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I don't wanna call it off, but I don't wanna to call it love by pnhdlrry
Fandoms: ZEROBASEONE | ZB1 (Korea Band)
28 Jul 2024
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Rui can do nothing except to look at her from afar. Gyuvin that used to be on her right side all the time, that couldn't live without intertwining each other's hand, that would give Rui a kiss on her cheek when she's not looking, the only one who could made a cramped dirty bathroom stall to a place better than heaven for five minutes or sometimes even more. The woman who inhabits every thought of a married woman, Shen Quanrui, every single seconds since the day she told her a lie that it was just a phase. A phase that lasted twenty good years, god who knows, maybe another twenty years to come?
When Gyuvin finally shifts her gaze to meet Rui's, she breaks into a smile. A tiny smile that could have meant anything, or could have meant nothing, it could've been for anyone other than Rui, maybe it could've been for the camera. But for Rui it feels like a stab in a wound that never heals for the last twenty years, a wound caused by Rui herself just like the biting scar on her arm she gets herself every lonely night she spends with the memories of her. A smile that asks questions such as : "Do you regret it?"
I do. More than anything.
"Told you so."
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A new transfer student, Malleus Draconia, is attending a summer camp for the first time. But he did not expect to be lost and stuck with a lovely clingy redhead.
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What does a human child doing here at this time of the night? Isn't he supposed to be inside his home, sleeping tight alongside his parents? Just like in the stories that Lilia always told him.
But instead why is he alone here, wandering in the darkness all by himself?
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Sometimes it feels like it will never get better. Paul’s English teacher calls home, concerned about his slipping schoolwork, and his father watches him with that silent disappointment face as he talks down the phone. He isn’t violent afterwards, just clipped and cold and “Paul, I expected better from you,” and it hurts more than the next day when he gives him a black eye.
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01 Jun 2026
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“I want a cottage right here.” San hangs onto Wooyoung’s words.
“But most importantly, I want a husband who will take care of me and let me take care of him.” Wooyoung yawns hard, so big he might swallow up San’s whole heart. He rolls onto his side, cheek pressed to San’s chest. “That’s my dream.”
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14 May 2026
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In 1963 John picks up the phone and makes a call.
In 1982 Paul answers.
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22 Mar 2026
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"Yes, captain."
The words that define Seonghwa’s life.
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05 Mar 2026
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Something ticked in Paul’s mind as the familiar words washed through him. When he looked at John, his friend was already looking at him. And suddenly, it all became clear: He remembered having that conversation more than 50 years ago. He remembered it too well.
He had been thinking about it for years, wondering what he should have understood, how he should have reacted. If it was as meaningful as it had felt or if his memory had just romanticized it.
“I don’t think a love like that obeys to any rules,” John went on, unaware of Paul’s agitation. “It’s not something that humans have created, not like a societal thing. It’s deeper than that, and that’s what some people are afraid of I guess, because they can’t control it. Whatever laws they create, they can never control it. A white lad will fall in love with a black girl.” He paused. “A lad with another lad. You know.”
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Summer 2019, 77-year-old Paul wakes up feeling surprisingly good. One tiny problem: he is back in December 1965.
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NO TRANSLATIONS EITHER, SORRY.Series
- Part 1 of On our way back home
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