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The ride back from the karaoke bar to the lake-house was a blur of laughter and giggles. Everyone was slightly buzzed, but not drunk and they were still singing Queen songs, teasing Henry endlessly about his performance, while secretly they all thought that he was at least a decent singer.
When they arrived Amy and the rest of the security team were sent away because they would not be needed anymore. They now had time to relax and take break from the chaos that was looking after the First Son and the Prince of England and their entourage of Nora and Pez.
All four of them went back in, still not being sleepy at all. “Anyone care for a little midnight drink?” Nora asked looking into the round.
“Actually, I’d rather like to enjoy the night outside for a little longer.” It was Henry, who was still all flushed from the alcohol, but also the Texan sun that had colored his usually pale skin, leaving him with a light tan, his cheeks and nose burnt a bit. He looked fresher and younger than Alex had ever seen him.
Alex inched closer to Henry putting his arm around his waist.
“That’s a fantastic idea. The nights outside at the lake are always pretty and enjoyable in the summer and it’s still quite warm.”
Nora and Pez looked at each other. They knew that Henry and Alex would be okay if they’d come with, but they also knew, that their alone time was limited to a few stolen and crammed in moments here and there.
“Hezza, Alexander – babes, I’ll leave that night outside to your own enjoyment. Do nothing I wouldn’t do and you know that this isn’t much.” Pez laughed about his own antics. “I’ll opt for the room, hoping the lovely Miss Holleran will join me for a fabulous night of conversation.”
“It will be my unbridled pleasure, Sir Percy.” Nora was grinning like a Cheshire cat from ear to ear. “I’ll take a bottle of red wine and off we go.”
“You don’t have to leave guys,” Henry insisted “You can always come out with us.”
Nora took one last look at Alex. She could read him like an open book after all those years of friendship and analyzing him. He would rather have a moment alone with Henry and Nora understood that very well. She knew how hard he fought for that little bit of time and privacy he could get with Henry. Never one to risk Henry’s outer appearance.
“It’s fine Henry. Enjoy your time together. I’m getting tired anyway and some red wine with Percy is going to bring me down sooner rather than later.
“Alright, you guys. Have a good night and see you in the morning. Breakfast at 8, right! Alex laughed, guiding Henry to the big terrasse doors leading to the outside and down to the lake. He grabbed a blanket on his way, so they could make themselves comfy on the ground.
Henry had gone quiet now. His thoughts seemed to be somewhere else. Alex took the time to drink him in. His pale skin looking even paler under the moonlight, but his eyes shining like they wanted to outdo all the stars in the sky. He had lost the cap he had worn and borrowed from Alex a while ago, when they were still at the bar. His blond hair now in perfect disarray from his enthusiastic singing and running his hand through it. He still wore Alex shirt though. The first few buttons undone, normally not appropriate for a royal offspring. But here in Texas, in Austin, at the lake house of Alex’ dad, he was just Henry Fox and Alex found him more beautiful than ever, with the stiffness that came with his role left on the plane that brought him here. They had reached the lake and Alex threw out the blanket for them to settle down. The campfire wasn’t out yet, maybe his father had sat outside earlier.
“You can sit down, I’ll see if I can find some more wood to get that fire going again, it will keep off the mosquitos, that will otherwise come to take a bite out of you and you know, only I’m allowed to do that.” Henry snorted at that.
“You’re ridiculous Alex, but go ahead. A little fire sure will be nice.”
Henry plopped down on the blanket, instantly looking up at the sky. He rarely saw a sky as clear as this. At home from the palace gardens at Kensington you almost never saw the stars. His eyes automatically began to wander. Looking for the formations he knew.
Alex was back with a few logs he threw in the fire, that instantly started to crackle again, giving off a warm orange glow.
Alex appeared in his view, looking down at Henry expectantly.
“What goes through that beautiful head of yours, Hen? You’ve gone quiet, after being the life of the party the whole evening.” Henry could see a bit of concern in Alex eyes, probably already starting to overthink, if it had been the right choice to bring him here, out to the lake or to Texas in general.
“Come on, sit down with me and I’ll show you.” Henry patted the spot next to himself, but Alex wanted, no he needed to be even closer. Getting as much physical contact as possible.
He sat behind Henry, putting his legs left and right, so Henry was situated between them. One arm going around Henry’s middle getting him as close as possible, while he put the other behind himself for balance. Henry sighed in contentment and put his head on Alex shoulder.
“Look up Alex, look at all those beautiful stars.” And Alex did. Following Henry’s gaze taking in the vastness of the sky that seemed never ending.
“It reminds me of him, my dad I mean.” Henry whispered. “We often went out in the garden at Kensington with a telescope, because you can’t see the stars like you can here. He showed me all the formations and told me stories about how stars are born and how they die. And sometimes we drove out of the city. Just him and I and then we didn’t need a telescope and we looked for Orion. It was his favorite formation and outside the city you could find it easily just searching the sky with your eyes.”
“Can you find it now?” Alex wanted to know.
“No, it’s not always visible. Only on specific times of the year, mostly in winter. I’ll show you at some point.” A small smile played on Henry’s lips, thinking about being able to show Alex one of the things he had shared with his father.
“I miss him you know. Every day. I lost a part of myself when I lost him.” Henry’s voice was thick with emotions and Alex instinctively pulled him even closer to his chest.
“I know baby, I know.” Alex put a sweet kiss to Henry’s cheek to show that he understood.
“But out here, Alex, I feel so close to him. Closer than I ever felt back in London and I think it’s also because of you. Thank you for bringing me here.” Henry squeezed Alex’ hand, whose heart felt so full at the moment it was close to bursting.
“Me? How?” he asked in wonder.
“Because you heal me, Alex. In ways no one could before. Bea always tried but she was so hurt herself and she did not always have the strength for both of us. My mom was so broken she couldn’t be there for any of us. Phillip just drifted further away and Grandpa, well he never understood. But you accept me for who I am, with all the cracks and broken parts. With you I can be myself again, the Henry that got lost all those years ago.”
Henry crawled out from between Alex’ legs and went up on his knees facing him. Alex did the same, so they were face to face. Henry put one hand on Alex cheek, letting his thumb gently stroke the line under Alex eye.
“So, thank you Alex, for giving me those moments where I can just be me – Henry Fox.”
Alex was at a loss for words. He sounded so hopeless and full of hope at the same time. It tugged at Alex’ heartstrings, that this perfect man felt like he could never be himself, only in those stolen little moments. He wanted Henry to always be himself but he knew that, with the life they both lived, this was nearly impossible. Alex couldn’t help but feel like that these words sounded a little bit like a goodbye, but that couldn’t be true. He wouldn’t just leave Alex. But why would he thank him now, because Alex wanted to continue to be the person to heal him and be there for him. Be his shoulder to lean on and his fortress when he needed protection from the world, but also be by his side and give him strength when he needed it. His mind began reeling like it always did, when too many thoughts were invading his brain.
Henry broke his train of thought, by shuffling even closer on his knees. Taking Alex face between his hands and kissing him like a man drowning and Alex was the only oxygen he needed. Alex kissed him back with just as much enthusiasm. Their lips sliding together like two pieces of a puzzle. Henry’s hands began to wander, his fingers combing through Alex thick curls down to the back of his neck, pulling him impossibly closer.
The kiss eventually broke with the need for air. Henry’s hands now at Alex chest, playing with the buttons of his shirt. He looked into Alex eyes, silently asking for permission and Alex granted it to him without a second thought. He slowly began to unbutton Alex’ shirt, taking his sweet time caressing Alex’ chest with his fingertips when he got the first few buttons open. Memorizing each muscle again and again. His hand wandering up to Alex’ shoulder, shoving the shirt out of the way, so it was hanging half way down his arms. Only held in place by the last few buttons.
Alex didn’t really move, afraid to burst the bubble that had formed around them. He just watched Henry, mesmerized by the care and reverence with which he touched him. It felt so different from all the times before. They never really had the time to just be, always stressed by the knowledge that one or the other had to leave in the morning. Henry opened the last few buttons on Alex’ shirt and it just fell down his arms completely. Leaving his upper body bare. Henry cocked his head to the side seemingly trying to take Alex in from every angle. Alex had never felt so vulnerable and yet so protected under someone’s gaze in his entire life.
His hands now moved on their own accord. He needed to feel Henry’s skin under his fingers. Needed to touch his chest where that strong and fearless heart was beating. He popped open all the buttons on Henry’s, well on his shirt, that Henry was wearing, which gave him a feeling he hadn’t known before. He loved that Henry felt comfortable in Alex’ clothes and it made him possessive. Like Henry belonged to him and it was clear for everyone to see. The shirt was now hanging open. Henry’s hand rested on Alex’ arms and Alex caressed Henry’s chest all the way from his heart down to the soft spot right over his hips where his hand found a place they perfectly fitted into. Henry watched Alex with a small private smile playing on his lips. He looked happy and content, like he only was when he felt truly like himself. Like Henry Fox – the young man who desperately wanted to be a writer and not a prince.
In this moment Alex felt with a clarity that he was undeniable and irrevocably in love with Henry. Maybe he knew before already, but he had never been more certain about his feelings than in this moment. He wanted everything with Henry. The good, the bad and the in between and he wanted Henry to know. His mind hadn’t stopped working, even while Henry was touching him. He wanted to tell him how he felt, say it out loud to make it feel real for them both. He didn’t know how Henry would react, because his mind still told him all of this felt like a goodbye. The thank you, the talking about his father, the way he touched Alex. But he needed to take this risk. Even if it was a goodbye for Henry, he couldn’t let him leave without knowing.
Henry was just leaning in for another kiss, but Alex had to say it now, before he got lost in the feeling of Henry’s perfect full lips again.
“Wait Henry!” and Henry instantly stopped his movement. “I need to tell you something and please I want you to listen first, okay.” Alex was calmer than he ever thought he could be in this moment. He had never before confessed his love to anyone. No one had ever been this important to him, had touched his heart in the way Henry had.
Henry looked confused but eventually nodded in understanding. Alex still held on to Henry’s waist, stroking the spot with his thumb.
“Henry, you told me once that you couldn’t afford for me to fall in love with you and right in that moment, I couldn’t really understand what you meant with that, brushing it off as a silly little joke. But I do know now why you said it and I hate to disappoint you. There is no universe in which I could not fall in love with you. I need you to know, Henry Fox, that I’m in love with you. I’ve known it for a while now, but this seems to be the right moment to say it.” Henry still stayed quiet, even though Alex saw that he wanted to say something himself, but respecting Alex’ wish to finish first. So many emotions were displayed on Henry’s face and it was hard to pinpoint which one was the strongest. Surprise, joy, excitement and love, but also fear, uncertainty and a bit of hurt. It was overwhelming looking at Henry now, but he wanted to see his reaction. But also, Henry just had to see and of course hear, what Alex still had to say.
“Henry, you need to know, that I want all of you, Henry Fox, the writer, the private person, Henry the Prince of England, the cracks and broken parts, as well as the already healed ones and your big indestructible heart. Seeing you here, being carefree and being more you than ever before. I want to be the person to help you be you all the time, but also when you can’t be. I just want to be by your side and let me love you Henry, because you deserve to be loved.
I understand when you can’t say it back or when you don’t feel the same way about me. I really do, but I needed you to know. I couldn’t let it be unsaid any longer.”
Henry said nothing for a long while, he just looked at Alex. His eyes unreadable. Like a mask put back in place, so no one could see the person behind it. Alex started to get uncomfortable. Had he crossed the line, overstepped Henrys boundaries or had he interpreted Henry’s feelings so wrong?
He shifted on his knees. Wanting do draw away a bit to give Henry space, but Henry held onto him with an iron grip. Not letting him move away even an inch. Suddenly he grabbed Alex’ face and kissed him with a fierceness Alex hadn’t felt from Henry ever. He clung to him like a lifeline, dragging him against his body and resting his hands on the small of Alex’ back.
When he broke the kiss, they were nose to nose, practically breathing the same air. Henry’s eyes were focused on Alex’ face.
“Alexander Claremont-Diaz, you stupid, wonderful man. When have I ever, from the first moment I touched you, pretended to be anything less than in love with you?”
A slightly hysteric giggle escaped Alex’ throat and he would just blame it on the sheer relief that flooded his body. Henry loved him back just as much and yes, he had felt that love often enough, but one could never be sure, right?
“Oh my god, Hen baby, for a moment I thought you were just going to leave. I wasn’t sure if this isn’t a goodbye.” Alex confessed.
“To be honest Alex, I often thought about breaking all ties, setting you free, letting you find a love that is worthy of your big, brave and wonderful heart. But I guess I’ve done a terrible job, as you can see. I really am a selfish man, Alex. I always came back and now I will stay.” Henry cast his eyes down, as if he was ashamed for not being strong enough to let Alex go and that just wouldn’t do for Alex. He put a hand under Henry’s chin and lifted it back up.
“You can’t just make those decisions for me. I can choose for myself who I want to be with and I knew who you were right from the beginning. So, I’m telling you now, that I will not let you go Henry, not without a fight, never.” Alex said sharply, putting as much weight as he could behind his words.
But Henry wasn’t done speaking.
“I see that now, but I also won’t lie. I am afraid, Alex. My feelings for you are immeasurable big and I am afraid to disappoint you.”
“Hey, none of that. You could never disappoint me”, Alex was fast to reassure.
“Please let me finish now, yes.” Henry asked
“Yeah okay, baby”
“I am afraid I can’t give you the life that you deserve Alex. I want to be myself, but you know that this is not an easy task and I need time and I need your patience and in the end, I still can’t promise you, it will be like you imagine it all. That’s why I said what I said. I didn’t want you to fall in love with me, because of who I am and all that comes with the burden of being a prince and because I’m still not out to the world and therefor forcing you into the closet as well. I don’t want you having to hide who you are and who you love. But of course, I love you, Alex and with you, I feel stronger than ever before. You make me want to be brave, darling. Unafraid to try and take what I want. Claim my life back for myself. I want to be the man you deserve, Alex.”
Alex just watched Henry talking about them being together, of who he wished to be and what a big role he himself played in all of this for Henry. The still burning campfire cast an orange hue over Henry’s pale skin and it made him look almost ethereal. He was the most beautiful man Alex had ever seen and he wanted to tell him and show him. He wanted to make sure Henry knew and understood.
“You already are, Henry. You are more than enough, more than I deserve.” Alex said with certainty in his voice.
“But how can you know that, Alex? How can you be so sure?” Henry still couldn’t really understand how Alex could choose somebody like him, who came with tons of problems and a life restricted by rules even he himself hated with a passion.
“Shhhhh, none of that now. Let’s go inside. I just want to be close to you Henry, feel you and show you how much I love you.” Alex smiled reassuringly. He stood up and held out his hand for Henry to take. Henry grabbed it, got up from the ground and held on tight. Too afraid to let go, just to find this moment had all been a figment of his imagination. Alex hurried to put out the fire, putting sand over it, then gathered his shirt and pulled Henry with him in the direction of the house.
They went up the stairs straight to Alex’ room, which was the last one at the end of the floor on the upper level.
As soon as the door closed Alex pulled Henry flush against him, the shirt discarded in a corner of the room. His hands moving to Henry’s shoulders and pushing down the shirt that he was still wearing. He desperately needed to feel Henry’s skin against his. Feel his muscles moving under his fingertips and his strong indestructible heart beating. Henry was his. No more being casual. Although that had ended a while ago for him already. But now that he knew Henry was feeling the same, every sense in his body was heightened and he felt everything with an intensity he didn’t quite know how to channel.
“I want you to make love to me,” he whispered into Henry’s ear and gently bit his earlobe. “Please I need to feel you, baby.” His hand began roaming Henry’s body, wanting to touch every part of it. But Henry stopped his movements, wanting to look at Alex. He looked a bit shocked. The surprise at Alex’ confession clearly visible on his face. “Alex, are you sure about this. It would be your first time. You really don’t have to, not because of me,” Henry rambled.
“I have never felt this way about anyone and I want this with you. I’m sure. I have never wanted anything more. I trust you with my life, Hen.” Hearing these word from Alex, Henry’s look turned into pure adoration and wonder. This beautiful man put so much trust in him and he wasn’t sure if he earned all of this, but he wanted to at least try and be the man Alex deserved.
“Okay darling, I’ll make it good for you, I promise.” Henry felt suddenly very nervous, even more then at his first time.
Alex saw the worry playing out on Henry’s face and he took his face into his hands, gently stroking Henry’s cheek to soothe his worries. “I know you’ll make me feel good, baby. Like I said, I trust you and it’s not like I never had anything shoved up my butt before.” Alex wanted to lighten the mood and it was actually working. He got a snort out of Henry and his eyes crinkled at the corners. “You’re a demon, Alex Claremont-Diaz. Now let me get those pants of off you and then get up on your bed.” Henry ordered. He opened Alex pants with still shaking hands, betraying the lightness he put into his words. He wanted Alex to enjoy this, despite his own worries, that he might not like it or his fear of hurting him.
Getting down Alex’ skintight jeans was a challenge on its own and he actually had to get down on his knees to manage it. They had already lost socks and shoes before going down to the lake.
“You look so good on your knees, Hen.” Looking down at Henry, he felt a shiver running down his spine. He had seen Henry in this position dozens of times, but this time was different. Despite him wanting to keep a light mood, he was being nervous and anxious. He put his hands in Henry’s blond strands of hair and tried to anchor himself and quiet his ever-working mind.
“Come on up baby. I don’t need you down there, not tonight.” He held out his hand to help Henry up.
Once back up, Henry got his arms around Alex, stroking up and down his back with his fingertips, raising goosebumps all over Alex body.
“Stop thinking, darling, I can hear your mind reeling pretty loud.“ Of course, Henry knew about Alex’ insecurities. “Tell me if you don’t like it and we’ll stop, tell me to slow down and I will, you know you can tell me everything, Alex. This is about you, so just lay back and enjoy it.” Henry gave him a playful shove and Alex fell down on the bed giggling. Taking of his pants and making it a show for Alex in spinning around after, he climbed on top, grinning down at him.
“Put your hands over your head and leave them there until I tell you otherwise. Let me do all the work. I want you to just feel, Alex.” The demanding tone in Henry’s voice made Alex shiver and he quickly obeyed and put his hands over his head just like Henry had asked him to.
Henry was mesmerized with the way Alex bend to his will so easily, all laid out for him for the taking, to be worshipped and taken care of. Long eyelashes fluttering over beautiful and deep brown eyes, creating shadows all over his face. A strong nose and red lips Alex kept biting in anticipation. His long neck stretched out with the way he was holding his hand up. The expanse of his brown, sun kissed skin on his upper body laid out like a delicious meal for Henry, ready to be devoured. His perfect pecs, protecting Alex’ strong heart, that he had handed over to Henry so willingly, that Henry still couldn’t grasp the full meaning of it all. The muscles on his stomach contracting with every intake of breath, leading to a happy trail disappearing into Alex tight boxers. Those already had a dark wet patch, showing just how turned on and aroused Alex already was. Henry was sitting on strong legs formed by years of lacrosse training. He let his eyes roam over Alex’ body again and again, trying to memorize every little detail and using his hand to help him feel all of it. Alex had closed his eyes in the process, taking in Henry’s careful touches, mapping out every inch of his body. His breath slowly became labored and holding still more and more of a struggle and yet Henry hadn’t even touched him properly, not the way he wanted it the most.
“Love, you need to do something, or it might be over before we even really began,” Alex panted.
“Sorry, I was just lost in your perfect body,” Henry looked a little sheepish, even though Alex knew he had enjoyed every second.
Henry bend down to put a sweet kiss to Alex’ nose and then a much filthier one to Alex mouth, coaxing open his lips and letting his tongue explore. Alex, not holding back - giving as good as he got. His tongue dancing around Henry’s until they were both breathless and in need for air.
Henry worked his way down Alex’ body now, leaving kisses and bruises on his way. Letting his teeth scrape over Alex’ nipples until they were red and peeking up, only to blow over them, making goose bumps erupt all over Alex’ body. Kissing down his stomach leaving a red bruise right over the waistband of his boxers. He hooked his fingers into the elastic, giving Alex a short warning. “I’m gonna take these off now.” Alex nodded and with that Henry made quick work of getting his briefs off and out of the way. Alex’ cock springing free, already hard. Pre-come glistening at the tip.
Henry was hovering over Alex, wanting one last confirmation, that this was really what Alex wanted and not just a spur of the moment and out of too much feelings kind of thing. He didn’t think it was, but he needed to be sure.
“Is this still really what you want Alex? You know I don’t care if I’m the bottom for the rest of our lives. I just want to be with you, in whichever way you’ll have me.” Henry emphasized.
“I know love, but I really want to have this with you, please.” Alex reassured him one last time. His heart felt like bursting at the seams, with the way Henry took care of him, wanting him to feel safe and seen. He felt so in love he could’ve died right in that moment and he would’ve died the happiest person on the planet; no, the whole solar system actually.
“Alright then,” Henry smiled down at him. “I’m gonna prep you now.”
Grabbing the lube and a condom, Henry put a generous amount of lube on his finger trying to warm it up a bit.
He slowly started working Alex open, first with one finger, then a second one and then adding a third. Distracting Alex with sucking bruises all over his thighs and praising him.
“You’re doing so well love, taking my fingers so perfectly. I love you so much Alex. I can’t wait to feel you, be inside you.”
Moans constantly spilling out over Alex’ lips. It felt incredible already, warmth spreading all through his body at Henry’s loving words and constant praise.
“Please, baby, I’m ready. I can’t wait one minute longer.” The anticipation was driving Alex wild. Henry had avoided his prostate the whole time and he was more than ready and eager to feel the love of his life inside him. He wanted to be one with him. Be as close as physically possible. He wanted to crawl under Henry’s skin and make a home there. This would take him one step closer to having an even stronger emotional connection to Henry, if that was even possible.
Henry must have seen the desperation in Alex’ eyes. Without wasting any more time, he pulled his fingers out and rolled the condom on. He put a pillow under Alex ass to make it easier and more comfortable for both of them. Henry might be experienced but he wasn’t sure how his body would react, feeling that heat inside Alex body around his cock for the first time and he didn’t want to hurt him. He wanted to go slow and savor this moment, make a moment worth remembering for Alex, for them both.
After slicking up his dick with a generous amount of lube, he slowly crawled all the way up over Alex’ body, bracketing him like a blanket. Needing the physical contact just as much as Alex.
“Love you can take your hands down now,” he whispered in Alex ear, gently sucking his earlobe. Alex instantly settled his hands on Henry’s back, pulling him even closer, roaming every inch of skin he could reach.
“Get in me, you damn tease. I’ll die if you don’t put that perfect cock in me in the next 30 seconds.” Alex was feeling a bit overdramatic with all the feelings coursing through his body.
“Well, we can’t have that, now can we. We just established that you’re not getting rid of me any time soon.” Henry’s smile could outshine the sun. Love and adoration for Alex shining in his eyes. “You’re wish is my command. Put your legs around my hips love” Alex did as instructed and settled his heels on Henry’s ass. Henry reached in between their bodies and took his dick in his hand.
Agonizingly slow, he breached Alex body, his eyes never leaving Alex’ face looking for any sign of discomfort, but he showed none. Alex’ breathing sure and steady. When his hips were flush against Alex’ ass, he let out a breath he didn’t know he was holding. Alex felt wonderful around him. Warm and tight and absolutely perfect. His wet heat fitting around Henry’s dick like a glove, like Alex’ body was made to take him in.
“You okay, love?“ Henry stroked his fingers over Alex’ cheek. “Let me know when I can move.” He wanted to give Alex time to adjust, but he was having none of it.
He pressed his heels into Henry’s ass, getting him just a tiny bit deeper, moaning in the process.
“I feel damn stellar, baby. I feel so full. Like you own me, Hen. Every part of me. Move, come on, move.” Alex spurred him on, pressing his heels relentlessly into Henry’s ass. Henry got the memo and he would give Alex what he wanted. He would give him everything.
He put his weight on his elbows, slowly pulling out and slamming back in with a bit more force. He repeated this a couple of times until Alex was used to the movements. Indecent sounds spilling out of his mouth. “God Hen, you feel so good inside me, filling me up so perfectly. You should have told me it felt like this. You held that information back all the time.” Damn Alex would be the death of Henry with that mouth he had on him. A hysteric laugh left Henry’s lips. “Who would have thought, that you would also be the perfect bottom, when already being the most amazing top. You need to exceed in everything, right?”
“What can I say I aim to pleaaaa, ahhh.” The last of Alex words were lost, when Henry slammed into Alex with more force, while also changing the angle, hitting Alex prostate dead on.
“Oh my god, Hen, do that again. That feels amazing, baby.” Alex had never felt this kind of pleasure before. It was all consuming, spreading like fireworks through his veins.
Henry drew his hips back again and again, nailing Alex’ sweet spot every time. Sweat running down the side of his face, making his hair stick to his forehead. The slapping sound echoing through the room mixing with his heavy breathing and Alex’ moans, accompanying every of Henry’s thrusts.
Alex was so close; he felt the heat already pooling low on his gut. His cock, neglected all the time, had already leaked a copious amount of pre-come on his stomach. He knew he just needed a little bit more to come, but he wanted to finish on top of Henry. He didn’t just want him to do all the work. He wanted him to feel good too. Giving him the pleasure, he received, as much as he took. So, he told Henry as much, even if it took all his remaining braincells to do so.
“Hen baby, let me finish on top of you. I can’t have you doing all the work. I want you to feel just as good as you make me feel. I know you’ll say, you already do, but please let me do this, okay.” Alex had made it impossible to argue and Henry just nodded at his request, because how could he say no to Alex wanting to ride him and take what he wanted and giving everything back in return.
He slowly pulled out, making Alex hiss at the loss. They changed positions and once Alex had settled on Henry’s hips, he sank down on Henry’s cock immediately. He couldn’t wait to be filled again. In this position he felt Henry even deeper. He experimentally circled his hips, feeling that Henry’s dick scraped his prostate with every move he did. When he found the perfect angle, he braced his hand on Henry’s chest, getting his hips up and slamming back down again.
Henry couldn’t stop watching Alex, being unashamed in taking what he wanted. He was a vision like that. Kneeling with his legs spread wide. Thighs on each side of Henry’s hips. Caramel skin stretched over taut muscle. Head thrown back and mouth agape with heavy beathing. Moaning out his pleasure. His dark curls a mess and sticking to his head from sweat. He was the most beautiful man Henry had ever seen.
“So close baby,” Alex almost sobbed. “I just need a bit more.”
“I’m gonna give you everything you need, love.” And Henry did. He planted his feet on the bed to get more leverage and as soon as Alex went down, he pushed his hips up, increasing the pressure on Alex prostate, pushing him closer and closer to the cliff Alex just wanted to fall off. At the same time, he put a hand around Alex’ cock, stroking it in time with his upward movements, thumb grazing over the head every so often.
Alex was lost in the sensation, his movements becoming more and more erratic. He wanted nothing more than get lost in the ocean of pleasure and being completely surrounded by Henry.
“Let go Alex, I’ll keep you safe, love.” The simple command and the reassurance that Henry would catch him, was all Alex needed and he came all over Henry’s hand and stomach. Fireworks exploded behind his eyelids and he felt the pleasure rolling like waves through his body. A never-ending sea of warmth and gratitude settling in his body. He opened his eyes, staring down at the man that had put down all his armor for him. A shield that had protected him for so long, now gone. Alex had his permission to love him. Henry had handed over his heart, so that Alex now would keep it save and protected. “I love you Henry,” it came out more like a whisper and he felt the edges off his eyes getting wet.
“I love you too. Come down here, love,” Henry smiled up at him, eyes feeling watery too. Alex went down easily, falling into Henry’s embrace, whose arms instantly circled around him, holding him close. Alex felt boneless, but he also knew that Henry hadn’t come yet.
“Baby, you did not come yet.”
“Don’t worry about me Alex, this was all about you tonight.” Henry ran his hand through Alex dark locks, but he knew that Alex was still feeling his hard dick pulsing inside him.
“You’re kidding right? You cannot give me one of the best freaking highs of my life and expect me to leave you hanging?” emphasizing his words Alex clenched experimentally around Henry.
“Ngghh, Alex oh my god, please don’t stop.” Henry keened in Alex’ ear. Alex had started circling his hips again, working through the overstimulation. He was determined, if nothing else, to bring Henry to completion.
Henry’s hips had started moving again on their own accord. Rutting into Alex to get the last bit of stimulation he needed to fall over the edge. Alex was putting kisses all over his face. Pouring all the love into every little touch. Giving every little freckle and the mole over Henry’s lip the attention they deserved. Letting his lips slide over the high cheekbones, where a cute rosy color had taken residence. Letting his tongue wander to the shell of Henry’s ear, licking it and nibbling at the earlobe. Henry was a moaning mess by now, only held down by Alex body weight on top of him and when Alex reached a particularly sensitive spot behind Henry’s ear, grazing his teeth over it, Henry was lost. His back bowed and he spilled his release into the condom, endorphins flooding his body. Raking his fingers all over Alex back, which sure would leave marks. Henry had never felt more loved and desired than in this moment. He knew he had done the right thing. Giving over his heart to Alex and receiving just as much in return.
Tears were burning in his eyes. “I love you so much Alex. Your soul shines so bright, it sometimes blinds me. I’m still not sure I can be the man you want and deserve. I want everything with you, I just don’t know how.” Tears were rolling down Henry’s cheek, his emotions overwhelming him. But as usual Alex was there to catch him. Wiping away the few stray tears that have escaped.
“Shhh sweetheart, we’ll figure something out. Don’t think about that now. Let’s just enjoy the moment and first let’s get cleaned up, okay.”
Alex untangled himself from Henry, because it was getting uncomfortable with the cum drying in between them. He carefully got up from Henry’s softening cock. Henry taking off the condom and tying it up, throwing it in the bin next to the bed. Alex padded into the ensuite bathroom, cleaning himself up and getting a washcloth for Henry. Coming back, he made sure to carefully wipe Henry clean, wanting to take care of the man he loved.
He threw the cloth back into the direction of the bathroom and crawled back into bed with Henry, pulling the cover over both of them.
“Little spoon or big spoon?” Alex asked smiling softly down at Henry.
“Get in behind me.” Henry grinned,” You end up clinging to me like a koala at some point at night anyway.” He had a point there. Alex was a cuddler for sure.
So, after putting a sweet kiss to Henry’s perfect full lips, he wiggled into place behind Henry, tucking him under his chin and putting his arm around his waist.
Henry felt safe and warm and sleep was tugging at the corner of his mind, but he needed to get out one more thing, that had been on his mind even before Alex had confessed that he loved him. He wanted to be open about who he was and not having to hide anymore.
“Alex, listen,” Henry began. Alex instantly tightened his grip around Henry, indicating he had his undivided attention. “This is something that has been on my mind for a while now.” Henry was happy he didn’t have to face Alex right now. It was easier to this get out while facing away from Alex.
“I want to come out, I don’t want to hide anymore, having to pretend to be someone I’m not and I don’t want to hide you. I don’t want you to be my dirty little secret. Always meeting up in secret, sneaking out of hotel rooms, only having stolen little moments. You don’t deserve that, Alex. You deserve to be loved loud and proud and free.” Tears prickled at Henry’s eyes again. He wanted all of that with a desperation that made his insides ache with the need to scream it out loud. But he knew it would never be that easy.
“Can you turn around baby, I wanna see you face.” Alex asked softly. Henry did; turning his body fully to face Alex. Brown eyes looking down at him with so much love, Henry didn’t know how to handle. The reassurance he saw in those caramel orbs made his emotions run wild and the tears began to run down freely. He hid his face in the crook of Alex’ neck, inhaling shakily. “Look at me, Henry.” Alex tried to hook his finger under Henry’s chin, looking into his eyes. “You know you don’t have to come out on my behalf, not if you’re not ready. I’m not even out myself. But if you are sure, then we will have all that, you will have that and I will be there for you every step of the way. You can do it at your own pace and I will be as patient as you need. Just don’t lose hope, sweetheart. You are way stronger than you think. Your dad would be proud of you. I love you, Henry and I will never get tired of telling you.” Henry smiled up shakily at Alex.
“I love you too, so much Alex. It’s just so hard, to believe in all that, when you have lived your whole life being told that you can’t show the world who you are, that you are wrong. But with you I want to try. I feel stronger with you by my side and I feel so much more unafraid.” Alex pressed a kiss to Henry’s forehead.
“We’ll get there darling. I believe in us.” Letting his thumb run over Henry’s eyebrow, a little smirk appeared on Alex’ face. “Also, I’m still a bit mad at you for holding back the knowledge that being on the receiving end of your perfect dick is so satisfying.” A snort escaped Henry unwanted and a smile spread over his face, bringing back the light in his eyes. It was exactly what Alex had intended to do. “There is that beautiful smile again, even if it is at my expense.” Alex put another kiss on Henry’s nose. “Now let’s go to sleep, darling. We are both exhausted and tomorrow is another day. We can talk more then, make plans or whatever you want to do.” Alex pulled him even closer and Henry’s eyes slowly drifted close. They both fell asleep safe in each other’s arms. Alex clinging to Henry like the koala he was, holding the man he loved, protected in his arms. They couldn’t predict the future, but they both knew it was easier facing the world together, than doing it alone.