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    Within the tight quarters of the Hail Mary, misunderstandings, arguments, and accidents are bound to happen. It's especially unfortunate when all three happen at once.

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    Something was standing above his towel.

    No… someone.

    They seemed to be observing the towel, claws tapping against the material with what he took as curiosity, pinching it between the appendage.

    Was it Rocky? It’d make sense, the Eridian would certainly have something harsh to say about him leaving his stuff laying around. He always had some mean quip to insult his shoddy human memory.

    He opened his mouth to defend himself before Rocky could say something snappy, when the figure then moved, stocky legs rising from beneath their carapace and lifting them to their full standing height.

    They were tall. Too tall.

    That wasn’t Rocky.

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    Grace receives an unexpected visitor one night in his home on Erid.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Grace didn't have much of anything these days. Less appetite, less strength, less of whatever it was that made a person reach for a disgusting coma food slurry bag and drink it down because it was necessary to live and do it all over again tomorrow because tomorrow existed and had things in it worth being alive for.

    Or - Grace's mental health deteriorates on the journey to Erid.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    "Hey...can I ask you something kind of weird?"

    "Shoot," Rocky says, his voice sounding amused. "But not actually shoot."

    Grace wants to laugh at the joke (he's been getting better at joking and sarcasm) but instead he swallows, his fingers tracing idle patterns on the blanket. The ache from earlier at the classroom, the beach, the constant invisible wall feels closer tonight.

    "What does it feel like... to touch you?" he asks. "I mean, if we could. Your carapace. Your claws. What would it feel like to me?"

    Rocky is quiet for a long beat. When he sings again, his melody is thoughtful and gentle.

    "Hard. Rocky, like name. Like...strong stone that is alive. My claws are sharp but careful. My body pulses a little when I am happy. Like singing Grace can feel instead of hear." He pauses, then adds with a soft, almost shy trill, "What does human skin feel like, question? To me, I wonder."

    He imagines it.

    In his mind, the xenonite shell vanishes.

    Or: Grace is touch starved and Rocky wants to make it better

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    02 Jul 2026

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    “Adrian will understand,” Rocky says confidently. “Will be excited to meet alien. Will be excited to meet person who brought me home.”

    “Yeah, and I'm excited to meet them too, but after that!” Is this a translation error? A cultural miscommunication? How is Rocky not getting it? “You're partners. They're not going to want some alien around while you're, like… going on dates and all that.”

    “Does not mean no time for Grace.” Rocky’s starting to sound frustrated. Part of me feels bad, but the rest is just as frustrated. “Why think this, question? On Earth, just abandon friends when have mate, question?”

    It's so clearly a rhetorical question, to which the answer is obviously supposed to be no, of course not. I freeze up anyway.

    or: rocky HATE amatonormativity

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