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It's snowing outside the thick layer of snow covering the country—a sight he has grown into but here he's shaken to the core in every sense, still unsure how he's in here.
Jimin exhaled slowly, a thick material of cloth draped tightly over his eyes. The cloth on his own body feel foreign, something he was never allowed to wear before. It feels like his body belongs to someone else—not his anymore. Jimin's body shivering from the cold,thin material doesn't give away anything warmth but inside his chest everything is blazing like the hot lava. He couldn't understand what he's thinking.
"You're incredibly tense," a voice spoke behind him Jimin's shoulders are stiff."This is not the first time." That didn't help his situation it's never does. His body tense up further trying to melt his body calm as a reflex. The world bathes around him in pitch black, just like his world. He must look beautiful, the omega servant is there to make sure that he does, perhaps he would have appreciated her efforts to make him look beautiful if his depressive thoughts have not let his mind consume him every passing second, he learned that a month ago.
He would have appreciated how beautiful the satin robe that feels delicate on his body makes his body look sinful, the thick fur that draped over his shoulder it's look expensive then his whole being he would have appreciated everything if his thoughts not somewhere else making him worry about his next move.
Jimin is aware of his beauty and many people praise him for taking over his dead mother's beauty, which he didn't witness. He wish to make her proud one day. He wanted to make sure his mother will at least be proud to be his mother when he takes over his house chores like an omega should, to make sure that by taking care of his Alpha father that he would not feel lonely. Even though his father never accepted him as his son an omega he never intended to have who eventually killed his mate while he was birth.
His father is a respectful royal guard of the King Jeon, he was serving since the older Jeon Jaehyung while he was alive than when he was passed down to his only son Jeon Jungkook. His father wanted to have an Alpha son who would take over his position as a guard in the kingdom. When Jimin's mother was pregnant with him she knew that her pregnancy would not be easy but the hope of her mate made her endure through everything. His father always knew that he wanted an Alpha son no question asked.
When Jimin was born his mother went through 35 hours of constant pain to give up on her body. It was her wolf who strengthened the power of whatever was left in her to give birth to him. His father didn't make any efforts to accept him as his son, he lost his mate and hope that night.
If it was not for his aunt Kim he would not make it either. Jimin knew that he couldn't do much like other kids, he was always timid, fearful, small things scared him, he always preferred to be alone then play with other kids. As a kid he thought his father is just busy not giving him time but after when he started picking thing up like his father doesn't want to celebrate his, he come super late so he doesn't have to see his face, he will leave early morning without having a conversation, never praise Jimin for his good grades even though he knows he waited patiently late at night to show his father the mark sheet but he never show any interest. Jimin started losing his hopes, and when he turned 13 when he was presented as an omega he knew that his father would never accept him. The growing hope shattered into pieces, he heaving out sob that night. He wanted to be a good son for his father wanted to get love like uncle Kim showed towards Taehyung, he crave it no he needed that, his eyes flared with hope every time his father come back home and steamy food ready on the table his boots and uniform always cleaned he hope that his father appreciate his efforts but all that make him a omega not a Alpha. This is what aunt Kim teaches him how to take care of the household. This is what an omega should be doing.
He just wanted to be accepted by his father.
It's not like he dislikes the idea of being an omega ; it's grown on him when he gets older.Jimin loves to dress his mothers dresses sometimes without his father's knowledge obviously he likes how pretty that makes him, that's the only belonging his mother left him. Despite him not having many friends he doesn't let that bother him. It's not like nobody approached him but everyone just didn't fit in with him. People have many judgments which he didn't like about how a certain way an omega should behave which Jimin disagreed with,his whole life he was scared to behave like a omega because of fear of his father remarks when he developed the courage he didn't want anyone to ruin that for him.
But he loves to go to the woods alone, spending time alone is better. He prefers to go to the woods, plucking herbs and mushrooms even though they can have plenty on the market but fresh mushrooms and herbs are more delicious than the market. And even if not for the herbs he just likes to wander around the wood he loves the smell of fresh soil in the air after the night fades in. Maybe the smell of earth feel so familiar to him that he wanted to get imprinted on his body, it reminded him of someone.
But he dismissed that thought even before it came to his mind.
He wanted to just believe in his love for nature because his ancestors used to live there someday, nature connected them even though nowadays werewolves can't shift but they're still connected to mother earth. Something about the smell of the wood and the chirping of birds always bring him peace. The blooming flower makes him excited, the small creature so delicate and frightened grows on him. Sometimes he just lay beneath the earth, soft grass brush against his finger tip, tranquillity.
As much it's grown on his being an omega it's become a curse to him. The blooming flower suddenly plucked from the tree. Accusations, a false accusation, made his most fearful scenario come to vision. He saw in his own eyes disappointment on his father's face, it was filled with filthy hatred towards him before seeing that he wanted to disappear from the world. He wanted to crawl back to his nest and hide in the safety of his cocoon.
"You'll serve your punishment," his father had said, and he sounded so disgusted. Jimin feel his belly churn before realisation washed over him as cold as the thick coat of snow piling outside. When the decision was taken of his punishment he didn't fight to ask for justice because all he ever wanted is his father's acceptance just once. His father is a royal guard whose life goes by amiding rules, even if he pleads he won't budge from it.
The smug looking Alpha standing on the same porch who got rejected by him, the same Alpha who swore to take his revenge and it worked though, hasn't it? Jimin's life is about to turn miserable now.
In oxyn rules had been set, the rules of omega not to have an affair before they mate or a claim on their neck. And to everyone, to his father, he has done a hideous crime that there is no remorse for.. A punishment that everyone fears and has not happened in many seasons will set for him.
Traditional mating where a unknown Alpha will mound him infront of everyone. That's not all, until the omega fall pregnant,he couldn't see the Alpha nor could he smell him at any prior notice. A chamber will assign to him where he will stay until he won't get bred by the Alpha, the healer will make sure everything goes as planned. Therefore the question is who will be that Alpha? There is a saying that Alpha's gather who were interested in the omega and fought for a omega, whoever wins in the battlefield he will mound the omega infront of everyone. If Alpha and omega are lucky they get to meet each other but in most cases people just long for the lost love.
The Alpha can put a biting mark infront of everyone,if the scholars or any royal family wanted to entertain the thought that the omega can join their harem they don't have to bite, they just have to win the battle and take the omega it's simple, everything around oxyn is made in the favour of Alpha.
In Jimin's case he doesn't know if the person who claims him is a scholar or any royals, or a lone Alpha. Certainly he doesn't have a biting mark on his neck, he belongs to anyone who will put a mark on him and he doesn't have to decide who that will.
Ever since he came to the assigned chamber it shudders through him, a deep bone chilling loneliness accompany him since then. An entertainment doll. Used when he needed to entertain and put it on the box when they didn't. Upon the bed size laid the sobbing omega: no claim on him.
Most of the day he just laid in the bed mourning over and over again, and days like today bring him shuddering blackness, a perfume filled bath and the Alpha, a servant come to dress him up Jimin is not even sure if other get a servant or not but he has been assigned a middle aged omega who is best at her work. But Jimin doesn't understand why he needs to look good when everything will be a mess after it's not like the Alpha look at his face when he mounds him he always present himself infront of the Alpha.
The Alpha never romanticizes the situation they're in, he always focused on what he was supposed to do—get him pregnent.
…...
Jimin remembers this like a muscle memory, Alpha will insert two blunt fingers inside like he always does before. The first time when the Alpha mound him Jimin screamed out of pain blood pull out of him, he was asked before the mating ceremony to prepare himself Jimin thought the healer were talking about the mentally he should be prepared because he has never been with someone before he doesn't know what he should be doing, From then the Alpha make sure that he's oiled enough down there, omega produce slick to take the Alpha knot but Jimin couldn't produce his wolf is not connected like before, the herbs and medicine of the healer make him less connect with the wolf such as scenting he couldn't smell or he couldn't produce slick like a omega does. It's a part of the punishment that's what he believes.
Jimin snaps back to reality when the Alpha sinks his finger in warm, slick puckered hole and curls up into the tissue inside. Jimin cries muffle into the pillow, fingers gripping the sheet at the feeling. He's so wet dripping from the oiled healer gave him to prepare himself and this time Jimin knows how to prepare so he did, two small fingers inside him try to rub his wall, trying to memorize how the Alpha does. He miserably failed he didn't get any satisfaction he just did it after the shower to ease the tightness of his hole.
The wet sound of Alpha finger that sliping inside him easily makes Jimin toe curl, the air humid in the room despite the cold he feels hot. Even the overwhelming feeling of his betrayal didn't consume his thoughts when Alpha inside him in any way possible. It thickens further when his skilled finger moves so easily, touching something inside him that make him jerks away from his touch, he wanted to get away from it's burn every fiber of his blood vessels but at the same time he wanted to stay, he don't know what the Alpha is doing but he get this knot on his belly that form as big as mountain.
When the wrist flickers and that one place—oh luna, Jimin wanted to scream but bite his tongue from doing that. The healer said it's not about his pleasure he should be caring about because at the end it's his punishment, he tries to be as good as possible as he can be to the Alpha. The Alpha never talks so he also didn't make any conversation despite him being blind folded he just lay beneath the Alpha and took whatever he was given without making any refuses.
But the Alpha doesn't use his word but his hand and and his cock—heaven it makes Jimin writhe.Jimin's whole body jerked when Alpha's rough hand made contact with his bottom.But Alpha brought him closer—too much. Jimin made a sound more of a whine when the Alpha got the answer and slip his finger out of Jimin.
Every muscle in Jimin's writhing body flared like wildfire, the cold air in the room meeting his burning body making him shiver. Jimin's body goes limp from delaying of orgasm, beneath the Alpha his body stays in useless sweat shimmering in the dark room like a diamond. The skin of the Alpha is always hot, totally opposite of frigid weather, and his hand makes Jimin remind of spring warm enough to be bearable. Jimin has never feel this way because he wanted to run away at the same time he wanted to stay and take whatever the Alpha will give him, which is so wrong from the situation he's in, he doesn't know if he's the only one he's claiming or there is another omega. His own body betraying him, shouldn't he at least try to fight but his body always goes plint against the Alpha as if he has put on some spell on him.
A stranger touching him never occurred to his mind.
It's so so dangerous but yet Jimin wanted to burn in the flame, he never allowed himself to feel this way even when a unknown Alpha started courting him, he always remind himself that what is his goal but infront of this Alpha he forgot about everything, every sense shut down when he's touching him. His touch burns under his finger tip.
Jimin let out a gasp when the tip of the Alpha cockhead entered, no matter how many times he has taken the Alpha cock it's always made him feel it's his first time, maybe Jimin is a masochist but he loves the burn even if he'll limp for a day but he welcome it. His mouth drools from the overly stimulus, his breath caught in his throat, every tissue of his wall bloomed like a flower and opened for the Alpha cock as if it knew the owner of it. His cock entered him and Jimin gasped softly when the head of the cock sat on his prostate beautiful. And oh it's so big so so big, Jimin can hardly take a gulp of air and it's knocked out of him when the Alpha brings his hip and piston it back to his wall again and again.
The slide is slow and obscene, placing the very drenched cock inside him, the wet sound that makes echoing through the room. If Jimin could smell still it would be of his arousal permeates the air like his lavender and honeysuckle.
The first sharp movement jostles Jimin to his core, soft gasp turns into full sob at the end of the Alpha hip meeting him, the scenes are unadulterated and very lewd.
Oh luna heaven— when the tempo increase of the Alpha hip Jimin writhe beneath him, both of their gasp and moan tune in one, bed creeping beneath them making a sound of hitting the surface everyone could hear them but at the moment two bodies locking the puzzle in one.
With his trembling shout, things quiver against the soft material of bedsheet he fall apart beneath the Alpha, he scattered like a doll made of clay, and the Alpha picked each and every piece to rearrange him. When the Alpha rough hand pulls him on his four Jimin is too sensitive his spent cock makes contact with the satin robe that makes him cry out a full sob—everything feels too much.
When the Alpha begin and when Jimin ends, when the cold sheet turns messy
with their semane.
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The Alpha always makes sure to give him a hot bath before retreating to his way, today is no different, even though the blindfold stay Jimin can feel the stare of the Alpha like he always does. The warm and salt bath feels amazing against his body, it's soothing, taking away the tense nerve of his shoulder. The Alpha already scrubs his body, and they're just sitting apart from each other soaking in the warm water.
For the first time Jimin wanted to pretend the Alpha is not there, he's alone in the bath. He closed his eyes and put his head on the surface, even though he couldn't see from the blindfold. After the haze of pleasure leaves his body his depressive thoughts come back making his heart burn.
He wanted to forget everything or just wanted to disappear in thin air. His thoughts consume him fully, he wanted to at least feel that everything is going to be alright even though he knows nothing will.
His breath shudders, he has been thinking about this for so long, he knows his heat is coming sooner and before that he wanted to take this out of his chest. He hasn't told the healer that he's feeling feverish, always on edge, and has started having cramps just a few days ago. He doesn't know how healer except him to tell her that his heat is coming he's not connected to his wolf, how will he know but the healer said he will know maybe he's not connected with his wolf but they're one in every sense. And just a few days ago he started having cramps, fatigue and Jimin just knew what was coming.
So he wanted to have this conversation with the Alpha before anything happened. If they spend his heat together he will be pregnant with the Alpha's pup, at least he deserves to know.
At least him,
"My father wishes to have an Alpha son like everyone father's does," a wetly laugh leaves his mouth, "My mother died after giving birth to me, my father was furious as he should be, he made sure to remind me every time that I've failed him as a son." He crossed his arm against his chest, despite the fact it's been a month or so, he still feel dread under the stare his father gave him that day.
"I try everything in me to be a good son, but i can't fulfill what he wants—to be King guard in the palace," He wanted to know how Taehyung felt when he was appointed as a guard as his father's replacement. He wanted to see the look of his father when Uncle Kim gave him as if he brought the star for him. "I didn't do anything that will make my father reputation in question even w-when an Alpha started courting me i-i thought i would let my father be the judge of the situation when time will come,"
Amidst of everything he was reminded of the time when Taehyung first brought the letter of the unknown Alpha, asking for the permission to court him. Every other week Jimin received gifts, letters but he refused to give in, he didn't want his father to find out about this. Only one letter where Jimin sent him was "if there is destiny it will bring us closer, untill then I do not wish to anger my father." That was it, even after that the Alpha never faltered his courting gifts and letters.
His handwritten letters are neat, well scripted and the gifts are exorbitant. It doesn't matter what he gets as a gift but he looks forward to the letter where the Alpha tells him about his day briefly but enough to have an exceptional life, and he enjoys what he does. The unknown Alpha stays unknown but it makes Jimin remind of Luna and her destiny if it's in his favour he will meet the Alpha some day, he wishes. The Alpha writes him what they will do after they mate and Jimin holds onto that as a glimpse of hope.
But everything shattered,
"I seek for his handwritten letters despite the fact that I told him that I do not wish against my father, b-but i wish to see his letter everyday," Jimin's voice trembled. "Nobody knew about this except me or Taehyung or that's what I thought, when Beomgyu proposed me i couldn't accept the offer."Jimin didn't realise that slip of the name of that Alpha. "I refuses i can't accept the offer when i— but h-he didn't wanted to accept that i rejected him, when he come to the house with courting gifts i told him my father don't like the idea of me having a Alpha but h-he told me he knew about the Alpha," Jimin gulp.
"And threatened me to accept his courting gift either he will let everyone know about the Alpha."
And he did when Jimin refused him he thought that maybe he's angry at the moment but
"I t-thought he's bluffing, when i said he can do whatever he wish he didn't take it well and t-try to force me," At this moment Jimin broke out full on sob, he still feel the linger touch of the Beomgyu, it's make his body go numb everytime its reminded that someone had touched him. "I-i slapped him in the face a-and he said he w-will make sure i-i will pay for that." Jimin brought his knee to his chest and tuck his head between them, "A-And next day when i come to house from the woods there were guards everywhere, i knew the moment I saw him there b-but i also saw the face of my father, i know whatever i'll say or try he won't listen b-because his whole life went by amiding the rules of the King, all his life he knows about the rules of the palace, he won't see past the rules even if i was proven innocent he would never take my side."
His father will never go past the rules, even for his own son that he doesn't wish to have.
"So i knew even if i tried it wouldn't be in my favour so i did what i thought was best, amid the rules of oxyn even if it killed me inside."
He couldn't fight back, he knows that he's weak, everyday the situation reminds him how weak he's for getting punished without doing anything. For putting up with the thing he has never done, Luna knows how much he hated the fact that he's being weak, not fighting for his rights with his father or the Alpha.
He heaved, sob wrecking through his body, he feel so so cold, his whole body shiver in disgust. How can he allow a stranger to touch him, how can he allow himself to share this with a stranger. Who wouldn't care about it, and why would he? He doesn't know him.