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    this is not enough (i am not enough) by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    08 Jan 2026

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    Shane's breath catches on a sob, and he muffles the sound with his hand. Everything feels like too much. He’s naked, and he can feel entirely too much on his body, inside his body, and he hates how it's starting to feel gross. His head is pounding, and he can't even focus on placating his mind when his lungs are also screaming in his throat for breath.

    Ilya hears, and his hands reach out to hold Shane, tension lying in every part of his body. “Shane—”

    “Don't touch me,” Shane snaps, more desperation than yelling as he rips his arm out of Ilyas's grasp. His tears have nowhere to go now, and they finally spill over, hot and humiliating, down his cheeks.

    Ilya freezes in place, hand hovering mid-air. A myriad of emotions flicker across his face: confusion, hurt, fear. Ilya takes an unconscious step back like someone shoved him. His body curls in on itself, trying to make himself appear smaller.

    He looks... terrified. Like, Shane just called him a monster, and he believes it.

    OR: inspired by the fight in the long game when ilya had told shane he could have sex with other men because he did not believe in cheating.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    tied up in the third (and sent to overtime) by

    Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    03 Apr 2026

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    "He thinks about it later though, back in his hotel room alone. The thought of being tied up, being tied up by Rozanov, and fucked until he can’t take it anymore. Maybe even past what he can’t take anymore. That’s…

    Well. Shane isn’t the risk-taking type, but what has everything to do with Rozanov for the past five years been except a very bad idea?"

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    shane: *asks to be tied up and fucked stupid*
    ilya: this is my fucking superbowl

    edit: now includes ilya's pov

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    26 May 2026

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    cardiac tamponade by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    29 Apr 2026

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    Cardiac tamponade: pressure on that heart that prevents it from filling and beating adequately.

    Shane thought he knew two things: his move to Ottawa would cause chaos, and that the Ottawa Centaurs were nice.

    As it turned out, he only knew one of those things.

    (Or: the Cens are still a team of professional hockey players. They're going to fuck up.)

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    26 May 2026

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    cortisol, oxytocin, vasopressin by

    Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    22 Apr 2026

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    Apparently, Shane’s no better than a skittering lab rat, except he doesn’t press a button when he’s hoping for scraps—he knocks on Rozanov’s door.

    Or: Rozanov is never going to love him back, so Shane decides to go to war with biochemistry. He buys a psychology book with a five-step guide to help him do it. If only he could actually stick to the plan.

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    10 May 2026

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    When I Walk Into The Room, I Do Not Light It Up. Fuck. by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    03 Apr 2026

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    He can’t tell Ilya though. He can’t tell Ilya that his team might not be right for Shane. That this perfect solution is making Shane a worse hockey player, a bad teammate.

    That maybe Shane Hollander of the Voyagers really was his full name. That Shane Hollander of the Centaurs might not exist.

    He can’t say that. He can’t ruin everything. He can’t dim the shine in Ilya’s eyes, the bounce in his step, the color in his cheeks he didn’t have the last few years.

    Ilya sacrificed hockey for their relationship for two years, played on a crappy team and watched Shane win. It’s Shane’s turn to sacrifice, to figure out how to make this work and let Ilya lead this time.

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    Transitions are hard for Shane. Joining his husband's team turns out not to be an exception to that rule.

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    03 May 2026