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He swiped to answer. “Hey, Maddie,” he said, keeping his voice low. “Is everything alright?”
“Have you spoken to Buck today?” she asked, skipping right past any pleasantries.
“We aren’t exactly on speaking terms right now,” Eddie admitted, his gut twisting at the reminder. “I haven’t seen him except at work.”
“Damnit,” she swore. “So, nothing since Tuesday?”
“No, nothing.” A pause. Then, hesitant: “Maddie… is something wrong? Is Buck…” He exhaled sharply. “Is everything okay?”
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27 Jul 2026
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“So, what if he kisses me and I have bad breath! There’s no coming back from bad breath on a first date, Eddie!”
Eddie rolls his eyes, clearly not grasping the gravity of the situation.
“Can you check?” Buck asks, a little desperately.
“Check… your breath?” Eddie sounds amused. He’s definitely not grasping the gravity of the situation.
Buck nods. Eddie rolls his eyes again but beckons Buck to lean in. Buck does, slowly, Eddie’s warm brown eyes on his as he does. At a respectable but effective distance, he pauses.
“Do your worst, dragon breath,” Eddie says softly.
or, buck asks eddie to check if he’s got bad breath before a date. eddie checks. thoroughly.
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25 Jul 2026
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But he had to keep going, couldn’t just stop existing because he had a broken heart. Because the guy he was in love with ignored him like the plague. Gotta fake it til you make it, or something like that, no matter how miserable he is.
So he hid it, didn’t let anyone know how truely miserable he was. He handled his shit, because Buck was tough. He was always a tough kid, always pushing his sorrow and pain away, hid his hurt because he didn’t want to be a burden. Pushed it down and away until it was almost non existent. Because he thought he deserved it anyway.
He needed to pretend. So he smiled and worked and did what he could, and did it well, hit all his marks, grinning the whole time as if he was happy, as if he was winning, but it didn’t stop the gaping hollowness of nothing that appeared in his chest and swallowed him whole.
[part one of taylor swift songs series]
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- Part 1 of taylor swift is my muse
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24 Jul 2026
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Whatever retort Eddie thought he was expecting, this was not it. Empty eyes and a mirthless laugh; a tight-lipped smile that might as well have been a grimace, a slow nod before Buck dragged his gaze back up to flit across the team’s faces and land, finally, on Eddie’s.
He almost missed it – a flash of something cold across dull blue eyes, there and gone in the same moment: resignation, or catharsis, or apathy – something cruelly familiar and dangerously absolute.
“I should have died under that truck. At least then, you would still have been my family.”
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23 Jul 2026
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I want to build a house with you, tell me it's a whole life too by Lacerta26
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
16 Jul 2026
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Buck didn't think he'd end up back at Eddie's after everything. All the things that drove him here haven't changed and neither have the things that made him leave again. Thirty four years old and able to drop everything in his life because he had no dependents, no responsibilities, no ties. Chris was gone and Eddie was following him and Buck was only at South Bedford because he was being left behind.
Buck has reckoned with his feelings by now, this past year after Bobby, after everything that went on in the desert, the lengths Eddie went to, bringing things into sharper focus. He's in love with Eddie, has been in love with Eddie for so long it just became part of the fabric of the universe, the baseline from which Buck operates. He's made his peace with it too, aware that Eddie doesn't feel the same.
He'd do anything for Eddie and Chris but he felt more like a guest than he ever had when they came back to LA, sleeping on their couch, waiting to be asked to leave. Better to go than be pushed, he figured, and yet the path always seems to lead back to here.
So, South Bedford it is, only there are four of them now, not three because Buck is responsible for more than himself these days.
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21 Jul 2026
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“Aw,” Harry says, smiling. “That’s adorable. Is it like—is it a thing? Do all of you keep pictures in your helmets?”
A murmur of general consensus ripples through their group. Harry, apparently delighted by this new knowledge, demands to see everyone’s secret photos.
“They’re kind of private,” Eddie says, crouched down to unlace his boots. He has a smudge of soot over his left cheek, and his hair has come loose from the gel, a lock of it curling over his brow. Buck likes him like this, just a little dishevelled.
or, firefighters sometimes keep photographs of the people they love inside their helmets, to remember who they’re fighting to come home to. eddie’s isn’t what buck expects.
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01 Jul 2026
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See, Eddie wasn’t some kind of traditionalist. He didn't care about old-fashioned gender roles. He didn't think omegas belonged stuck in a kitchen, and he didn't think alphas had to be the absolute bosses of everything. But he did believe in instincts. He believed in the natural order of things and what a body was meant to do.
And looking at Buck, Eddie drew his own quiet conclusions: Buck was living in the wrong shell. He was miserable trying to force himself into the alpha mould, running himself ragged trying to live up to a biology that didn't fit his soul.
Buck would be so much happier, so much better off, if he could just be an omega.
In which, Eddie helped Buck become the omega he was meant to be.
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- Part 5 of Sunny's Alpha!Eddie/Omega!Buck Week 2026
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26 Jun 2026
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"What the hell are you doing, Buck?! You could have been killed!" Eddie roared, his voice cracking with the sheer terror of almost losing him. He gripped Buck's shoulders, shaking him slightly to force him to look at him. "Look at me! What is wrong with you?!"
But the anger died instantly in Eddie’s throat.
Buck wasn't fighting back or apologising. Instead, his head rolled back slightly, his blue eyes glassy, unfocused, and swimming with a terrifying vacancy. His lips were trembling, and as Eddie watched, a low, broken whimper escaped Buck's throat—a soft sound of absolute distress that an Omega should never make in the middle of a chaotic environment.
Buck let Tommy be his heat partner. Something went really, really wrong.
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- Part 3 of Sunny's Alpha!Eddie/Omega!Buck Week 2026
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26 Jun 2026
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Eddie can feel the goosebumps puckering across Buck’s skin. He’s torn between chasing that feeling, letting the goosebumps spread all over Buck's pale body—or rubbing his fingers over each individual hump and smoothing them out completely.
Eddie gives Buck a massage to help with the pain in his leg after he’s injured on a call. Things…escalate and they get their happy ending after all.
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16 Jun 2026
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About a week after starting back at the 118, and about three weeks before he was supposed to start getting a steady check again, Buck quietly moved out of his loft—
—and into his jeep.
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15 Jun 2026
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“I ever tell you I used to be a stripper?”
No, Eddie thought, some hysterical kind of indignation slipping into his mind. No, Buck hadn't told him. And why not? Was he planning to use those skills with the guy who looked like the walking personification of a weed pen? Was he just planning to…
Eddie got lost in his quickly forming images of Buck.
As a stripper.
Stripper Buck.
Buck stripping.
Buck naked.
Straight guys sometimes pictured their friends naked. So normal. Just human nature.
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Eddie works out what his joy looks like enough to start making moves on Buck, but does not get far enough to figure out what that means for him. He is also haunted by Chappell Roan.
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15 Jun 2026
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Eddie finds himself staring at the line of his nose, the curve of his eyelashes, the bright pink birthmark above his eye, the way his hair looks so soft and tempting, curling on top of his forehead and just begging Eddie to run his fingers through them. The plumpness of his lips, wondering how they feel against Eddie's —
Wait. No.
“Am I gay?” Eddie breaths out before he can stop the words from escaping his lips. The drugs that the nurse gave him for the pain loosened his tongue and now he has Buck's head shooting up so fast Eddie's afraid he'll get whiplash.
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Eddie is pretty sure the only person he's ever been genuinely attracted to, is Shannon. So, he is very confused when he wakes up in a hospital bed with temporary amnesia and the inability to look away from the pretty, hot guy in a firefighter uniform.
And then, procedes to have the second gay panic of his life... because of the same person.
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12 Jun 2026
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“Are you doing alright?” Eddie asks him with a slight frown and Buck swallows, going back to tying his shoes so he doesn’t have to look at Eddie.
“Of course,” he says simply. “Why wouldn’t I be?”
“I don’t know,” Eddie replies and Buck can feel his eyes on him. “You’ve been quiet lately.”
Buck freezes in his movements for a fraction of a second. He thought that apart from the whole dinner at Bobby’s fiasco he’s been doing a pretty good job at acting like his normal self in front of everyone.
And how has Eddie of all people noticed that something is up with him? It’s not like he pays him any attention anymore.
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11 Jun 2026
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I'm falling apart (and all I want is to trust you) by rylandbuckleys
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
14 May 2021
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“Buck—” Eddie breathed as he hurried over, “Hey, Buck—”
Buck lifted his eyes, they widened when he met Eddie’s gaze, “Eddie, I—” He tried to move, but was easily pulled back, “I’m sorry.”
Eddie rushed to reassure, “It’s okay, look…” He got onto one knee, sitting Christopher down, he looped his arms under his son’s, and turned him, so that he was facing Buck, “Look who it is.”
Christopher extended his hand, gently laying it across Buck’s cheek, “Buck.”
OR Eddie and Christopher's reactions to Buck collapsing in 3x03: The Searchers.
Christopher Diaz Week, Day 5: Eddie & Chris + “You’re the most important person.”
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10 Jun 2026
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"He can feel Eddie breathing against his back. Those slow, even breaths are some of Buck’s favorite sounds in the world. They’re familiar now, comfortable in a way that makes something deep in his chest unclench and settle."
Or, a soft moment between Buck and Eddie in their brand new relationship gets interrupted...
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08 Jun 2026
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“C'mere," Buck says, sitting up to scoot closer to Eddie.
"What are you doing?” Eddie asks, and Buck sighs.
"You can just kiss me, get a taste of the lip balm, and tell me what flavour you think it is.”
Eddie can’t believe his ears.
"That is such a stupid way to win a bet, Buck."
“Oh so you concede?"
Eddie rolls his eyes, shaking his head before planting both hands on the sides of Buck's face and hauling him in to press their lips together.
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Buck and Eddie make a bet on whether or not Eddie can guess all of Buck's lip balm flavours, and in order for Eddie to get a taste, they have to kiss.
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17 May 2026
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Derek is hyperaware of every place he and Stiles are touching. Their fingers interlaced, the softness of Stiles’ skin, the coolness of it against Derek’s warmth.
He worries that if he moves his hand in the slightest, twitches his fingers accidentally, Stiles will move away, or judge him or make fun of him or see that Derek’s not really an alpha at his core, that he stole the role without earning it, that he’s really just a scared puppy underneath that cannot handle a simple touch, of all things.
Or, five times Derek struggles with touch, and one time he gives it freely.
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24 Apr 2026
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“WHAT THE FUCK!?” the woman is shouting, shooting up onto her feet and grabbing her head.
Even the man being eaten by the bed jerks back in alarm when wetness splatters on his face, causing him to shiver.
“Buck!” Ravi shouts.
“DID HE JUST PISS EVERYWHERE!?” the woman screams. “WHY THE HELL DID HE JUST PISS EVERYWHERE!?”
DAY THREE: Cryptic Pregnancy
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- Part 3 of dove’s #KnockBuckUp2026
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22 Apr 2026
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Missing Chris is less of an emotion these days and more of a physical entity. He’s sure everyone can see that he’s slowly hollowing himself out, that he can’t do much of anything else.
But when Jee laughs at him trying to get his tongue to touch his nose, and Mara loops one of her arms through his to keep him from tossing the rest of his cup in the garbage, Eddie feels solid again.
Maybe he likes yellow birthday cake ice cream after all.
(or, gerrard messes with the team's schedules and eddie 'i just drove my son to flee the state' diaz is the only option to watch mara and jee-yun after school on tuesdays, which, shouldn't be a problem at all, right?)
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14 Apr 2026
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Buck’s breath sharpens. His chest heaves. His eyesight blurs. His hands clench at the injuries and his body twists and turns, unravelling on the floor and kicking out. His mind can’t focus anymore. He can’t hear Eddie; he can’t hear himself. Everything is a loud buzz and his vision is spinning so rapidly he feels as if he’s become the robot instead.
But there is something within that draws his attention and settles him. A low thud and a churning stomach; not a hunger pain or a wound, no. This is something new. Something different.
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Where Buck is trapped in a room with a murderous robot and discovers he is pregnant.
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13 Apr 2026