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  1. Public Bookmark 49

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    “So… does this mean you’re my honey?”

    “I’m whatever you want me to be Ilya.”

    “I want you to be naked in that big fancy bath tub with me.”

    “I know. In a minute.”

    Ilya waited, his hands wrapped around Shane’s waist.

    “I just need to rest my eyes for a sec.”

     

    I’m whatever you want me to be.

    Ilya repeated the thought in his head. He knew he was being unfair. He knew he was being petty. But they’re on their honeymoon! They’re in Ibiza! And Shane is napping.

     

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    Shane and Ilya go on their honeymoon to Ibiza. Shane is autistic. Ilya is anxiously attached.

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    13 Jul 2026

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    “Is not like we don’t know how to be quiet, we hooked up in hotels for over a decade.”

    “It’s not about being quiet, Ilya. No matter what we do, they’re going to assume we’re in there having sex.”

    “Yeah, well, we probably will be having sex.” Ilya didn’t really understand the issue. Was he supposed to pretend he and his husband were celibate? Half the guys on the team made jokes about post-game sex with their partners. No one ever batted an eye with them. “Quiet sex, though.”

    Shane hadn’t disagreed, but apparently it wasn’t a helpful distinction.

    Shane insists he and Ilya sleep in separate hotel rooms for away games. Neither of them handle it very well.

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    12 Jul 2026

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    Ilya and Shane are broke roommates, until Ilya discovers streaming and starts making bank jerking off for the viewers
    Naturally, he offers his good friend Shane a chance at making money the same way
    And if they touch each other a little it’s only because of the tips, not because they are into each other

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    Shane and Ilya are both completely straight here
    #ISwearrr

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    11 Jul 2026

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    “Shane?” Ilya dropped down beside him instantly, panic flooding his voice. “Shane! l’ubímyj? What is happening? What did she say?”

    Shane couldn’t breathe. He couldn’t think. His brain repeating it over and over and over again.

    Gone.

    The word echoed, hollow and impossible.

    “I-it’s - fuck. M-My dad…” he choked out. “He- he’s-”

    Or…

    Shane finds out he is pregnant with his and Ilya’s first baby the same day his dad unexpectedly passes away.

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    11 Jul 2026

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    Again, Ilya feels the shame flare in his belly. He imagines his father across the counter from them, watching this unfold. Watching Ilya be babied by his fucking boyfriend over an injury. He remembered how he’d yell at his mother for babying Ilya, the word soft being thrown around a lot.

    But Ilya likes being babied. He likes watching Shane fuss and frown as he portions out the pills, filling a glass with Ilya’s favorite juice to wash them down with, then bustling up and back down the stairs with Ilya’s favorite pillow and the sleep mask he keeps in his travel bag for planes and hotels.

    He is soft. Weak too, probably. His father’s voice spits through his thoughts, sharp and disgusted. Ilya feels them settle on his shoulders, tug at his spine.

    “You okay?” Shane asks, hair messy from the shower, Ilya’s pillow against his chest.

    His father’s voice fades.

    “Yes, moya lyubov. I am okay.”

    -
    Or, a shoulder injury takes Ilya out for the season ten games into his second year with the Ottawa Centaurs. With one good arm and an empty house, Ilya battles with memories of his parents and his mental health.

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    11 Jul 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

    ***

    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    10 Jul 2026

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    The first time Shane calls Ilya baby, he barely even thinks about it.

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    09 Jul 2026

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    Ilya has decided he wants to welcome their last baby at home, so he plans to deliver at the cottage.
    Their little family spends quality time together on what might be their last day as a family of four, while Ilya battles the early stages of labor.

    ________
    Or Ilya finally goes into labor at 40 + weeks and delivers at the cottage like he planned.
    Also enjoy some uber fluffy hollanov family time <3

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    08 Jul 2026

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    Shane is out of town, and hasn’t heard from Ilya for hours. Yuna and David come over to find out what’s wrong, and Ilya is cared for in a way he’s not used to.

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    08 Jul 2026

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    Shane tries to stop Ilya’s ridiculous habit of climbing into his hoodies—only to realize he’d rather lose every hoodie he owns than make Ilya unhappy.

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    07 Jul 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 9

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    Shane Hollander loves Ilya Rozanov.

    He loves their quiet mornings in Ottawa, the life they're building together, the future they're finally planning out loud.

    Or as out loud as they are allowed to right now.

    Ilya loves Shane just as much.

    But, sometimes, loving someone isn't the hard part or can deliver the healing we think it should be able to.

    Sometimes, surviving yourself is.

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    04 Jul 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 59

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    Ilya Rozanov measures a lot of his relationship with Shane through touch. As the years pass and their relationship changes, Ilya craves that touch more and more.

    Read to find out how their relationship changes through touch.

    Or, an exploration of Ilya Rozanov and physical touch.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    "No m'not," Shane said, somehow pressing his face even more into Ilya's body. "All I ever did was play hockey. Now, I don't know what I'm gonna do. I hope we have a baby soon."

    The car went quiet at that. When Shane looked up, Ilya was looking out the window, jaw set.

    "S' something wrong?" Shane asked. He ran his fingertips along the warm skin of Ilya's forearm.

    Ilya turned back to face him, expression softened. Whatever pensiveness had taken hold of him was gone.

    "No. Everything is perfect."

    After sixteen seasons of professional hockey, Shane Hollander retires from the NHL in the interest of starting a family with his loving husband. It's maybe a little earlier than he would've liked, but with his thirty-five year old knees beginning to protest, it makes sense.

    He's happy. He and Ilya have been working towards this for nearly a decade.

    He's also terrified, wondering if this is the biggest mistake of his life, and thinking that maybe he should take it all back. But mostly, he's happy.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    “Perfectly fine. I’ll be good as new in a couple of days.” 

    “Good.” A moment of quiet on the other line. Shane could hear Ilya breathing. 

    “I love you so much. You know this, yes?”

    “Of course I do. And I love you too. I’ll see you…” Shane had to consider when the next day they could visit would be.

    "When you see me," Ilya supplied.

    “I'll see you when I see you. Okay. Sure.”

    “Bye, Shane."

    “Bye.”

    The Boxing Day argument doesn't happen, Ilya doesn't seek professional help, and he and Shane keep pretending everything's fine. In the last few weeks of the season, Ilya reaches a breaking point. After saving his boyfriend's life, Shane is forced to grapple with the broken pieces, figure out what went wrong, and try to slot everything back together again.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Shane survives the world’s worst flu and thinks the nightmare is over.
    It is not.

    Because now Ilya is sick.
    And Ilya is stubborn, delirious, chaotic, and apparently capable of flirting with household lamps.

    Shane promised he would take care of him.
    He just did not realise it would involve grocery store emergencies, Russian melodrama, world's worst meals, and a fever so high it nearly stops his heart.

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    29 Jun 2026

  16. Public Bookmark 1765

    Mystery Work

    Part of AZRAELRIEGO
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    29 Jun 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 22

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    Okay baby, BUT, and I am being so for real rn, picture this: I buy the car. Buttery soft leather. Like living breathing snarling tiger skin. 

    Glistening red. So shiny it looks wet, slick.

    Doors scissor open so smooth for me, pushed high up in air spread wide like knees. 

    [...]

    [...]

    She is purring for me, Shane. Under me. Warm. 

    SHE??

    [...]

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    Weird-ass extremely sappy objectifying kinky sexts that happen at some point after the final chapter of Not to Abolish, but to Fulfill. They are better if you've read the first work and have the full emotional/sexual/narrative context of the story to which it belongs. I intended for this to just be silly, but somehow it became relationship development I didn't realize the first work was lacking.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    “Do it again.”

    “Ilya, come on.”

    “Again. Now. Please, I want to see my boyfriend wear glasses.” he even bats his eyelashes this time, looking up at him all pretty like the devil trying to distract Shane from scheduling. He looks up at him from where he now laid between his legs with bright, wide, hungry eyes.

    Shane just sighs and presses them back on his face. Adjusting them and looking back at Ilya, he shakes his head. “Okay?”

    (ie. what happens in the cottage after they leave yuna and david's house - as boyfriends)

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    25 Jun 2026

  19. Public Bookmark 38

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    25 Jun 2026

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    Three times Ilya takes care of Shane and one time Shane takes care of him.

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    31,053

    22 Jun 2026

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