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    that's the kind of love i've been dreaming of by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    29 Apr 2026

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    For years, Shane has carried a hollow space inside him, a quiet ache that no amount of distractions could soothe. He’s been starving for a specific kind of gravity, the kind that only Ilya provides. When the undercurrent finally pulls them under, Shane stops fighting and realizes that being held is the only thing that makes the world stop shaking.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    Promises never made by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    24 Jan 2026

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    If this is what Hollander is willing to give him, he will take it. It won’t be enough, not by a long shot, but if this is the little part of him he is allowed to have, by God he will take it.

    OR, Shane messages Ilya a few days after the tuna melt scene. Ilya is trying to not scare him away again. He will restrain himself. He will take what Shane gives him and never ask for more. Just please, he can’t see him walk out of his life again.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    being with you, has opened my eyes by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    05 Jan 2026

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    “Why are you out here alone?” Ilya asks. “Who left you here?”

    Hesitantly, Shane’s eyes cast up at the apartment building. Ilya follows his gaze, confused.

    “I’m sorry,” Shane says softly, “I went home with someone.”

    Ilya’s head snaps in his direction. “What?”

     

    -an episode 4 au where shane goes home with the bartender instead of rose, and it goes very, very poorly-

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    16 Mar 2026

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    i clutched your arms (like stairway railings). by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    11 Dec 2025

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    He was alone because Ilya had left because Ilya always had to leave. [...] He felt horrible. Ilya had left. Maybe Shane hadn’t been good enough? No, he would’ve left anyway. He always left.

    But maybe he would’ve stayed a little longer if Shane had been better? Maybe if he’d been better, used more of those tricks he’d been trying to learn, he wouldn’t have left so soon. Maybe he would’ve wanted to stay like Shane wanted him to stay. Would’ve wanted to hold him like Shane wanted to ask him to do. Maybe Shane wouldn’t be trapped in this cavernous space between worlds, feeling like he was free-falling, searching for the path out of this emptiness.

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    Shane experiences sub-drop for the first time. Ilya holds him through it.

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    15 Mar 2026

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    Sleep, My Joy, Sleep by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    13 Dec 2025

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    It was two rings and then his thick accent and smooth voice washed over Shane like a slow molasses. “Hollander,” Rozanov sighed. “It is late. I thought you had date, no?”

    “I fucked up,” Shane whispered biting back a sob.

    Shane drops after he sleeps with someone that's not Ilya, so naturally he calls Ilya to take care of him.

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    07 Mar 2026