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the way to his heart by anincompletelist (soldouthaz)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 Jun 2026
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“It’s okay. I don’t need anything.”
“I am not going to eat in front of you while you have nothing, Hollander,” Ilya scoffs. He plucks a can of cold ginger ale from the top shelf as casually as he can manage and slides it over the island, interrupting Hollander’s fidgeting thumbs. “You must be hungry, yes? It’s been hours since you left hotel. I can make something. Easy.”
“Make… what?” he asks warily.
Ilya rolls his eyes and tosses a look over his shoulder. “Do not worry. I will find something that works for your special hockey diet,” he teases. He reaches back into the fridge. “Tuna melt okay?”
“No,” Hollander says primly. “And it’s a disease. Not a diet.”
He pulls his hands out of the cold and turns, blinks. “What?”
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- Part 9 of the chronic illness club
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12 Jun 2026
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Shane sighs, shifting, something spinning around in his stomach as he fumbles for his phone. The pale light of his lockscreen blinds him, his eyes wrinkling in a deep recoil. Before he can force his eyes to adjust to the harsh glare, his phone starts buzzing in his hand again. Repeated little hums, signalling a phone-call, not just a text. And, when Shane finally does peel his eyes open, he sees two things: It’s eleven-forty-seven, and Sonya is calling him.
That’s not right. She’s home, why is she calling him? “M’ello?” He says, confused and groggy.
There’s a rush of air on the other end. Wind, maybe. Or breathing, hard to tell. “Dad?”
OR - In a moment of teenage rebellion, Shane and Ilya’s daughter sneaks out in the middle of the night. She learns her lesson when she ends up in a car accident. Her fathers come to pick her up.
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11 Jun 2026
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It does mean missing out on things like barbeques and team dinners sometimes, but it’s not as if he would have been able to participate anyway. At this point in his life, risking someone not taking his allergies seriously would mean potentially missing games, which makes it unacceptable. Jackie always makes sure he has a dish or two that’s safe when he’s over at their house, but if he was going to be the one guy sitting and drinking ginger ale instead of taking part in sharing nachos or Korean barbeque or burgers or any other delicious thing he goes in knowing he can’t have anyway, there’s no point in making a fuss about it. He eats at home, has a drink with everyone else, and he calls it a day. Easy. Safe. Foolproof.
But also the reason it doesn’t occur to him that he hasn’t actually told Ilya about any of his allergies until it becomes immediately relevant five days into being at his cottage together.
(how ilya learns about shane's food allergies) (and how shane learns what it's like to have someone who always saves him a seat at the table) (and who also makes sure there's food he can eat on the table to start with)
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09 Jun 2026
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back to the start by WriteThroughTheNight
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
10 Apr 2026
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“Okay,” Ilya says. His thumb restarts its soothing. “Then say it all wrong, and I will understand anyway.”
So Shane tries, reaches out and hopes for Ilya to reach back. “My first year with the Metros wasn’t… great. I mean, I played great hockey, but those first few years, the room wasn’t…"
“Room wasn’t great,” Ilya repeats. “What does this mean? Not great like calling you slurs? Not great like hazing?”
Shane stiffens, then forcibly relaxes. He tries to make his voice light, “A little, uh. A little of both, I guess.”
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Shane's metric for a normal locker room is skewed. Ilya (and the Centaurs) are happy to help.
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08 Jun 2026
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“You…wanted to see me?” He asks, barely resisting a wince at how awkwardly it comes out. “After yesterday-” He stops, swallows.
Hollander makes a face–one of Ilya’s favorite faces, in fact–that says he’s a little embarrassed about what he’s about to say. Ilya feels his chest go a little tighter, wondering if Hollander has had time to reconsider, if he’d even planned to reach out after the game, apologize for spooking and running, ask to come ba-
“Did something…happen yesterday?” Hollander asks.
Ilya stares at him.
(the accident that takes shane out for the season happens the day after the tuna meltdown) (...it also takes his memory of the tuna meltdown with it)
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07 Jun 2026