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    Shane gestured helplessly at the empty space Wyatt had just vacated. “Rozanov. What are you doing? This is for charity.”

    Sliding a heavy, matte-black credit card across the counter, Ilya didn’t even blink.

    “I know,” he murmured, his blue eyes dropping directly to Shane’s mouth. “I’m being generous.”

    When Shane Hollander is drafted into working the hospital’s Valentine’s Day kissing booth, he expects awkward kisses and a miserable afternoon.

    What he doesn’t expect is Ilya Rozanov buying every single ticket.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    How did he let this happen?

    Shane's not sure.

    One moment, he was on the gym floor not staring at Rozanov's gorgeous sweaty body. Then Shane was standing up, but his legs were weak for some god forsaken reason and Rozanov was there, just an arm around his waist to keep him upright, and now...

    Well.

    Now Shane's on his knees on the floor of Ilya Rozanov's shower.

     

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    Heated Rivalry, but the boys are forced to have an honest conversation around 8 years earlier than they do in canon.

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    Ilya stood up again, resuming his endless pacing around the room, “You never do it on purpose.”
    “What’s that supposed to mean?”
    “You always say you are sorry. But you never stop doing it. I move to shitty team, I get upset at shitty team and you feel guilty, you say sorry but you don’t understand when I complain.” He was raising his voice again and his grasp on English was getting worse by the minute.
    “That’s not fair.”
    “You say you are sorry about my family but then you do not understand what I have to say when we talk about families! It’s always your mom is too pressing or too worried. Guess what Shane! I do not have a mom to press me!”

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    Shane accidentally breaks something important for Ilya. Instead of reacting like he usually would, Ilya, already tired from a part argument, starts shouting at him eveything he's ever been upset about. Shane can't stand it and finds himself safe wording out of the argument. Fluff ensues.

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    Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.

    A stranger, and the love of his life.

     

    or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.

    OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!

    Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Ilya is not going to steal Shane Hollander's dog. That would be illegal. And wrong. And someone would probably find out and make Ilya give him back.

    So. Not stealing.

    But there is nothing wrong with giving Chernysh all the pats and treats that he deserves, is there?

    Nothing wrong with encouraging Chernysh to spend more and more time at Ilya's house until he doesn't even remember who Hollander is.

    Because Hollander is stupid and boring and does not deserve a dog as good as Chernysh. No, he doesn't, does he? Because Chernysh is the best boy in the whole world, yes he is.

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