TryingNotToLoveYou



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    Kaine was almost at the tenement door when she spoke again. “Ferron, was it a punishment for you - being made Undying?”

    He paused. When he turned back to her, his eyes held no emotion at all. Punishment. That was an interesting way to frame it, he supposed. Morrough liked to make his victims choose the manner of their punishment, to make them complicit in their own suffering, and so the illusion of choice was all Kaine had ever had.

    He realised, with a hollow and heavy clarity, that he couldn’t think of a single choice in his life that had been his alone. Every path he’d ever taken had been carved by someone else’s hand, someone else’s will, and he’d merely walked where he was pointed.

    And told himself it counted as choosing.

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    The Paladian Civil War, and its origins and aftermath, told through the eyes of Kaine Ferron.

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    03 Apr 2026

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    The first 13 chapters of ACOMAF told from Rhys's POV. Includes some brief details of his three months without her after he comes home from UtM and some improvised scenes, but most of it concerns his time with Feyre.

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    02 Nov 2025

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    Absolute perfection.

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    Surly teenager Ben meets cheery five year old Rey when they're both cancer patients in the hospital. An unlikely friendship is formed between the pair, despite the age difference, and Ben decides that he wants to be a doctor so that no one like Rey will ever suffer. Fifteen years later, Ben is the leading oncologist in the country and they meet again when Rey is diagnosed with cancer a second time.

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    24 Dec 2023

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    The First Order has fallen, the Emperor is dead (again), and Life Day is fast approaching. But while Rey’s closest friends are busy cooking delicious things to eat and decorating towering trees with strings of multicoloured lights, she feels like she’s losing her mind. The Force is calling her across the galaxy to a planet she didn’t know existed… to a man she watched die. Could it be the dyad that bonded Rey to Ben Solo has one last miracle to offer?

    “Christmas, my child, is love in action.” -Dale Evans Rogers.

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    24 Dec 2023

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    She is a Jedi.

    It is forbidden to let emotions consume her. Especially for one of the galaxy's most powerful and influential men.

    But as she stands rigid in his shadow, his most loyal protector, she fights the cruelest battle ever with none other than her own self. Because from this day forth he will belong to the woman standing next to him. The woman who will help seal peace in this galaxy.

    He had told her so.

    He had no choice.

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    10 Sep 2023

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    Outstanding angst!!