looks of it
"Shh, its okay, its okay" Hange shushed him holding him tightly again as he cried silently, he hated this, hated his anxiety, hated how he could only find solace again in the arms of an enemy.
"I am so sorry for everything I've put you through" Hange apologised hugging him tighter as she felt his tears on her skin
"I'm sorry, I wasn't good enough to keep you here" he said looking down at himself in disgust "I wasn't good enough to keep you, wasn't good enough to save Erwin...I'm nothing" he cried defeatedly
"No Levi none of this was your fault" Hange told him as she forced him to look up at him kissing him softly "I am so sorry I left you alone with all that burden"
Levi just lies there in her arms contemplating what she said, tears still silently falling down his face. He felt her hands glide down his back delicately touching the new scars that were on his back, he flinched like they still hurt as he sucked in air, starting to shake again.
"Who did this to you?" Hange asked him with so much sincerity he looked up in surprise nobody had talked to him like that in years, either they were angry at him or scared of him when they talked never concerned though.
"I deserved it...they said I killed Erwin, killed our last hope..I needed to be taught a lesson" he stuttered like talking about it would attract his attackers
"But you could have defended yourself surely" Hange questioned him and he shook his head slowly
"I deserved it" he said again closing his eyes as he started giving into his flashbacks
"Oh Levi" Hange sighed sadly as she hugged him closer, he had been taking peoples anger in more ways than one "You said you stopped puling punches, what do you mean?" she asked him patiently.
"When they first attacked, I tried to defend myself but..they said something about you and Erwin and I snapped, after that I didn't do defend myself anymore, they were angry so I let them"
"But why do this?" she asked still unsure as to why he would go to such extreme lengths
"If not me, they'll attack someone else, I'd rather it was me" he whispered making Hange's heart sink, of course he was protecting the others why else would he do something like this. Hange kissed the crown of his head "Its not the same with you gone" he admitted drawing lazy patterns on her skin.
"I can't imagine how bad it has been for you Levi, I never could have imagined this would happen" she admitted kissing him again, straddling him slowly "Let me take it away for a little while" she purred kissing his neck making him gasp as he looked up at her, captivated by her beauty, she was his Hange, his Queen, his goddess and he couldn't say no to her.
"Okay" he breathed nodding as he saw her smile at his answer, feeling the warmth and comfort he had miss fill his heart again.
She touched him slowly, taking her time with him, wanting him to feel every ounce of love she still felt for him.
"I want you to know that, even after everything that I did, however much I thought it was my duty, the one thing I regret is leaving you, I am yours Levi and you are mine I love you now and always" Hange told him softly kissing him again before she lowered herself onto his waiting cock making him moan again. Her heart swelled as she looked into his eyes and saw them looking hopeful again.
"That's all I needed to hear...thank you Hange" he breathed as his hips bucked as she started moving on top of him, riding him at a good pace.
Levi watched her move on top of her enjoying the view, his hands travelled up to hold her breasts, pinching her nipples at random intervals making her gasp and pick up her pace.
"Fuck Hange... need more" he said breathlessly and Hange gladly obliged picking up her pace making Levi groan, Hange looked at him enjoying his sounds of pleasure and
gentle touches. She was pleased he felt happier and being with him again felt incredible to her, she didn't realise how much she had missed him until today.
"Gods I've missed you...I love you so much" she moaned leaning down to kiss him again as she got closer to her climax.
They both groaned loudly as they hit their climaxes again, Hange fell into his arms, peppering his face and neck with kisses as she enjoyed Levi's fingers stroking her hair.
"Mmm my Levi, I love you" she whispered between kisses
"I love you too my Hange" Levi whispered back without hesitation feeling complete for the first time in ages as they both savoured the familiar feeling of being in each others arms together, like they had done many times in the Survey Corps headquarters. Levi kissed her temple softly as she settled down with her head resting on his shoulder, he rested his chin on top of her head as he held her protectively like he always did.
"When do you have to leave?" Hange asked him eventually, hating to be the one to remind both of them that this couldn't last forever.
"We go back a few days from now" he told her reluctantly frowning as he said it not really wanting to.
"I know, I wish we could stay like this forever as well" Hange said reading his mind like she always did as she traced his scars like a map she remembered "I could write to you" she suggested softly "I could send them to the tea shop you go to each month on your day off" she remembered fondly making Levi smirk fondly.
"Sounds perfect" he said softly kissing her again
"Maybe someday we can be free of all this and then we can be together" Hange said hopefully
"Yeah maybe" Levi agreed wanting more than anything for that to happen, he had missed his Hange after all.