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The art of noticing.
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The seven times Mel and Frank saw in each other what no one else could see.
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"You okay?" You were aiming for casual but it comes out overly so, like you're self-conscious about it. And, a little slurred.
"Fuck off," Shane says.
You nod. Figures. Turning, you start to walk away again when he says, "Sorry."
You stiffen, look at him. He's looking at you now, managed to tear his eyes away from the shelf.
"Sorry," he says again, with such an honesty to it. "Old habits."
Three years since you last spoke, the rumour around town is that Shane's sober now. When it proves to be true, and he wants to be friends, old wounds are reopened and old habits die hard.
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- Part 2 of in the blossom of the months
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Bucky Barnes is dead.
Bucky Barnes is dead and the Winter Soldier can’t help but to pretend he isn’t. That is the only way Steve and the others will keep him after all.
So he studies and imitates and does what he has been build to do. Deceive and manipulate to survive. It’s the only way to live in this world.
When he realizes he’s not the only one pretending, he can’t help but use this chance to make his standing in the team even more secure. After all, Tony Stark would make a powerful ally.
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Crazy good Tony x James "Bucky" Barnes
This is so good! Keep up the work!!
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zanka is going through the toughest of his withdrawal symptoms from his smoking addiction and jabber is testing his limits
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After a year of staying sober, March has a relapse. Things quickly spiral out of control.
In the end, it was just another thing to talk about when people asked. Now that—well, that was worth the risk. The way their eyes widened, clear with care and concern. How their voices were always hushed and cautious. Then if he was lucky, a hug. Someone who’d coddle him a little. Someone who’d listen with understanding. Yeah, that made it all worth it. He missed that gentle kind of affection. He missed getting it from his wife.
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Not Okay by RebekahRose
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
06 Jun 2026
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After Vegas, Shane decided that to get over Rozanov, he needed to get under someone new. That decision ends up costing him more than he could have ever known.
After Vegas, Ilya decided that getting over Hollander was a useless task, and saying fuck it and jumping all in was the way to go. That decision ends up costing him more than he could have ever known.
NOTE: None of the Rape/Non-Con is between Shane & Ilya
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Frequency Lock by x_starfry
Fandoms: Batman - All Media Types, Batman: Wayne Family Adventures (Webcomic)
12 Jun 2026
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Damian al Ghul was four years old when the League taught him that obedience meant survival.
They strapped him to a chair, flooded his nervous system with sonic conditioning, and rewired his mind until pain became instinct and fear became permanent.
By the time Batman finds him, Damian is no longer just traumatized — he is conditioned. Broken apart by sound, by compliance, by years of engineered terror.
Recovery is slow. Painful. Nonlinear.
The Batfamily learns how to care for a child who flinches at every noise, who believes punishment follows mistakes, who doesn't understand kindness because he's never been allowed to have it before.
And just when Damian finally starts believing he's safe—
The League activates the conditioning again.
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- Part 3 of DC Mini Series
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“You could see drinking directly from the source akin to drinking wine", Seonghwa explained. "Most will have a glass here and there, some even every weekend, but it is generally frowned upon to overindulge.”
“And how about you?”
“Me?”
Hongjoong swallowed.
“Are you… fond of a glass of wine?”
Or: Ex-drug addict Hongjoong will do whatever it takes to not let himself or the people he loves fall back into the life they worked hard to escape from.
Vampire Seonghwa has one rule: he does not drink from humans anymore.
They are good at breaking down each other's resolves.
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Hongjoong and San are ex-addicts living together and working on their mutual rehabilitation. Hongjoong is in school. Sannie reads 'Gone with the Wind' on repeat + has a doting partner in Wooyoung. One day, WY manages to HJ to a vampire club, where consenting humans can enjoy the (physically nonaddictive) high of a bite from a vampire. There, HJ runs into the same vampire he met at the blood bank clinic while donating week before - the beautiful Dr. Park - who is looking worse for wear as he refuses to drink due to the blood shortage. After much convincing, SH agrees to drink just enough to quench his thirst from HJ, after which their mutual obsession quickly grows. HJ + SH must contend with their growing codependence and HJ deals with the guilt of hiding this new 'addiction' from his dear Sannie - until he finds out.
Love me an ancient vampire SH obsessed w/ his tiny, beautiful human.
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Addiction, love it hate it read it
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Lu Guang does not have much self-control.
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It's believin' you'll wake me if I'm fallin' asleep by Sunsetflower95
Fandoms: The Pitt (TV)
13 Jun 2026
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After Trinity ends up relapsing and cutting herself again, she decides to go to her girlfriend, Mel, in order to get patched up.
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I don't want to get better, I want to get worse by Houseofchaos
Fandoms: Disco Elysium (Video Game)
06 Sep 2025
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After Kim’s permanent transfer six months prior, Satellite-Officer Vicquemare became increasingly bitter and volatile around Harry, who always sought out the Lieutenant for second opinions during their cases, which gnawed at Jean’s sanity.
The screaming matches were nothing new for them. Some people would have even said that anything too quiet was suspicious, but since his amnesia, Harry didn’t fight back, just apologized, stayed silent and looked at his shoes. The kicked puppy routine made Jean go nuclear for a myriad of unpleasant reasons. The main being that anyone witnessing these exchanges would instantly feel sorry for Harry, as if his amnesia absolved him of all the sins past and future, as if he was not the catalyst responsible for this dynamic.
It lasted three more miserable months before an opportunity arose. And when it did, Jean asked Pryce immediately for the roles to be shuffled : that Kitsuragi officially be paired with Du Bois - he’s already doing all of his work with him anyways - and Vicquemare joining McCoy - Satellite-Officer Simon just went on indefinite sick leave didn’t he? I can take over.
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it is so good, but it is so so sad its my hanya yanigahara a little life but worse actually
read up to chapter 9 lmao and neglect everything else
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Spamton laughed a little. "It's a curse, I tell you. I get fellas from all over the place tryna buy me drinks."
Tenna felt a rush of embarrassment. Maybe this wasn't a good idea. Maybe he fucked up. Maybe Spamton was trying to push him away, but being way too nice about it. "Can't imagine why," Tenna said, instead of taking the maybe-possibly hint. He tried to be casual, leaned his own elbows on the bar as he twirled his empty whiskey glass in his hand. He got a refill, a shot for confidence. "I'm Tenna." He stuck his hand out for a shake.
"I know," Spamton nodded as he drank. "I'm Spamton." He grasped onto Tenna's hand, the bracelets on his wrists jingling, just as he suspected. His grip was firm, his palms were warm and sweaty. His fingers lingered on Tenna for just a moment too long.
Tenna's heart fluttered again. He grinned. "I know."Series
- Part 20 of Spamton and Tenna's Scandalous Escapades
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Before Big Shot Era
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Hazy Shade of Winter Universe by unwashedace
Fandom Original Work, Stranger Things (TV 2016)
13 Jun 2026
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What if Harry had gotten sober? What if Dora had married him? And what if he ended up unhappy anyway?
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In Case I Make It (Please Be There) by Allfyxs
Fandoms: Arcane: League of Legends (Cartoon 2021)
13 Jun 2026
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Powder’s life is going great, actually.
Sure, Vi came home with a badge and so much concern that Powder started feeling like her skin was being actively set on fire. Sure, Powder might be using more than she admits and lying worse than she thinks and just about one bad day away from collapsing in on herself and taking everything down with her.
But other than that?
Great.
Then everything falls apart with a botched delivery that leads Powder to a spiral that leads to an overdose that lands her a fast-pass to rehab (or prison, if you ask her), where she meets Ekko.
Ekko, who is NOT her friend, by the way. They just talk sometimes. And sit together more often than not. And make each other laugh often. And maybe he knows when she’s spiraling before she does sometimes, but that sounds like his problem.
Obviously.
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Rehab is supposed to help people, which would probably matter more to Powder if she still believed there was a version of herself underneath all of this worth helping in the first place. Ekko, who has been there longer than most, knows the feeling all too well.
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Ben relapses, again, and Matt stays.
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“I do,” Chūya answered honestly, “I’d like that a lot. If we did this again.” Then, with a mischievous smirk he added, “You know. Watch another 2001 award-winning film.”
“Did you hear it was a blockbuster?”
“Swept the theatres by storm. Heard it was up for 5 Oscars.”
“Shame it went straight to blue-ray and DVD.”
The two cracked a shared smile.
They leaned in close.
“Goodnight, Box Office Chūya,” Dazai murmured.
“Goodnight, shitty mackerel,” Chūya replied.
They were close.
They were close.
They could feel each other’s breathing and see their reflections in each other’s eyes and study each other’s lips and—
They were—
“Okay, bye!”
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Or, breaking in the process of keeping each other whole.
OR, box office Chūya and pianist Dazai spending a summer at a music center.Series
- Part 4 of Miscellaneous AUs
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if the sun refused to shine, i would still be lovin' you by flannelfeelings
Fandoms: Heartstopper (TV), Heartstopper (Webcomic)
07 Jan 2025
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Charlie Spring is, to not overstate it, more stressed out than any other human being on the planet has ever been.
He’s not even fucking exaggerating.
Okay, maybe just a bit. But, work is a shitshow the past few months with the end of year. Nick and he have just moved into a new flat, the holidays are coming up soon, and all of these things happening all at once have been…ugh.
Nick usually packs both of them lunch. Charlie hasn’t had the heart to tell him he’s not eaten much of them for the past week.
He’s keeping an eye on it, using all the coping mechanisms he learned over a decade ago when he was first hospitalized for his mental health struggles. He hasn’t had a relapse in ages, though it’s not like he’ll ever be completely cured. Things are good, he’s happy and healthy and he knows it will never be as bad as it was that one cold, awful winter.
But sometimes, once in a while, life becomes too much, and he finds himself teetering on the edge of falling back into dangerous old patterns.
-aka Charlie is overwhelmed with work stress, moving, and general adult existing and it puts a strain on his mental health. he's due for a healthy reminder that healing is not a linear journey-
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JayRoy Things 🏹♥️ by alistairatyou
Fandom Batman - All Media Types, DCU, DCU (Comics), Green Arrow (Comics), Green Lantern - All Media Types, Red Hood and the Outlaws (Comics), Red Hood/Arsenal (Comics), The Flash (Comics)
19 Apr 2026
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All my JayRoy works in one place
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It’s only me, myself, and I. I, am Layla. by cheriierss
Fandom 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game)
16 Nov 2024
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Layla
THERE WILL BE LAYLA ANGST
This is just a AU of if Layla and Al Haitham were to be siblings
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