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19 Mar 2026
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love in exile has nowhere to go by justhockey
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Mar 2026
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“We’ve made a trade,” Coach announces. “For Shane Hollander.”
It’s like the ground drops out from beneath Ilya, and his heart falls from his chest. It tumbles past rock bottom, down to the cavern that shattered open inside of him on that night five years ago. The night when Ilya walked away from Hollander for the last time.
He can’t breathe.
(Or: Shane doesn’t get hurt, they break up, and they don’t talk for five long years. Until Shane is traded to Ottawa.)
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- English
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- 1/1
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19 Mar 2026
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I feel it all by sparkle_platypus
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Jun 2026
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Shane steals a look at him, then brings his eyes back to the road. Does it again.
And then again.
"So," Shane finally says. There’s the hint of a playful smile on the corner of his lips. “Boyfriend…”
The word hangs between them, softly and within reach. Ilya tamps down a clipped reply of: is not a big deal, Hollander.
Because maybe it is.
OR The Cottage: Extended Edition. In which Shane and Ilya have some more feelings, a few more breakthroughs, and lots more sex.
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- English
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- 34,297
- Chapters:
- 2/2
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Bookmarked by existentialandsostrange
18 Mar 2026
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To say that Shane isn't a little bit afraid of having to share his house with another boy is an understatement. Shane is very afraid.
The Hollanders open up their home to host a foreign exchange student in Shane's eighth year of school, unaware of the fact that they've just given their son his first best friend, Ilya Rozanov.
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16 Mar 2026
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Hayden just wanted to surprise Shane with a guy’s night in. Shane had been flat lately, and he and JJ thought it would be nice to distract him with friendship.
How they ended up stuck in a fucking closet watching Shane get dicked down harder than anyone in the history of the world has ever been dicked down, Hayden would never quite understand.- Language:
- English
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- 13,250
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- 1/1
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- 1,418
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Bookmarked by existentialandsostrange
15 Mar 2026
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safe space (only you) by goldenlanternss
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
03 Mar 2026
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Shane turns off the light and curls up on his side, leaning against a pillow. He turns his phone brightness down so it won’t sting his eyes, his face barely illuminated for Ilya to see in the darkness.
Ilya doesn’t cut off his own lights, just hums appreciatively into the phone, “Is nice, I see your freckles this way.”
“You won’t have time to see them on Thursday because I’ll be skating too fast for you to catch up.”
Ilya smiles, “So mean to me, I tell you you are beautiful and you tell me to die.”
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(the first six months of being boyfriends)
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- Part 2 of safe place
Bookmarked by existentialandsostrange
15 Mar 2026
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Skills clinic by thetimesinbetween
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Apr 2026
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Luca hadn’t been sure he would go through with the plan. He’d talked himself into it and out of it about fifty times.
But he's made it this far. He's sitting with Shane Hollander, just the two of them. Now all he needs to do it open his mouth and—
“Look,” Shane is saying, “if you wanted to talk through coming out, I th—”
“I can’t figure out anal sex,” Luca blurts.
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Bookmarked by existentialandsostrange
13 Mar 2026
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Cheetah Shane by PeachyRenjun
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
09 Mar 2026
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Bookmarked by existentialandsostrange
11 Mar 2026
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Shane is a serial killer, which should probably scare Ilya off.
It doesn't.
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Bookmarked by existentialandsostrange
10 Mar 2026
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ilya rozanov, top-dog by anyabarnes
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
28 Jun 2026
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Mr. Hollander & Puppy Ilya
A series of related works detailing the relationship between older, veteran Mr. Hollander and his younger, rookie puppy. Recommended reading order is chronological.limelight, 8.5k words
Ilya Rozanov is the best damn rookie the NHL has ever seen. Shane Hollander, captain of the Metros and three-time Stanley Cup winner with over 700 career goals (not that Ilya is counting, thank you very much), just wants to help him celebrate.
hat-trick, 17.1k words
Ilya just wants to prove to Mr. Hollander that he can be a good boy. Mr. Hollander is happy to indulge him.
pillowtalk, 21.5k words
It’s not really Ilya’s fault that he needs Mr. Hollander. Besides, Mr. Hollander is happy to teach his puppy some new tricks.
partition, 19.3k words
Galas generally disinterest Ilya. Every rule, however, has its exception; after all, how could he turn down an invitation to an event he knows Mr. Hollander will be at?
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Bookmarked by existentialandsostrange
09 Mar 2026
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Happy Together by buckdogbuckley
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
04 Jan 2026
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Shane gets in the car and slams the door shut.
“What was that?” his dad asks, voice slightly worried.
“Nothing,” Shane says unconvincingly, looking down at his hands, tearing at the skin around his fingernails.
“Didn’t look like nothing, bud. It’s unlike you not to say bye to your friend like that. Or slam the door.”
“Ilya Rozanov is not my friend, Dad.”
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Shane Hollander thinks he's ready for 8th grade. For the most part, he is.
Enter: Ilya Rozanov.
Shane is not ready for the way his life is about to change.- Language:
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Bookmarked by existentialandsostrange
07 Mar 2026
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05 Mar 2026
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Bookmarked by existentialandsostrange
02 Mar 2026
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Samira and Jack know that any romance between them would be an HR nightmare.
So they try to give each other ‘the ick’.
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25 Feb 2026
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Trans Shane AU by paytonrambles
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
10 Feb 2026
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Bookmarked by existentialandsostrange
24 Feb 2026
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Weed man Ilya thinks Shane is too adorable to pay for weed.
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- Part 4 of HR Porn (with a little plot)
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- English
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- 30,019
- Chapters:
- 3/5
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- 739
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Bookmarked by existentialandsostrange
19 Feb 2026
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Ghost Irina AU by WhimperSoldier
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
26 May 2026
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Bookmarked by existentialandsostrange
19 Feb 2026
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Facebook AU by smugrobotics
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
14 Feb 2026
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- Works:
- 2
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- 904
Bookmarked by existentialandsostrange
16 Feb 2026
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The Long Way Home by kooksie
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Jan 2026
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Shane can’t stand his college roommate and teammate, Ilya Rozanov. Can’t stand his arrogance and his messiness and his constant sleeping around.
But then the entire team, Shane included, welcomes their families to campus for Parents Weekend.
And Shane also can’t stand that Ilya is alone.
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Bookmarked by existentialandsostrange
14 Feb 2026
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It starts, as many things do, slowly. He quietly stops seeing Galina. He lies about taking his medication. The medication hasn’t been helping anyway. Then it’s Shane noticing he isn’t doing well, and begging Ilya to talk to him. There is nothing to say.
Objectively, everything is fine. His life is amazing. He’s married to the love of his life, they play for the same hockey team, they don’t have to hide their love anymore. They have a dog and a place that is home. He has a family with Shane and his parents. He has friends with the centaurs and Svetlana. On paper, his life is amazing.
The thought definitively doesn’t help the guilt he feels when he holds the handful of painkillers.
Or: Ilya commits suicide. But when he dies, he finds himself as a ghost and is forced to watch Shane grapple with his death.
Bookmarked by existentialandsostrange
11 Feb 2026