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    Ilya knows that no one loves the same version of a person; his Shane is different to Yuna’s Shane, who is different to David’s Shane, who is different to J.J., or Rose, or Hayden’s Shane. And while Ilya knows he’d fall in love with every single version, he’s happy he gets this one. Happy he gets the Shane who lets himself be trusting, and vulnerable, and honest.

    It makes Ilya wish he could have loved Shane earlier - makes him wish he could have known him longer. But he’s just glad he gets to do it now, here, like this.

     

    (Or, four times people are surprised by Shane’s clinginess, and one time they completely expect it.)

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    19 Jul 2026

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    “I'm not going to let you fuck me,” Paul says.

    Jesus fuck. Feyd rolls his eyes impatiently.

    “You want someone else to fuck you?” He asks, tearing at the stubborn hangnail. It rips suddenly, skin stinging, bright blood welling from the cut. Feyd licks at it, sucking on his skin.

    “I don’t want anyone to fuck me,” Paul says firmly, cheeks waxen. Freckles standing out starkly on his pale skin.

    Feyd wonders how old he actually is. Probably closer to his age than he initially thought. Twenty maybe. Feyd’s teeth pinch the broken skin in his mouth sharply.

    “That’s not how it works here,” he says, letting his bloody thumb drop. “Someone’s getting fucked.”

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    Prison AU

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    06 Jul 2026

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    "Sometimes, when Shane Hollander hears a sound, it gets stuck in his brain."

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    While at the cottage, Shane starts to relax in a way that embarrasses him. Ilya refuses to let Shane be ashamed.

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    27 May 2026

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    Ilya has always known Shane could do better than him. It shouldn’t come as a surprise that he’s finally found it.

    Found someone else.

    Because that’s what this is, isn’t it?

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    26 May 2026

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    "That is. Okay. Where do I start." Pushing off the counter — hands need to be free for this. "Number one. That is not how being secure in your sexuality works. Number two. That is the opposite of how it works. Number three. Most straight men who are secure in their sexuality do not, as a method of confirming this, seek out gay sex. That is— Eddie, that is gay. The thing you are describing is gay. The act of doing it is gay. There is no version of this where you end up more straight at the other end."

    Eddie scoffs. "You don't know that."

    "I do know that."

    "You don't."

    "Eddie, I am bi. I have personally conducted this experiment. The results are in."

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    Eddie asks Buck to fuck him to prove he's straight. Things go about as well as you'd think.

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    25 May 2026