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    He looked down at the dirty floor; he needed to clean up. To get rid of the evidence that this had ever happened. Not that anyone was ever coming over anymore, it had been just him for months. He couldn’t bear the idea of someone being in his house, not after… Not after he was the last person here. And he ran away. And that settled something in Ilya about his worth that so deeply told him that that was the end of everything. Of them. Of himself. That he wasn’t worth anything. He was nothing.

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    Ilya knew he was depressed, he feared he took after his mother that way. No one else knew Ilya was depressed, and maybe that was part of the problem. Facing the aftermath and the guilt from failing to kill himself seemed to be a whole other issue. Especially when it came to Jane and Jane finding out what he did.

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    LaPointe
    omg i kinda forgot that part
    i didn’t even know luca was gay

    Young
    ???

    Holmberg
    luca haas? our rookie?
    the same one who had a poster of cap on his wall until last year?
    u didnt realize he was gay?

    Or, Ilya is caught having an affair on Shane with Luca.

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    Scent patches were mandatory for anyone participating in World Junior's, but a lot of the Russian guys Shane saw in the hotel or around the rink had them loosely attached to their necks or not quite centered over their scent gland. Shane had been on his way to his parents' car when the wind shifted, and he smelled that Rozanov, leaning against the wall and not-at-all-surreptitiously fishing a carton of cigarettes out of his pocket, must have been one of them.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    Lily: need a bedtime story?

    Jane: Fuck you.

    Jane: Yes.

    Lily: why don’t you ask your girlfriend this time?

    Shane’s typing bubble pops in and out again, the way he does when he’s overthinking a message. That alone is enough confirmation for Ilya to get half-hard.

    Jane: Maybe I will.

    Lily: say hi for me

    Rose is Hollywood’s favourite doll. Shane likes to organize his toys by shape and colour. And Ilya’s never been good at sharing.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    “What -“ Ilya started, his voice shaky and wet with blood. The movement made Shane’s hand slip, another gush of blood spurting across his fingertips.

    “Shut up,” Shane bit in return, fraught. “Shut the fuck up.”

    Or: At the Montreal - Boston game in April 2017, it is Ilya who is injured instead of Shane.

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