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    Shane warned him, no mouthing off tonight. Ilya Rozanov, of course, did not listen and now he's forced to pay the price. What could be worse than time in the penalty box? When you're made to relive it at home under very....different circumstances.

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    Shane finally puts Ilya in his place.

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    13 Jul 2026

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    To the world, Ilya Rozanov is the face of resilience. He has the career, the house, and the man—Shane Hollander, the legendary rival who walked away from a legacy in Montreal to build a life by Ilya’s side. Yet, behind the surface, the foundation is cracking. Haunted by the shadow of his mother’s suicide and a crushing sense of guilt, Ilya is convinced he is the architect of Shane’s downfall. To Ilya, every “traitor” chant from the stands and every weary look in Shane’s eyes is a bill that he can never pay. The antidepressants are failing, the nightmares are returning, and the only thing louder than the roar of his Ducati is the silence of the things he can’t tell anyone.

    When a routine hit on the ice turns into a medical emergency, the “fine” life Ilya has spent months performing is stripped away. As his body fails, Shane is left to piece together the truth of the man he thought he knew.

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    05 Jul 2026

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    “Do you – is there anything we can do?” Bood asks. “To help?”

    Ilya shakes his head.

    “Okay,” Bood says. “No problem. Do you want me or one of the others to stay here with you? Or would you rather be alone?”

    “Alone,” Ilya says. His voice comes out rough. He clears his throat, but it doesn’t really help. “But maybe -” His face burns hot with humiliation at asking, but the thought of the house empty makes him shiver with cold even under the covers. “Maybe you stay downstairs?”

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    Ilya is having a bad day. Shane is out of town. That doesn’t mean Ilya is alone.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    “It’s getting bad again,” Ilya croaks out.

    It had been getting bad for weeks, but it’s hard to admit when it's so subtle. It morphs from a shitty mood to a bad day to an unlucky spell. Then all at once you’re underwater, unable to pry yourself from your bed, salt dried on your cheeks, head, and heart, somehow a thousand pounds.

     

    Or, Shane helps Ilya through the beginning of a depressive episode.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    Ilya refuses to cancel dinner with Shane's parents, terrified that showing weakness will make them think he is lazy, broken, or a disappointment. But when a severe depressive episode causes his hands to shake, he accidentally drops a crystal water glass.

    The sound of the shattering glass triggers a violent childhood trauma, sending Ilya into a full-blown, terrifying panic attack on the dining room floor as he frantically tries to clean up the mess before he gets hit.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    Heartbreaking fic about Ilya’s past