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San knows these streets better than he knows his own reflection.
The city at night is a different creature. It breathes and shifts, alive with rot beneath its glittering skin. Neon lights flicker overhead, casting everything in sickly hues of pink and blue, but San doesn’t see any beauty in it. He sees decay. He sees hunting grounds.
His boots hit the pavement in a steady, practiced rhythm, each step silent despite his size. His fingers flex once at his side before settling near the inside of his coat where cold steel waits for him.
Ready. Always ready.
He’s been taught since childhood that hesitation is death.
Vampires are not people.
They are not misunderstood.
They are not tragic figures to sympathize with.
They are monsters. Leeches wearing human skin, demons that crawl through the night and feast on the weak. His family has hunted them for generations, long before cities like this ever existed. Long before humans forgot what lurked in the dark.
San has not forgotten. He never will.
A sharp turn of his heel sends him down a narrower street, the noise of the main road fading behind him. Here, the air is different. Thicker. Wrong.
His jaw tightens. There’s something nearby.
He can feel it in the way he always does. Not a sound, not sight, but a pull. A prickle under his skin. Instinct honed over years of blood and survival.
He walks faster.
The feeling sharpens the deeper he goes, the pull in his gut turning into something more insistent. Wrong in a way that’s familiar. Like a distant echo of every hunt he’s ever survived.
He hears a muffled sound. It cuts through the quiet like a crack in glass.
San slows immediately, every instinct snapping to attention. His shoulder brushes the cold brick wall as he shifts closer to it, minimizing his presence. The city noise fades further behind him and all he hears is his own breathing and that sound again.
Another noise follows.
A whimper.
He rounds the corner and stops.
The alley stretches out before him, narrow and dim, lit only by a flickering overhead light that buzzes faintly, threatening to give out at any second. Trash litters the ground; old bottles, damp paper, something rotting.
And in the middle of it stand two figures.
One is pressed back against the wall, barely visible, swallowed whole by shadow. His outline shakes, body trembling so hard it looks like he might collapse at any second. Broken, uneven noises spill from his throat. Half-formed pleas, choked breaths.
His hands push weakly at the man in front of him.
San’s gaze locks onto the other man like a blade finding its mark.
The man stands with his back partially turned, body angled just enough to obscure his face, but nothing else about him is hidden. He’s maybe an inch or two shorter than San, maybe, but the difference feels irrelevant, erased completely by the way he carries himself.
Loose, effortless, and completely in control.
Cherry red hair catches the dim light, vivid even in the alley’s gloom, like a flame that refuses to be dulled.
A black silk shirt clings to his frame, fabric shifting with every small movement, catching light along the lines of his shoulders and back. It’s tucked neatly into tight leather pants that hug his legs like a second skin. The subtle lift of a heeled boot adds just enough height to change his posture, making him taller, sharper, more commanding.
San doesn’t need to see his face to know he’s attractive.
He can feel it in the way the man moves without urgency, like time itself bends for him. In the way his victim is already forgotten, reduced to nothing more than something being used. The way the air seems to thicken around him, charged with something heavy and wrong.
Like gravity has shifted, like everything is orbiting him.
For a split second, San considers walking past just to get away from the feeling in his stomach.
It wouldn’t be the first human to die from a vampire. Humans die every night. Weak ones. Careless ones. He doesn’t interfere unless it serves the hunt. Unless it leads him to what actually matters.
He’s not here to save people, he’s here to kill monsters.
But then he hears a broken, “please,” that breaks apart mid-word.
A wet, choking sound follows, thick and awful, and echoes off the alley walls in a way that makes something in San’s chest tighten.
And then he sees it.
Red.
His body reacts before his brain can catch up. He steps forward, fast and silent, already reaching inside his coat. His fingers curl around the familiar grip of his knife. The blade is cool, steady, blessed and dipped in holy water, etched with symbols older than the city, older than memory itself.
The weight of the knife in his hand is grounding, real in a way nothing else is. The ridge handle presses into his palm, a reminder of everything he’s been trained to be. The blade is an extension of him, of his lineage, of every hunter who came before him.
This is what he’s here for. This is what he was made for.
But he doesn’t get the chance.
Something shifts, behind him, beside him, everywhere at once. The air itself seems to fracture. A displacement more than movement, a wrongness that his body registers a split second before his mind can comprehend it.
There’s blur of motion and then impact.
It hits him like a collision, violent and immediate. A force doesn’t just shove him back but drives him into the wall with bone-jarring precision. Pain sparks across his shoulders as brick meets spine, the breath ripped from his lungs in a harsh, startled exhale.
The world tilts.
Something, someone has him pinned. They were fast, too fast.
His body hasn’t even fully processed what happened and yet it’s already over.
His hand tightens reflexively around the knife, knuckles whitening, tendons straining beneath his skin, but the motion never completes. It’s stopped before it can really begin.
There’s a forearm pressed across his chest. Cold, even through the thin fabric of his shirt, an unnatural chill that seeps in, spreading outward like frost beneath his skin.
The figure holds him there effortlessly. There’s no strain in it, no flex of muscle, no shift of weight, no indication that it requires anything at all.
It’s absolute. Like gravity. He’s already lost.
San’s body reacts anyway, instinct overriding reason. His muscles coil, shoulders straining as he tries to twist, to create leverage where there is none. His boots scrap faintly against the concrete, the sound sharp in the narrow alley.
Everything is wrong. His strength, hard-earned, trained, and honed, is rendered completely, utterly useless.
His heartbeat slams against his ribs, too loud and fast. It feels like it might give him away, like the creature in front of him might hear every frantic thud.
His vision snaps upward and for a one single, disorienting second everything stops. Sound, thought, breath, it all stops.
Because the man in front of him–
No. Not a man. The thing in front of him is beautiful.
The thought hits him before he can stop it, before he can bury it. Before he can replace it with what he knows, what he’s been taught, what has been carved into him since childhood.
It lands sharp and undeniable, cutting clean through instinct, through training, through hatred.
He’s beautiful.
And almost like the universe needed to carefully disrupt perfection there’s a small freckle beneath one eye. It shouldn’t matter. San shouldn’t even notice it. But it does and he does.
His skin is pale, not the gray pallor of sickness, but something almost luminous, faintly glowing against the darkness pressing in around them.
And his full lips are red. Not naturally, blood stains them, smeared carelessly at the corners, still wet and fresh. It glistens thickly, catching along the curve of his mouth.
His tongue slides out slowly, dragging across his lower lip in a languid sweep.
Fangs catch the dim light as he smiles, sharp points flashing, wet and gleaming, for just a second. But it’s enough. More than enough.
It’s like a switch flips.
San’s stomach twists violently, something visceral and instinctive recoiling hard in his gut. The moment fractures, splinters apart under the weight of what those fangs mean, what they’ve done, what they’re still slick with.
The illusion shatters.
Disgust surges in its place, hot and corrosive, flooding his veins, burning through that brief traitorous flicker of something else like acid eating through flesh.
Monster. He is not beautiful, not human, not anything worth looking at twice, not anything worth–
The creature’s smile widens like it felt that split second of hesitation, the crack in San’s certainty, like it’s savoring it now, rolling it’s tongue over it the same way it does blood.
“Well hello there, little pet.”
His voice slides over San’s skin. It’s not gagged or guttural the way San imagined. It’s smooth, almost warm. Almost soft, like velvet dragged the wrong way, pleasant at first touch but unsettling the longer you linger.
There’s amusement threaded through it. Like San is entertainment.
“You interrupted my dinner,” he continues, head tilting, pouting slightly, looking almost lazy. “That was quite rude of you, wasn’t it?”
San spits in his face. Fueled by instinct and fury, and disgust with himself and the creature before him.
“Fuck you, vermin.”
For a moment everything stills, there’s a pause so complete it feels like something unseen is holding its breath, waiting to see what will happen next.
Then the vampire laughs, it’s a bright cackling sound.
The sound cuts through the alley in a way that feels wrong, too bright for a place that reeks of blood and fear and decay. It echoes off brick and concrete, filling the space in a way that makes his skin crawl.
“You’re feisty,” he murmurs, eyes glittering with amusement. “That’s fun.”
San tries to grip his knife tighter, but it’s useless like this. For the first time in a long time San feels helpless. Powerless. It crawls up his spine, wrapping around his ribs, sinking into his chest like something alive.
He hates it.
He hates the way his body suddenly feels too slow, too breakable, too human. He hates the way all his training, all the years of discipline, the blood, the sacrifices, mean nothing right now.
The vampire leans closer, San feels the whisper-soft brush of silk against his chest, the unnatural cool radiating from the other man’s body, the metallic scent of blood thickening the air between them until it’s almost suffocating.
It clings to the back of his throat.
San feels fangs graze his neck. Light. So light it barely feels real. Not breaking skin, just hovering there.
San’s entire body locks, every muscle snaps tight, breath catching hard as his pulse spikes beneath that point of contact, pounding, frantic, betraying him completely.
It’s wrong. Everything about this is wrong.
And then his body betrays him in a completely different way.
Heat coils low in his stomach, sharp and sudden, cutting through the adrenaline like a knife. His breath stutters, chest rising unevenly as something unfamiliar and deeply unwanted takes hold.
Arousal hits him hard, it's vicious in its intensity. He can feel how hard he is. His body responds instinctively to the proximity, the pressure, the threat in a way that makes his stomach lurch with disgust.
It doesn’t make sense. It’s wrong. It’s sick. What the fuck is wrong with him?
His jaw clenches, teeth grinding painfully as he squeezes his eyes shut for half a second, desperate prayer slipping through his thoughts.
Please don’t notice. Don’t say anything. Just feed. Take what you want and leave. Let this end.
The vampire stills completely. And then a soft, pleased hum leaves him.
The sound is quiet and intimate. It feels devastating in a way San doesn’t understand.
“Oh, well that’s very interesting.”
No, no, no, no.
The vampire pulls back just enough to see him fully, eyes gleaming with delight.
“Does my new pet like being powerless?” He murmurs, voice dipping lower, the words brushing against San’s skin. “Do you like knowing you couldn’t stop me from taking whatever I want?”
Rage detonates inside of him. It slices through the humiliation, through the sick twist of his own body’s response.
“I said fuck you.” San grits out, every word forced through clenched teeth, his jaw aching with the effort, with the need to hold onto something that still belongs to him.
The vampire’s expression changes, but the amusement doesn’t fade. He almost looks fond.
“Very tempting , pet,” he says quietly. “But I have to find new dinner plans. Maybe next time. I’ll see you around, pretty thing.”
And then he’s gone. No sound or movement or warning. One second he’s there, the next San’s body is lurching forward, balance catching a second too late, muscles still braced for something that’s no longer there.
San slams against the wall to steady himself, breath tearing out of him in sharp, uneven bursts. He’s still hard and aching, it’s humiliating and unforgivable.
San squeezes his eyes shut, anger crashing over him in a violent wave, hot and suffocating and all consuming.
At himself. At the creature. At the betrayal of his own body.
Disgust churns in his stomach. Vampires are filth, demons, a blight on the world. And that one dared to touch him, dared to look at him like that, to make him–
His breath shudders as he forces it down, shoving the thoughts away, burying them deep where they can’t scream so loud.
–
The city runs slick with rain despite it stopping two hours ago, the streets still holding it and refusing to let it go. San moves through the dark the way he always has.
Boots finding the quiet way across gravel and broken glass and the thousand small sounds a city makes when it thinks no one is watching. His coat hangs heavy.
His knife sits in the inside pocket, close enough that the metal has taken on the warmth of his body, though he knows it will cool again the moment he draws it.
He has been doing this his whole life. There is no version of the night that surprises him.
He tells himself that.
The alley off the back of the old market district is a familiar hunting ground. The city seems to have forgotten about it while building around it. It’s too narrow for cars, too dim for the cameras that have colonized every other corner to work.
A young woman in a sequined dress stumbles at the far end laughing at something on her phone, oblivious. San tracks her without thinking, but it’s not her he’s watching.
It is the man who steps out of the shadow behind her.
Pale. Luminous, the way they all are, that sick glow that has nothing to do with streetlights. This one is tall, broad, dark-haired, wearing a jacket that costs more than most people’s rent.
San registers all of this in less than a second and files it along with everything else he already knows: demon, monster, threat, kill.
He moves.
The woman never hears a thing. She rounds the corner laughing and is gone, and San has the vampire pinned against the brick with the knife to his throat before the creature can fully register the threat.
And then he stops.
Not because he’s hesitant to kill. He stops because for one disorienting second he looks at this creature’s face and finds himself searching it.
His eyes drag from the jaw to the mouth to the pale arch of cheekbone, cataloguing without meaning to, and in the cavity of his chest there is nothing. No pull. No strange unhinging in his gut.
The creature beneath his arms snarls and gets a hand free and rakes it across San’s forearm. The pain snaps him back. He drives the knife in once, clean, through the heart, and the thing goes still.
He pulls the blade free and watches the creature crumple to the ground.
He stares at the body for three seconds longer than he needs to.
There is nothing there for him. He knew there wouldn’t be. He doesn’t understand why he looked at all.
He wipes the blade on the inside of his coat and walks away.
–
This is the fifth time in eleven days.
He doesn’t count them consciously. He’s not that far gone. But somewhere in the ledger he keeps without meaning to, the tally has accumulated: five kills since that night, five moments where his eyes went somewhere they had no business going, five searches that turned up nothing. Five bodies that are more ruined than they needed to be.
The fourth one he hit three times with a closed fist before he used the knife, which is not how he works. He’s clean. He’s efficient. He has always been efficient.
Efficiency is respect for the work. His family’s training manuals, actual manuals, water-stained pages in a language older than the city, stress economy of movement, the kind of cold precision that separates a hunter from a brawler.
He is not behaving like a hunter.
He tells himself it is anger. He is angry, which is true. He tells himself the anger is clean, which is not true.
The thing is, he knows what this is. He is not stupid. He is not even particularly good at self-deception. His family’s discipline routed that impulse early, ground it out in favor of clear-eyed assessment, because a hunter who lies to himself gets other people killed.
So some part of him, the trained and functional part, has already filed the correct report. He is looking for something in the face of every creature he puts down. He is measuring each one against a memory he has not managed to burn.
Red hair catching dim light like a held flame.
A mouth stained dark.
The particular quality of amusement in eyes that should not look like that, should not carry anything a man would want to see again.
He takes the long way home through the underpass and his fist hits the concrete support pillar once, hard enough to split the skin on two knuckles, the pain sits in his hand like a coal. He doesn’t stop walking. He doesn’t look at the blood.
The woman in the sequined dress is probably home by now, taking her shoes off in a yellow-lit hallway, not knowing. That is what this is for.
That is why his family carried this work for generations, why the knife in his pocket is etched with symbols he memorized before he memorized anything else.
He kills them so people can walk home laughing at their phones. He kills them because they are demons, because they are monsters, because they are not people anymore no matter what face they wear.
He knows what they are.
He is home before he realizes he has been muttering it under his breath, the words worn smooth with use, a stone he has been running between his fingers for eleven days without noticing.
The apartment is dark. He doesn’t turn on the lights. He sets the knife on the counter, and stands in the kitchen looking at his hands. The split knuckles, the dried blood from the alley that isn’t his. And he thinks about nothing. He is very practiced at thinking about nothing.
He is very bad at it lately.
He doesn’t sleep well. He hasn’t since that night. When he does manage something close to sleep, he doesn’t remember his dreams, only that he wakes with his jaw aching from how hard he has been clenching it, and with a feeling in his chest like something is missing that was never supposed to be there in the first place.
He picks up the knife again. It’s warm still, and it sits in his palm the way it always has. It’s familiar, purposeful, an extension of everything he was made to be.
He stares at the etched symbols until they blur.
He puts it down.
–
He makes the decision the way he makes all decisions that matter: in silence, without ceremony, standing at the kitchen counter at five in the morning with the knife in his hand and the city going grey outside the window.
The logic is sound. It’s airtight. It is the cleanest reasoning he has produced in eleven days.
The thing haunts him because it is still alive, because somewhere in this city it is still moving through the dark in those heeled boots, still smiling with that ruined mouth, still occupying space in San’s head that does not belong to it.
The solution to a haunting is simple. You kill what haunts you. He has been trained for exactly this.
He sets the knife down. He showers. He does not eat. He dresses like he is going to war, which is how he always dresses, but tonight his hands are steadier than they have been in almost two weeks, and for the first time since that night, the purpose in his chest feels like something he recognizes.
He is going to kill it. And then he will be able to sleep.
–
The strange thing happens before he has gone four blocks.
He has a method. He has always had a method. Triangulate the hunting ground, read the patterns of where the humans are and the predators will follow, work from the outside in. It is systematic. It is reliable. He has refined it over years until it runs in him like a second pulse.
Tonight none of it turns on.
He walks. His feet simply move, and something that is not quite thought and not quite instinct pulls him like a current.
Left on the narrow street behind the overpass. Right through the construction corridor with the chain-link fence. Straight down the block where the lights burned out months ago. He notices what is happening at the third turn, notices it the way you would notice a hand on your shoulder in the dark, and he nearly stops.
But he doesn’t.
His jaw is tight. His hand rests against the inner pocket of his coat where the knife sits, and his fingers flex around it, in that unconscious rhythm that normally grounds him. He tells himself he is following his instincts. He tells himself there is nothing strange about this. He has excellent instincts.
He does not look at the fact that he has never had instincts like this before, drawn this thin and sure, a wire pulled taunt between him and whatever waits at the other end.
The house at the end of the dead end street has been empty for years. He can tell from twenty feet away, the particular stillness of abandoned structures, the way they hold themselves differently from lived-in ones, all the small mechanical sounds of habitation gone silent.
The windows are dark, but the darkness inside is different from the darkness around him outside. It feels colder.
He takes the front steps without making a sound.
The door has been open long enough that the hinges have stopped complaining. Inside, the air is still and very cold, the specific cold that doesn’t come from winter or broken windows, the cold San has learned to read the same way a sailor reads weather.
His breath fogs as his eyes adjust. Bare floors, scattered debris, the skeleton of furniture someone left behind. He moves through the ground level and finds it’s empty, and takes the stairs with his weight along the outer edge, one hand trailing the wall, the other still holding the handle of the knife.
He can hear nothing. He moves toward the door at the end of the hall and freezes in the doorway.
The room has no light except what bleeds in from the bare window, and it is enough. More than enough. Because the pale, luminous quality of the creature’s skin generates its own visibility, a low sourceless glow that makes him visible in the dark the way a lamp is visible through a curtain. The cherry-red of his hair is vivid even now, even here.
He is sitting against the headboard of a bare mattress, thin white shirt riding up around his ribs, clinging to every ridge of muscle. His leather pants are undone, and the curve of his hipbone gleams where the fabric has slipped.
His head tilts back against the wall, the long stretch of his throat exposed, and from him comes a soft, private sound. A hushed moan that isn’t meant to be heard.
San’s mind spits out the word “kill” like a fist to the gut. His body freezes.
He stands in the doorway and his hand is on the knife and his feet have grown roots into the floorboards and his eyes are locked on the creature’s exposed skin. Then his gaze drops, and for an instant, one shuttering breath, he thinks: that cock is beautiful.
The word surfaces before he can murder it, and the shame that follows it is immediate and devastating and it does nothing to change the fact that his body is reacting with a speed and completeness that is, frankly, humiliating.
A small, strangled sound escapes, half-whimper and half-groan, caught in the back of his throat.
The creature’s eyes open.
His head turns with the unhurried ease of something eternal, and when he finds San in the doorway he smiles. Full lips curve upward in a predator’s slow smile, warm and terrible and mocking.
His hand stills, but does not move away, still wrapped around himself. He looks at San the way someone looks at a familiar and expected thing.
“Finally,” he says. His voice has the same quality San has been trying to scrub out of his memory for eleven days, smooth and unhurried. “You made me wait for such a long time. I got bored.”
San’s hand is on the knife. San’s hand does not move.
The creature tucks himself away with the casual efficiency of someone interrupted doing something entirely mundane, rising from the mattress in a single fluid motion, shirt fluttering down over taut abs.
He crosses the room toward San, and San watches him. He watches him come and his arm does not lift and the blade stays in its pocket and he can feel his own heartbeat in his teeth.
The creature circles him.
It’s a slow orbit, the kind of thing a predator does when it has already decided the situation is under complete control and wants the prey to understand that too.
San stands very still in the center of it, every muscle in his body coiled toward a violence he cannot find the trigger for, and when the creature moves behind him San can no longer see him, he can only feel the cold that radiates off his skin and the slight shift of the air.
The pressure comes at the back of his knees. The pointed application of force, the creature’s knees driving against the fold of San’s legs with enough certainty that his body reads it not as an attack but as an instruction.
San’s legs buckle and his knees hit the floor.
He does not fight it. He goes down, and the hardwood is hard and cold through his jeans, and he is kneeling in the middle of this bare room in this dead house with his hand still wrapped around the handle of a knife he cannot make himself draw, and the shame of it moves through him like ice water.
He hates himself. He hates this. He hates the creature standing behind him with the same ferocity he hates the compliance he cannot seem to locate the override for.
He hates himself in a way that he does not have language for, which is perhaps the most frightening thing, that the hatred is real and complete and it changes nothing.
The knife is still in his pocket. His hand has finally released the handle, fingers splayed flat against his thigh, and he is kneeling here in the dark with his jaw set and his pulse loud in his ears and the undeniable, unforgivable fact of his own body making itself impossible to ignore.
He has been hard since the doorway. Since before the doorway, if he’s being accurate, since the moment the magnetic pull that led him across the city arrived at its destination and he understood what destination it had chosen.
He is so hard it has edged into pain, a slow insistent ache that he cannot reason away or attribute to anything except what it is, this creature. This thing he came here to kill, this demon with cherry-red hair and beautiful pale skin and a mouth San can’t stop thinking about.
He is a hunter. He is the end of a bloodline forged entirely around this purpose, and he is kneeling.
The creature pivots slowly, sliding around until his scuffed leather boot hovers just inches from San’s trembling knees.
San can’t help but look up, he is kneeling on the cold floor, there is no vantage from which this arrangement doesn’t spell out exactly what it is.
The creature’s gaze drifts downward. His eyes settle on the tented denim of San’s jeans, and the expression on his face shifts into something that is not quite cruelty but lives in the same neighborhood. Something that has sharp edges and doesn’t try to hide them.
The boot moves. The heel presses deliberately, crushing through the coarse denim fabric and into San’s aching cock.The pressure creates a collision of pain and pleasure that is, as it turns out, almost impossible to separate when you are already this far gone.
Out of his throat tears a single, humiliating whimper. Equal parts anguish and hunger. San’s breath catches as heat and shock tangle together in a confusing sensation that he can’t disentangle.
He looks up at the creature’s face. The expression there is awful and transfixing and beautiful. Those eyes are steady and feral and entirely without mercy, and the creature watches him like he has all the time in the world.
“Go on, pet,” Wooyoung says softly. “Chase what you came here for.”
San’s jaw works. Somewhere in his chest, something that sounds like his father’s voice and his grandfather’s before him is producing sounds that don’t coalesce into words, just noise. The alarm of a system that has encountered something outside its parameters.
He hates this. He hates himself. He hates the creature standing above him with his boot pressed just so, and he hates the easy obedience of his own body, which has already decided what it’s going to do before his mind had a chance to refuse.
His hips rut into the heel of the boot. The pressure is extraordinary. There’s a ratio of pain and pleasure that shifts with every movement and has no stable place to land. He chases it anyway, with the single minded focus of a man who has been starving for eleven days and has just been set down in front of something that will finally satisfy him.
He works against it, graceless and desperate, his breath coming in ragged pulls through his nose, his hand braced flat against the floor. When he cums it’s fast, embarrassingly, wretchedly fast. A sound tears out of him that sounds more animal than human that he will try not to think about later.
The heat of it moves through him in a slow dissolving wave, unspooling from his core outward to the tips of his fingers, and leaves his thoughts warm and blurred at the edges.
The mess is cold almost immediately. He is aware of the discomfort of it, the wet chill against his skin through fabric, but it doesn’t matter. His brain is somewhere floaty and indistinct and for approximately forty seconds he doesn’t hate anyone, including himself.
Then the forty seconds end.
He looks up at the creature who is still watching him. The creature is, it becomes apparent when San’s eyes travel down and then snap back up with the reflexive shock of someone who was not expecting to confirm what they were looking for, hard. The leather pants are a reliable index.
San is on his knees on the floor. San is sticky and humiliated, and his hands are trembling slightly with the tail end of what just moved through him. Some part of San understands that there is still a knife in his coat and a purpose that brought him here and a lineage of people who would not recognize what he has become in this room.
He opens his mouth.
“Can I–” His voice comes out rough and stripped of its usual authority, which is somehow the most unbearable detail of all. “Can I taste you?”
It’s barely a question, it’s a plea, garbled whispered desperate thing. His delusional logic, half-formed at the back of his skull is this, if he takes what he wants just once, then wanting will have somewhere to go. The haunting will burn itself out. He knows, even as the thought takes root, that it’s a lie. But the lie is all he has.
The creature smiles down at him.
“My sweet pet,” he says, soft as a blade drawn slowly. “Of course you can. Open your mouth.”
San’s hands curl into fists against his thighs. The rage is still there, it hasn’t gone anywhere, it is a live thing moving under his skin. It finds this moment particularly intolerable. He hates this moment. He hates that he asked, that he’s here, that he’s going to obey.
Some deep, defiant part of him locks up. The muscle in his jaw tenses, his jaw refusing the instruction his body has already agreed to.
The creature's hand moves.
His fingers close under San’s jaw, thumb and forefinger against bone, and the grip is not gentle. The pain of it, precise and unexpected, shocks a whimper out of San that he will spend several days trying to forget the sound of. The creature tilts his face up.
“Now, where did my sweet pet go, hm?” He studies San’s face with calm attention. “Open. I don’t like repeating myself. If you make me ask again, I’ll take your treat away.”
The panic arrives like a cold fist to the sternum. It makes no sense, San knows it makes no sense. He knows that the word ‘treat’ is being twisted into something that should produce nothing except fury. He knows that he should get off this floor and go home and never come back to this godforsaken street.
He is aware of all of this. It does not help. The idea of being denied is, right now, indistinguishable from the idea of suffocation or drowning.
His mouth opens immediately.
The creature’s expression does something soft and terrible. “There’s my sweet pet,” he murmurs. “Keep your eyes on me.”
San’s eyes snap up to find his, and what he sees there is hunger.
Not the polished amusement of the past few minutes but something older and rawer underneath it, something that looks at him with a depth of appetite that should be frightening and produces, instead, a pull in San’s gut like the moon pulling water.
The creature sinks into the wet heat of San’s mouth. San keeps his eyes locked on the creature's face and his face smooths into satisfaction.
“Enjoy your treat.” His hand releases San’s chin.
And San is suddenly operating on a register he has never been trained for, the deep clawing need to be good at this.
He is good at everything he does. He was raised to be. The need to be excellent moves through him sideways and strange, repurposed from every context it was built for, and he puts it here, into this, and works with everything he has.
It is messy, he is not practiced, and he is too desperate to be precise or clean about it, but he moans around the creature’s cock, takes it deep and uses his tongue and watches the creature’s face for signs of approval the way he once watched his mentors during training drills. He searches for that same hunger, for confirmation that he is doing this right.
The soft sounds that leave the creature are almost unbearable. There’s something unguarded in them that San catches and holds onto.
When the creature cums, San swallows every drop.
The emptiness that follows has no name San knows.
He is still on his knees. The room is very cold and very quiet and he feels, beneath the shame and the fury and the dissolving logic of the past half hour, something formless and wretched forms that might be the wish to be held by something that would not hold him gently and could not be trusted and is not human and would laugh if it knew.
He cannot ask for that. He will not ask for that.
His hand moves forward, not reaching for anything specific, just wanting to touch the creature in some way.
“What’s your name?” He asks, his voice is barely there.
The creature is tucking himself back into his pants. He does it with the same casual elegance he seems to apply to everything, and when San speaks, he glances down with an expression that almost looks amused.
“Wooyoung.”
San looks at the floor. “My name is San.”
“I know who you are, pet.”
The words arrive with a particular weight that San does not have the capacity to examine right now. The unsettling implication of them. That none of this was ever accidental, that San’s name and lineage and face was already known to this creature, that he walked into this room believing he was hunting when he was prey all along.
He opens his mouth to ask how. To ask what it means.
Wooyoung crouches in front of him, and the movement brings those eyes level with his, and then one hand comes up and a thumb passes over San’s bottom lip, slow, deliberate, something almost gentle in it, and the touch lands in San’s chest in a place he doesn’t have defenses for.
Wooyoung sighs. The sigh sounds almost fond.
“I’d love to stay and chat,” he says pleasantly, as though they’d just been discussing the weather. “Or whatever it is you humans like to do these days. But I have to eat.” He rises. The heeled boots make almost no sound. “Don’t make me wait so long next time.”
San opens his mouth but the room is already empty.
Not just empty, unchanged, undisturbed, the cold air still as it was when he arrived, as though the past hour was something that happened to the building’s memory rather than its space. No sound of footsteps, no creak of the stairs. Wooyoung is simply gone.
San stays on his knees for a long moment.
He is sticky and cold and alone in an abandoned house, he doesn’t know what time it is. He doesn’t know what happened, and he knows exactly what happened.
Both things are true. The knife is still in his pocket, unused, undisturbed, the ancient symbols patient and impassive against the fabric of his coat. His hands are on his thighs and his jaw aches from holding itself tight.
He got up today to kill a vampire and he is on the floor in the dark, wrecked, learning a name.
The anger, when it comes fully, is the cleanest thing he has felt all night. He holds onto it with both hands. He does not examine what is underneath it. He gets to his feet, straightens his coat, and walks out of the house, into the city, into the dark that has always been his, moving with his practiced near-silent gait as though nothing about the ground beneath his feet has changed.
It has changed. He knows it has changed. He keeps walking anyway.