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The word "Father" rotted in my mouth by Lawenda11
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
12 Jul 2026
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My father is not a good man.
Or maybe i am just a better oneI tell myself that's enough.
I hope.But every time rage settles
beneath my skin,
I hear his voice in mine,
see his hands in my own.I hate the man he is.
I hate the parts of me
that learned from watching him.Because I am his child,
and blood remembers
what the mind tries to forget.Some days I fear
I am becoming him.Other days I remember
that resemblance is not destiny.And perhaps the only way
to love what is left of myself
is to become
the one who finally
breaks the inheritance.I hope that's enough.
But the word "Father"
rotted in my mouth
long before I learned
how to say it without choking.Bookmarked by chaoticas_hell
16 Jul 2026
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5 times Neil steals Andrew’s clothes, +1 time Andrew gives him something to keep.
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24 Jun 2026
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13 Jun 2026
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Nicky and Erik had a serious accident. Andrew can't tear himself away from Nicky's side and when a nurse advises him to talk to Nicky, he tries it and tells Nicky how he perceived his life with him.
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25 May 2026
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Nicky Hemmick walks into a bar (and into a bad date)
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24 May 2026
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'“Call an ambulance,” and Nicky opens his eyes to see Abby leaning over him where he’s slumped. Her voice is clear and steady—she’s probably seen worse—but her fingers are covered in blood and shaking as she quickly pushes her hair out of her face before pressing down over his stomach once more. “Nicky, are you with us?”
'He wants to nod, but can’t find the force to do anything but let his gaze track over to Aaron and Andrew, where they have both had to retreat to let Abby through. He seems to be seeing double, which probably isn’t a good sign. Either that or they are both wearing the same indecipherable look on their face and the same blood on their hands. It’s nauseating, and Nicky looks away.'
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Nicky Hemmick does not have bad days anymore. Not since Germany. Besides, when Andrew's holding the knives, he's not really hurting himself, is he?
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23 May 2026
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All of Me is Tired, So You Can Rest by marblearched
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
12 Oct 2023
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Nicky would do anything for the twins.
When money problems threaten his ability to maintain the home he had managed to create for them, Roland offers Nicky shifts after-hours at Eden's.Nicky sacrifices himself a little more, and soon a person from his past creeps back into his life to push him closer to his limit.
He worked so hard to keep this part of their lives his personal secret, but the desperation of the past never leaves quietly.
_________________________________Nicky turns to sex work to support Andrew and Aaron, and must deal with the toll it takes.
(inspired by "Making Ends Meet" by onedayanauthor and "All we need is somebody to lean on" by AgapantoBlu)
chapter one: pre-canon
chapter two-three: post-canonBookmarked by chaoticas_hell
20 May 2026
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i got nothing on my mind but love by kowarubunga
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
21 May 2025
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“Okay, well, I have a question too, then.” Neil sets his bowl on the bedside table. He doesn’t turn to look at Andrew again but he does grab one of his hands so he can play with Andrew’s fingers. “What was up with earlier? When we woke up? I didn’t realize you were that into my boobs.”
He feels Andrew shrug. “I like them. Is that a crime, gangster boy?”
“No, I just—I don’t know. You’ve never paid that much attention to my chest before. I was curious if there was a reason why.”
Andrew pulls his hand out of Neil’s grip to slide it up his shirt, skimming quickly past his bare bottom half to cup his tit again. His hand fits so nicely around it, almost the perfect size match.
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or: a peak into a summer break road trip
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11 May 2026
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“You did a very good job with him last time.”
“Oh, that’s cruel. Even for you, Bee,” Andrew says, he grips at his chest where his heart would probably be if he had one. It gives a strong pump to her words, as if to say I’m here. “The things those words could do to a mean man's heart.”
Despite his fight, Andrew rolls out of bed. His sock covered feet hit the ground and he wishes he could say ‘no’. To tell Betsy to fuck right off, because this is ridiculous and he’s not being paid for any of this. For the fact that the last and only time he’d seen Neil Josten he’d left with a cloudy head and a pent up body. Ten weeks ago.
Coincidentally, the same number as the letters in Neil’s first and last name. And most likely the number of hours Andrew has slept since that day. And the amount of times he’s jerked off thinking about blue eyes and tan skin-
He slaps his hand against the side of his head. “This is the last time I do anything nice for anyone.”
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- Part 2 of Jawbreaker
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10 May 2026
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@andreilshipper
They’re definitely together and you can’t convince me otherwise. I’ve seen Neil driving Andrew’s car, and it’s like… a SUPER expensive Maserati.
@aaronminyard
I’m Andrew’s brother and he despises Neil with a burning passion
@andrewminyard
I’m Andrew Minyard and I approve this message---
or, Exy fans speculate on whether Andrew and Neil are in love, or if they're just like that
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08 May 2026
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Neil's been on his feet for the last thirty-six hours. His leg is aching, his interns are all idiots, his charge nurse thinks he should've gone home hours ago, but Neil can't bring himself to leave the knowing chaos of the ER.
He tells himself he'll see one more patient. One more, then he'll clock out.
Except, Neil's last patient of the day turns out to be a professional exy player, who's just punched another doctor, might be hiding some knives, and seems determined to notice everything Neil is trying to hide.
And, well - maybe Neil doesn't want to hide from one Andrew Minyard.
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Neil is an emergency physician and Andrew is a pro exy player who keeps finding himself in Neil's ER. Oblivious flirting ensues.
Kevin's there too. Just...being Kevin.
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07 May 2026
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Nicky gets sick. To his surprise, the twins are there to take care of him.
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05 May 2026
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"Neil, if you don't mind, I did want to ask you something. It's about my wedding."
Neil straightened up from where he was sitting on the couch, looking hesitant.
"Look, if Erik really did do something, I can get some people to take care of it. We can make it look like a suicide but I don't know how quickly Stuart's men can-"
"Neil, oh my god, stop."
or: Nicky's getting married. He needs a best man, and he'll be damned if Neil isn't perfect for the job. The twins don't care, not at all.
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23 Apr 2026
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God Has Abandoned Me and Also This Living Room by hope_is_a_quiet_and_desperate_thing
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
10 Apr 2026
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Aaron Minyard picks up the wrong phone and learns something he absolutely did not need to know.
Unfortunately, it leads to a conversation that might actually count as progress.Series
- Part 3 of One-shots: Twinyards Bonding
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22 Apr 2026
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He just wanted a mocha with too much sugar. Instead, he found a dark bookstore run by a man who doesn't know how light switches work and a dog that looks like it eats intruders for breakfast.
Neil is a walking disaster who doesn't realize he’s being watched. Andrew is a man who watches everything and feels nothing—until now. The Foxes are still broken, the "reunions" are still a nightmare, and Andrew is pretty sure the book he just bought is poorly edited.
But he’s going back tomorrow. Not for the book. For the "bat."
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A universe where Neil never joined the foxes and now we follow a depressive (not new..) post graduation and pro Exy goaly Andrew as he discovers a newly oppened bookstore owned by a traumatized Neil Josten who this time very much lost his vision in Baltimore ;bBookmarked by chaoticas_hell
24 Mar 2026
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there’s not an ounce of me that isn’t caught up in you by kowarubunga for favbitchcharlie
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
19 Feb 2026
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He glances up as if he can feel someone looking at him and Andrew is assaulted by a pair of unnaturally blue eyes. They seem cold and distant, a silent challenge for Andrew to do—something, but Andrew doesn’t know what.
All he can think is that the boy is dangerously pretty. The idea of asking him to go into the alleyway between Eden’s and the bar next door for a quickie flits through his mind before the boy scoffs and rolls his eyes.
“Can I help you?”
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or: andrew meets a pretty boy outside a bar and can't get him off his mind. he absolutely does NOT fall in love
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22 Feb 2026
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your fingers on my ribs (and your thumbs on my back) by sakutsu for badassbutterfly1987
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
16 Feb 2026
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Neil feels more than hears Andrew's swallow, the pressure of his chin shifting on Neil's shoulder. He makes a pathetic attempt at an outstretched hand toward the one on his shoulder, and Andrew moves to meet it at the crook of his arm. Their calloused hands kiss as their fingers interlock and he watches as Andrew glance over his body through the mirror. It's easier this time when he takes his right hand and grabs at the one on his waist, stiffly raising it to the innermost center of his chest and hesitating.
“Yes or no?” Neil asks for the both of them, voice breathy.
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18 Feb 2026
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Outlaw For Your Love by Fortheloveofexy for kowarubunga
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
09 Feb 2026
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Art submission for 2026 AFTG Mixtape.
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09 Feb 2026
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Ian @I4N4444
Kevin day is on my mind today. Not a fan of exy, but i watched the game today with my sister who’s a player, so i know some of the game’s basics. But jesus. How does he fucking do that
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cosmic revelations from god himself probablyOr, Kevin Day's off to a great start for his professional career. Neil Josten may or may not be a fan.
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06 Feb 2026
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Andrew rolls his eyes, hand falling over Neil’s mouth, “My sexuality has very minimal conditions,” He stares at him impassively, bored, “Are you a man?” Neil, with Andrew’s hand still over his mouth, nods, “Look at that, conditions met.” Neil starts talking, muffled from beneath the barrier of a hand but Andrew presses harder in retaliation, “Blahblahblah,” he mocks and Neil gives him a look, his shoulders slouched in exasperation, “You know nothing and I want nothing.” And when he removes his hand, he adds, “Yes or no?” and kisses Neil’s breath away at the confirmation.
Where Andrew blows Neil for the first time.
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04 Feb 2026