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He loves Gyuvin, there’s no doubt about it. When they kissed, he too felt something spark against the plush press of their lips. He feels it whenever their fingers graze against each other or when they knock knees underneath the table by accident.
But, he feels the same way when it comes to Gunwook too, so what does that end up meaning?
He knows that his heart is inevitably being cradled in their hands but what does that mean for their future? What does the rest of his life all come down to? He’s no longer a child, so now what? What does it all come down to? Love? Yes—that feels right to him. Love.
The universe is trying to pry Ricky away from the two boys who ruminate through his mind. Ricky fights back and faces the pains that come with growing up and having a heart full of love in a world that isn't kind.
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Taerae heaves a deep breath, his frame trembling under Matthew’s emotional eyes. “I just—I just don’t know if I really deserve this. If I deserve you.”
“Bullshit,” Matthew spits, pressing their foreheads together. It’s intimate, invasive. “Do you want this? Me? Do you want me? Do you want us?”
Taerae just finds himself lost in Matthew’s eyes, his own heart constricting within his chest. He feels like he wants to choke out a huge sob from the confines of his soul. But somewhere internally, he finds the strength to nod his head.
“Then take it. Be selfish.”
Taerae broke up with Matthew a year ago yet his hands compel him to write a mixtape about him. From there, they fall into a spiraling dance of vulnerability and forgiveness.
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Gyuvin wanted to die, and he always got what he wanted. A full ride to Seoul National University, a pretty boy to nearly call his own, and his own yearned for demise. What a selfish fool to have everything he could ever want yet dream of days where he is no longer breathing, and how selfish of him to leave behind two boys who now have to learn to live without him.
Ricky likes Gyuvin but Gyuvin’s dead and Gunwook’s in love with Ricky whose heart hasn’t moved on
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for you, my beautiful boy by taelhrts for makiyahmacarons
Fandoms: ZEROBASEONE | ZB1 (Korea Band)
10 Mar 2025
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“Why would you bring me here? Dad would’ve never let you do this to me, how could you?” Gyuvin squeaks and all of a sudden his eyes are burning with tears and spit gets lodged in his throat.
He straightens his posture, glancing up to the ceiling as he lets out an exasperated sigh as to not let any of his pitiful, grief-stricken tears fall down his already flushed cheeks. He didn’t want to–god–he didn’t want to send his sixteen year old brother to rehab but what was he to do? Of course Dad wouldn’t have done this, their mother wouldn’t have either but he isn’t either of them, he’s not a parent. He’s a teenager himself.
Hanbin’s life changes when his parents inevitably pass away and his younger brother gets hooked on methamphetamines. Somewhere along the way he no longer feels guilty for putting himself first.
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- Part 2 of beautiful boy
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He was too busy being in love with Gyuvin to fall for someone new, no matter how many frat parties he found himself stumbling into. He was too busy being Gyuvin’s even though he wasn’t his. Gyuvin has already conquered the moon–a place in his heart. Yet Gunwook can’t even seem to reach for the stars in the night sky, let alone somewhere to lay in Gyuvin’s mind.
Gunwook and Gyuvin come home from college for the holidays and recap their lives they’ve spent apart. Along the way, Gunwook comes to accept that things change and so will he.
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Stories of a struggling addict and his brother who desires to save him.
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Ilya is sipping a cappuccino and watching Shane do very perverted yoga when he realizes that he doesn’t want to die.
It’s a dumb series of thoughts. He sees Shane bend over, neatly folding himself into a hunchback as his hands flatten by his feet, and Ilya thinks, I bet he’s going to love it when we’re old and grey and he can outrace me with my stupid hip replacement. And then he realizes that not only does he anticipate being old and grey enough to need a hip replacement, but that he actually wants to get there.
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Or: the existential crisis that happens when you’ve been depressed your whole life and then realize, suddenly, in your thirties, that you’re happy enough with your life that you no longer want to die.
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- Part 8 of my anonymous heated rivalry fic
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cardiac tamponade by asthestarsforetold
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Apr 2026
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Cardiac tamponade: pressure on that heart that prevents it from filling and beating adequately.
Shane thought he knew two things: his move to Ottawa would cause chaos, and that the Ottawa Centaurs were nice.
As it turned out, he only knew one of those things.
(Or: the Cens are still a team of professional hockey players. They're going to fuck up.)
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Grin and Bear It by Giveemhale
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
06 May 2026
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Ilya tries to get Shane to be friends with Troy. It goes horribly.
AKA Shane crashes out at Troy
Chap 2: Shane and Rose talk about fame and rage
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the world is scared of hesitating things by Anonymous
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
02 May 2026
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Once, years before they got their shit together, Ilya had spent a very boring physical therapy session thinking about what it would be like to fuck Shane in front of an audience. To have that beautiful, infuriating boy in front of everyone, to have everyone able to see him fall apart.
It had seemed hot then.
Now, having seen Shane actually fall apart—seeing him tear down the shroud he’d kept up, the perfect smile, the bravery—the very concept makes Ilya feel sick to his stomach. Everything inside him is razor blades and churning vodka and Svetlana’s awful skincare concoctions. He didn’t know.
After Shane blows up at Troy, everyone has some thinking to do. Nobody has a great time.
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07 May 2026
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Shane Hollander has a terrible night in Vegas.
"Are you gonna fuck me?" He's starting to wonder. Has three fingers in his ass, now. Maybe this is some weird power trip for Ilya. Maybe this whole thing will happen without Ilya even touching him at all. That would be awful.
Ilya raises an eyebrow. "We will see."
That's something, right? That means if he behaves right, Ilya will come over here. Does he realize how badly Shane wants that? Has he not been clear enough?
"I need."
Ilya keeps staring. C'mon! Do it! You liked it last time, or seemed to, at least!
"What."
"You know." Surely he knows. He can't not.
"Tell me." An instruction. Shane will follow the instruction; Shane will be good.
"You." Ilya's breathing hard. Was that right? Does Shane have to be more specific in order to do it right? "I need you." At this point, it doesn't even matter how he gets him. His cock would be wonderful, but so would his fingers, or his mouth, anything. Even his arms, clutching Shane. The need is all-encompassing and therefore non-specific; he just needs Ilya.
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- Part 1 of Vegas & its aftermath