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  1. Public Bookmark 24

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    The first sign that something was wrong was not dramatic.

    It was, instead, a text message. At 4:17PM.

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    Or: What happens when someone who hurt you dies, and you never get the chance to confront them?

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    20 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 13

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    dan has just been rejected by youtube originals. his plans for DINOK are not happening. and now he has to sit in the aftermath of all of his hopes and dreams going down the drain. and while he spirals, he figures that phil shouldn't have to go down with him.

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    19 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 52

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    It’s not just a necklace.
    It’s the only thing that ever made the loss bearable.
    Losing it feels like losing her all over again.
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    Shane reminds Ilya he’s not alone—even when it feels like everything else is slipping away.

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    02 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 17

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    There are plenty of ways in which Dan’s depression medication is making his life easier and lighter.

    It’s also making him gain weight. He’s learning to live with that.

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    26 May 2026

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    Ilya has a severe allergy to pine nuts,
    Shane is tortured to no end,
    Troy and Harris try their best,
    Scott’s retirement party goes awry,
    And a childish game in the woods takes a turn for the worse.

    All will be fine... probably.

    ***

    “Fuck.” Shane repeated aloud.

    “I-I don’t feel so good,” Ilya confessed grimly, and for a moment, Shane felt like he was falling.

    Helplessly, he watched as Ilya reached down to scratch various patches of his skin — softly at first, at the base of his neck, then more aggressively along the backs of his hands.

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    22 May 2026

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    Shane sighs, shifting, something spinning around in his stomach as he fumbles for his phone. The pale light of his lockscreen blinds him, his eyes wrinkling in a deep recoil. Before he can force his eyes to adjust to the harsh glare, his phone starts buzzing in his hand again. Repeated little hums, signalling a phone-call, not just a text. And, when Shane finally does peel his eyes open, he sees two things: It’s eleven-forty-seven, and Sonya is calling him.

    That’s not right. She’s home, why is she calling him? “M’ello?” He says, confused and groggy.

    There’s a rush of air on the other end. Wind, maybe. Or breathing, hard to tell. “Dad?”

    OR - In a moment of teenage rebellion, Shane and Ilya’s daughter sneaks out in the middle of the night. She learns her lesson when she ends up in a car accident. Her fathers come to pick her up.

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    21 May 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 97

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    After finally choosing each other, Shane is determined to bring the two most important parts of his life together. But introducing Ilya to his fiercely loyal best friend, Hayden Pike, turns an already fragile night into something volatile.

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    12 May 2026

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    Shane snapped.

    Later, people would describe it differently.

    Some called it terrifying.

    Some heroic.

    Some beautiful.

    Shane himself remembered almost nothing except overwhelming, animal panic.

    His gloves hit the ice.

    Then his helmet.

    Then he collided with Volkov hard enough to rip him bodily off Ilya.

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    12 May 2026

  9. Public Bookmark 99

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    The teasing tone of his voice should be enough to convince Shane he is okay. He's inconvenienced Shane enough, it was time to manage his problems on his own. He can mask whatever is going on with him today, deal with it, and be better tomorrow. 

    He just has to make it to tomorrow.

    His husband, unfortunately, has other plans. "We actually finished early. I'm gonna come back today instead of two days from now. I have a flight in two hours, so I should be home by evening."

    The panic hits Ilya almost instantly. Evening is too soon, he thinks, I'll still be like this by evening. Shane is going to deal with my mess again. He won't even have time to rest from his flight. I can't be seen like this. I can't do this to him. I can't let someone else deal with my problems. I can't let someone else come home to this. 

    I'm just like my mother.

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    12 May 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 64

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    “Hello from the editing zone. Phil, why are you back? Well, first of all…”

    “PHIL,” comes a very loud, very shrill voice from several rooms away. “YOU UTTER FUCKING BITCH.”

    (the secret message aftermath.)

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    11 May 2026

  11. Public Bookmark *

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    It looks ugly, but it’s clean
    Oh momma, don’t fuss over me.

    5 times Shane (and family) care for Ilya and the 1 time Ilya takes care of Shane.

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    10 May 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 16

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    Phil crawled into bed with Dan. He gave Dan a small kiss on the side of his head and went to sleep.
    Dan didn’t know how long he’d been in bed at that point.
    All he knew was that Phil had watched at least one movie and gone to bed. And now he was in bed with him, and Dan was just pretending to sleep?
    What if something happened to Phil in his sleep, and Dan had been so ungrateful as to pretend to sleep and not properly say goodnight?
    A tear rolled down his cheek as the thought came up, but still, he couldn’t bring himself to roll over and tell Phil.
    It was going to be a rough day tomorrow.

    Or,
    Dan has depression, and some days it makes it impossible to do anything. Even just getting out of bed is a huge feat, so Phil helps to the best of his ability.

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    30 Apr 2026

  13. Public Bookmark 22

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    it’s so, so hard to ignore “i want to die” when he hasn’t genuinely, truly felt that way in sixteen years. it’s equally terrifying and comforting, and tempting, which is even more terrifying in and of itself.

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    28 Apr 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 12

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    Dan's humming something, and they’re both half asleep so it takes Phil a minute to identify the tune and connect lyrics to it.

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    01 Apr 2026

  15. Public Bookmark *

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    “I am fine.” His accent got thicker when he felt lousy. Shane had learned that pretty early on. It got thicker when he was mad, too, but this was not angry-thick. This was tired, unsteady, and not-quite-present thick.

     

    Shane put his phone down. “You’re white.”

     

    Ilya turned his head slowly and gave him a look. “I am always white, Hollander.”

     

    “Not like this, asshole.”

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    27 Mar 2026

  16. Public Bookmark 53

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    Shane was not sure why would Svetlana call him at all, unless there was an earth shuttering emergency that he is not aware of, and of course his mind immediately going there, imagining all the things that could’ve happen to Ilya, and he is non the wiser.

    / Or Ilya is sick and Shane is being irresponsible for the first time in his career.

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    24 Mar 2026

  17. Public Bookmark *

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    Shane's eyes squeeze closed again. “We had reason to put rules in place. Protocol. If ever—if it got to a place where, if he was ever feeling like he might—"

    Hayden’s body understands before his mind catches up. His blood runs cold for a second, stuck on the scrunch of Shane’s face, the clench of his fist, how desperate he’d been to see Rozanov—Ilya—just now. To make sure that he was okay. Here, in person.

    Not hurt. Alive.

    “Oh,” Hayden hears himself say distantly. “Oh, fuck, Shane.”

    --

    or, Ilya needs a place to go, and Hayden's happens to be the closest. It turns out to be a good thing.

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    14 Mar 2026

  18. Public Bookmark 46

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    In January of 2024, Dan and Phil posted a would you push the button video featuring a question with some surprisingly deep connotations.

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    10 Mar 2026

  19. Public Bookmark 51

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    Another red light.
    “Ilya?” Shane leans closer this time, brushing his knuckles lightly against Ilya’s jaw.
    “Where does it hurt?” His voice is tight, urgent. “Talk to me.”
    No answer.
    Ilya’s head has tipped toward the window again. His lashes rest against fever-flushed skin, cheeks burning red under the passing streetlights. His breathing is too shallow — each inhale catching faintly at the end like it hurts to pull air in.
    “Ilya?” Shane presses. “Hey. Tell me where it hurts.”
    Nothing. The silence slams into him.
    “Fuck—” His hand tightens on Ilya’s thigh. He gives it a firmer shake. “Fuck, fuck, fuck. No. Ilya. Hey.”

    Ilya doesn’t get sick often.
    But when he does, it’s never small.
    Fever is the one thing that can kill him.
    He knows it. The doctors know it. The ER staff knows it.
    Shane doesn’t.
    And Ilya would like to keep it that way.

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    08 Mar 2026

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    hollanov’s third 🧚 @hollanovoodoo
    so….did anyone see the way shane had to be held back on the bench when ilya got hit…i don’t think i’ve ever seen him that mad….

    wanda v @hellorhighwater
    montreal’s really done it now i hope they’re scared for their lives

    reagan 𓂀 @shilya_hollanov
    his face when the refs called double minor….i fear we’re gonna see a shane hollander we’ve NEVER seen before in the last period

    Or, Shane Hollander plays Montreal for the first time since becoming a Centaur. It goes about as well as he expects.

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    03 Mar 2026

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