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love in exile has nowhere to go by justhockey
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Mar 2026
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“We’ve made a trade,” Coach announces. “For Shane Hollander.”
It’s like the ground drops out from beneath Ilya, and his heart falls from his chest. It tumbles past rock bottom, down to the cavern that shattered open inside of him on that night five years ago. The night when Ilya walked away from Hollander for the last time.
He can’t breathe.
(Or: Shane doesn’t get hurt, they break up, and they don’t talk for five long years. Until Shane is traded to Ottawa.)
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19 Mar 2026
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I feel it all by sparkle_platypus
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Jun 2026
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Shane steals a look at him, then brings his eyes back to the road. Does it again.
And then again.
"So," Shane finally says. There’s the hint of a playful smile on the corner of his lips. “Boyfriend…”
The word hangs between them, softly and within reach. Ilya tamps down a clipped reply of: is not a big deal, Hollander.
Because maybe it is.
OR The Cottage: Extended Edition. In which Shane and Ilya have some more feelings, a few more breakthroughs, and lots more sex.
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18 Mar 2026
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To say that Shane isn't a little bit afraid of having to share his house with another boy is an understatement. Shane is very afraid.
The Hollanders open up their home to host a foreign exchange student in Shane's eighth year of school, unaware of the fact that they've just given their son his first best friend, Ilya Rozanov.
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16 Mar 2026
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Hayden just wanted to surprise Shane with a guy’s night in. Shane had been flat lately, and he and JJ thought it would be nice to distract him with friendship.
How they ended up stuck in a fucking closet watching Shane get dicked down harder than anyone in the history of the world has ever been dicked down, Hayden would never quite understand.- Language:
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15 Mar 2026
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safe space (only you) by goldenlanternss
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
03 Mar 2026
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Shane turns off the light and curls up on his side, leaning against a pillow. He turns his phone brightness down so it won’t sting his eyes, his face barely illuminated for Ilya to see in the darkness.
Ilya doesn’t cut off his own lights, just hums appreciatively into the phone, “Is nice, I see your freckles this way.”
“You won’t have time to see them on Thursday because I’ll be skating too fast for you to catch up.”
Ilya smiles, “So mean to me, I tell you you are beautiful and you tell me to die.”
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(the first six months of being boyfriends)
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15 Mar 2026