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    It’s strange. He went down hard, but nothing hurts. That might be very bad, if he can’t feel anything at all. But it’s not that. He can feel things, but they just don’t feel right. Maybe they already have him up on the stretcher, because he’s lying on something soft, not the cold ice he’d crumpled onto when he fell. He’s never felt a stretcher quite like this before, though.

    “Ilya!”

    There it is again. But now it’s louder. Almost unmistakably Shane.

    Blinking against sunlight, Ilya opens his eyes, and stares up at the brilliant blue sky.

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    After a bad hit during a game in 2016, Ilya wakes up at Shane Hollander's cottage in 2023. Finding out he has a dog, plays for Ottawa, and is married to Shane in quick succession, confronting the existence of time travel becomes the least of his worries.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander has wings. Ilya Rozanov loves him. There's no 'despite' about it.

     

    Wings as a metaphor for autism. Because. Fuck it.

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    The mortifying ordeal of letting the people who love you care.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    “I, uh, came to ask for a ride."

    Luca glanced sideways at Boodram, who was frozen with one arm in his jacket. It truly would have been hilarious, the way they all watched this scene unfold like a car crash, if it didn’t also feel like one.

    They shared a confused glance, turning back when Rozanov’s incredulous “A ride?” rang through the locker room.

    “Yeah, I, uh, figured I could use one since I just…quit the Metros,” Hollander said slowly, heaving an exhausted sigh afterwards.

    In which Shane Hollander overhears his teammates talking about him before a game and ends up in the Centaurs' locker room, asking Ilya Rozanov for a ride.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    “You are planning to rob me or what?” He hears Rozanov call, and he can’t help but smile slightly even as he rolls his eyes, closing the door to the linen closet and feeling strangely lighter than when he opened it, reassured that he’s just trying to read into a blank page, that today doesn’t mean anything more than Rozanov doesn’t mind him being around, which is strangely flattering.

    “I don’t know,” he calls back. “Don’t Russians like diamonds and fur and stuff? Where should I start looking if I want to know what my options are?”

    He hears Rozanov laugh, and it makes him smile.

    When he joins him in the living room once more, Rozanov tugs him down to lean against him again. Shane goes easier this time, settling into it, knowing it doesn’t mean anything other than the fact that he just happens to be the closest warm body, the person on Rozanov’s roster who filled today’s slot.

    (the tuna meltdown doesn't happen) (this does not mean they get ANY better at communication)

    (or: how shane didn't realize he had a boyfriend for several months)

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Shane never flinched on the ice. Not at chirps, even when the words other players used hit too close to home. Not at hits, even if his whole body had been flattened to the boards and protested against each movement onwards. Not at the lights overhead, nor the flash of cameras around him. Not at the cheers and boos of the crowd, nor the discordant scream of a whistle blowing. It didn’t fade to the background, didn’t quiet when he had the puck, but he got through it. He lived in it. He made it his home. But that was hockey. That bad was so interwoven with the good of it that Shane could hardly call it that anymore. This…this was a different kind of bad.

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    After his talk and breakup with Rose, Shane decided that he wanted to explore his sexuality with someone who wasn’t Ilya for a change. He went to a man’s apartment in Montreal and left feeling different. He wasn’t sure how, or why, or what to call it. All he knew was that it wasn’t good, and that he didn’t want to look at it. Fortunately or unfortunately for him, he had people in his life who wouldn’t let him disappear, no matter how hard he tried.

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    22 Jun 2026