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  1. Public Bookmark 3

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    My father is not a good man.
    Or maybe i am just a better one

    I tell myself that's enough.
    I hope.

    But every time rage settles
    beneath my skin,
    I hear his voice in mine,
    see his hands in my own.

    I hate the man he is.
    I hate the parts of me
    that learned from watching him.

    Because I am his child,
    and blood remembers
    what the mind tries to forget.

    Some days I fear
    I am becoming him.

    Other days I remember
    that resemblance is not destiny.

    And perhaps the only way
    to love what is left of myself
    is to become
    the one who finally
    breaks the inheritance.

    I hope that's enough.

    But the word "Father"
    rotted in my mouth
    long before I learned
    how to say it without choking.

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    16 Jul 2026

  2. Public Bookmark *

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    5 times Neil steals Andrew’s clothes, +1 time Andrew gives him something to keep.

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    24 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 17

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    Nicky and Erik had a serious accident. Andrew can't tear himself away from Nicky's side and when a nurse advises him to talk to Nicky, he tries it and tells Nicky how he perceived his life with him.

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    25 May 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 3

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    Nicky Hemmick walks into a bar (and into a bad date)

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    24 May 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 87

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    '“Call an ambulance,” and Nicky opens his eyes to see Abby leaning over him where he’s slumped. Her voice is clear and steady—she’s probably seen worse—but her fingers are covered in blood and shaking as she quickly pushes her hair out of her face before pressing down over his stomach once more. “Nicky, are you with us?”

    'He wants to nod, but can’t find the force to do anything but let his gaze track over to Aaron and Andrew, where they have both had to retreat to let Abby through. He seems to be seeing double, which probably isn’t a good sign. Either that or they are both wearing the same indecipherable look on their face and the same blood on their hands. It’s nauseating, and Nicky looks away.'

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    Nicky Hemmick does not have bad days anymore. Not since Germany. Besides, when Andrew's holding the knives, he's not really hurting himself, is he?

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    23 May 2026